Hi @brit I see that you define yourself as an alcoholic. I also am a recovering alcoholic with 30 years sobriety. I do work a 12 step program and attend weekly meetings. I have to stay close to my home group and recovering friends or I know I will drink again. I think we have much in common as I also live in a cabin in the woods which I love. Being in nature helps to relieve my anxiety and depression. Like you, I have suffered from major depression and anxiety for all of my life. Everyone in my family has also suffered from this so I think it is chemical and in my genes, too. Also, like you, I have a wonderful, supportive and helpful husband who also works a 12 step program although he is not an alcoholic. As for your tongue problem, I have a tendency toward yeast overgrowth especially if I am taking an antibiotic. For this reason, I also drink Kefir daily and take a prebiotic and a probiotic. Before bed, I rinse my mouth with a mild peroxide solution. This keeps it at bay. Glad to hear you are doing better. Stay in touch and stay strong.