@parus

Return visit to doctor resulted in a trip to imaging as to who knows what? Scary as I had them before. Tomorrow at 2. What next? Back in a week for results and a different doctor as the one I am seeing is leaving for Haiti. The one seen prior to the assigned doctor freaked me out so much with her uncertainty-not her again!!! We ought to be able to feel safe and confident when seeing the secondary to the pcp. Stressed to the max. No one to ask for help. Suck it up coward and just go get it over with…the noise is dreadful for me. i know for most this is no problem. My vision goes to black and white—I can do this.

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@parus – I had to quit using the earplugs because they were bothering my ears. A lot of people like to listen to music with earphones. I use them sometimes when I want to listen to a link online, and my wife doesn’t like it when I just play through the speaker. I can hear everything around me with the headphones on – I don’t like the ear buds – so I don’t feel closed in.

I enjoy reading your posts and responses in the group. You bring out smiles with your words and pictures.

Jim

@parus

Return visit to doctor resulted in a trip to imaging as to who knows what? Scary as I had them before. Tomorrow at 2. What next? Back in a week for results and a different doctor as the one I am seeing is leaving for Haiti. The one seen prior to the assigned doctor freaked me out so much with her uncertainty-not her again!!! We ought to be able to feel safe and confident when seeing the secondary to the pcp. Stressed to the max. No one to ask for help. Suck it up coward and just go get it over with…the noise is dreadful for me. i know for most this is no problem. My vision goes to black and white—I can do this.

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Teresa @hopeful33250 – I trust that the Echo results will be good news.

Jim

Looking for new PCP. Have a bladder issue and was given PAP by another because she had never done one. I wasn’t there for PAP, but one was done for practice-I am not at risk so no harm done as the one being instructed seldom gets a result and now seeing a specialist tomorrow-why I was at the PCP to be referred. Yes, I feel used and have been cramping for 2 weeks now. Abuse never stops. Just wanting to disappear. Things like this should not happen to anyone :(. Have got to get through another exam tomorrow.

@parus

Looking for new PCP. Have a bladder issue and was given PAP by another because she had never done one. I wasn’t there for PAP, but one was done for practice-I am not at risk so no harm done as the one being instructed seldom gets a result and now seeing a specialist tomorrow-why I was at the PCP to be referred. Yes, I feel used and have been cramping for 2 weeks now. Abuse never stops. Just wanting to disappear. Things like this should not happen to anyone :(. Have got to get through another exam tomorrow.

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Oh, @parus

I’m so sorry to hear that you have another one of life’s hurdles to face! I am glad that you are seeing a specialist, though. I hope that this specialist will treat you with kindness and respect and that you will feel comfortable.

We would love to hear from you after your appointment.

Teresa

@parus

Looking for new PCP. Have a bladder issue and was given PAP by another because she had never done one. I wasn’t there for PAP, but one was done for practice-I am not at risk so no harm done as the one being instructed seldom gets a result and now seeing a specialist tomorrow-why I was at the PCP to be referred. Yes, I feel used and have been cramping for 2 weeks now. Abuse never stops. Just wanting to disappear. Things like this should not happen to anyone :(. Have got to get through another exam tomorrow.

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Hi, @parus — I’m really sorry to hear that happened. How are you feeling this morning?

@lisalucier @hopeful33250 Wanted to check in and say the visit with the specialist was respectful, caring, kind and professional. A positive experience. Thanks to all for the support. Bladder issue not as bad as told and no surgery needed. Whew. After the other experience I went forth with great trepidation. Now I will not mind one bit if I need to go back. The doctor even had a student with her and the nurse asked if it would be okay if the student came in with her. I felt safe and cared for. 🙂
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL.

@parus

@lisalucier @hopeful33250 Wanted to check in and say the visit with the specialist was respectful, caring, kind and professional. A positive experience. Thanks to all for the support. Bladder issue not as bad as told and no surgery needed. Whew. After the other experience I went forth with great trepidation. Now I will not mind one bit if I need to go back. The doctor even had a student with her and the nurse asked if it would be okay if the student came in with her. I felt safe and cared for. 🙂
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL.

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@parus

Sure glad you had a good experience.

Happy Thanksgiving to you, as well.

Jim

@parus

@lisalucier @hopeful33250 Wanted to check in and say the visit with the specialist was respectful, caring, kind and professional. A positive experience. Thanks to all for the support. Bladder issue not as bad as told and no surgery needed. Whew. After the other experience I went forth with great trepidation. Now I will not mind one bit if I need to go back. The doctor even had a student with her and the nurse asked if it would be okay if the student came in with her. I felt safe and cared for. 🙂
HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL.

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Oh, thank goodness the experience was so positive this time, @parus — really glad to hear that. Thanks so much for circling back and telling us about this.

@parus

That is such good news! Thanks for letting us know. You needed to have a good doctor’s office experience and I’m glad that you found it!

Teresa

yes! severe, lifelong from childhood.

@pendragonart

yes! severe, lifelong from childhood.

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Hello @pendragonart

I appreciate your post in our PTSD discussion group. I see that you are a relatively new member to Mayo Connect, so let me welcome you!

I see that have experienced lifelong PTSD from childhood. Would you feel comfortable sharing with us some of the ways you have dealt with this problem? Have therapy, medications, lifestyle changes been beneficial to you?

Teresa

@pendragonart

yes! severe, lifelong from childhood.

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i think no matter how you approach the debilitating problems associated with any type of ptsd it is painfull. it is done over and again repeatedly. the mind must be handled with care, over and over and over again and gain. sometimes you can make srides sometimes you cannot. it is very painful. many times you lose, sometimes you win for the moment. keeping very busy is one way to override the moment. your mind goes in circles. you straiten out the flow and then another memory jumps in place. i think one of the things that helped me was keeping very, very busy. having and taking care of three children (one born with a birth defect inherited from the fathers side) which required 19 operations, speech therapy and etc., etc. orthodontry, prostodontry, bone grafting, etc. which did not (i think) affect the ptsd because it was not a persnal attack against me. i looked at it this way: god gave me this child because he knew i would love and take care of him in the very best way no matter how many years it took. and it did take over 20 years. the main and basic reason for my ptsd is because never having love, never been hugged or kissed. always being beaten with a belt buckle part, broom sticks, he wooden handle, being told constantly i was stupid, crazy, etc., etc. this from both parents who also alowed my 3 sisters to do the same, beat on me, talk down to me. etc., etc. on and on. and then i grew up having other people treat me the samw. the story goes on from there. i could write 3 books on my horror of a life. now i am 80 years of age and still suffer. at this point in my life i am lucky to have a psychiatrist that i see once a month. because of all the old age illnesses (amy) i take so many medications so i cannot take meds for the ptsd besides a small dose .05 pill of lorazepam at night and sometimes in the morning which does help. all the other meds for my bipolar gives me the shakes so bad it it dangerous. so therefore no meds for the bipoar and the ptsd except the lorazapam. i could go on about the sexual harrassment at work (he the big shot never got what he wanted but he put me in very dangerous places and towards the end he was trying to discredit me and get me fired because iwas creating an embarrasment toward him because of his treatment of me. however, got enough time in and retired. on and on. so many more incidents, overand over again and again. would like to write a book or 2 but would need a ghost writer to help me as i flow all over the place.there are still some nights my mind runs like a jet plane all over the place and cannot sleep. but life is still good. so far, still alive. will talk more and questions are ok. love, peachbarb

@pendragonart

yes! severe, lifelong from childhood.

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@peach414144

Barb, it’s not enough to say how sorry I am for the abuse you suffered over so many years at the hands and voices of others. That’s beyond evil, and beyond sad. It’s also beyond sad that such evil continues to exist.

We look forward to the day when there will be peace on this old earth and Satan will be bound. .

Sadie has been stretched out over my lap, doing her therapy on me for an hour or so, but now it’s time to take her out to do her business before bedtime. I hate to end the therapy session.

I hope you find a time of pleasure in your week.

Jim

@pendragonart

yes! severe, lifelong from childhood.

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Hi @peach414144 — I, too, am terribly sorry for the abuse you’ve suffered over your lifetime and its effects on you. Though it is horribly painful, you somehow seem to rise above all this and have great strength.

@pendragonart

yes! severe, lifelong from childhood.

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PTSD is a tough thing. I have many triggers and so dislike when I get blind sided. I was married to a man for 14 yrs. diagnosed w/ NPD. Just could not stick it out. Too much like listening to recantations from the past. Totally understand the jet plane mind. So awful and I have a hard time getting the zoom-zoom mind to quiet itself. Also having difficulties w/ several old age chronic illnesses. PTSD doth take its toll. Being in nearly constant fight or flight mode only causes the pain to be worse. I sometimes can find peace w/ my paint brushes.