~ Winter, depression, money ~

I know that sounds strange, and I'll try to keep this short. Winter is always a bad time for me, the passed two days we just had a terrible ice storm and were without electricity for over 2 days .... that sure didn't help. I've change insurance companies and thought it kicked in as soon as the papers were sent in ... wrong, I was to have sent the first 2 payments, so I'm getting bills from my therapist and Psychiatrist .... big fat bills which I'll have to pay in increments. I also got a bill from the local Med Express when I had Cat Scratch Disease - still dealing with that. In short, there's just not enough money to pay for everything. I've got a budget that really frugal, and I don't know where to turn.
I think I know the answer to this, but if you don't ask the answer is always no, so ...... I've been divorced for 10 years (after a 40 year marriage), and at the time I had a hefty inheritance from my Dad. I went to an Investment Counselor who, unknown to me was running his own little ponzi scheme. By the time the SEC discovered it, none of us had any recourse ..... there went Dad's money or 9/10 of it. When I got divorced my lawyer told me that after 40 year marriage, staying home with 3 kids til they were out of the house, I could "skin him alive." (he's a narcissist) Well, since then I had the inheritance I didn't think it was right to do anything, so I didn't even go after alimony. After that came the ponzi scheme.
I'm seriously thinking of calling my lawyer to see if just the alimony portion of the divorce can be "revisited" so that he would pay me something each month .... I doubt it, but I'm going to try. Life is hard right now, it's winter, and sometimes it's just not worth getting out of bed.
abby