Piglet - Hi there ..... I keep getting messages in my inbox that there is a message from you, but I can't seem to get to it. It's not on the Board and not in my e-mail.
Hi everyone ........
I've had quite an up and down week. Since I got home from VA I have felt very heavy internally, very old and just sad to see the way my daughter and her family function. I would never say anything - it's none of my business - but it certainly doesn't make me want to move down there. They don't understand that with as fragile as I sometimes feel, to leave a place I've lived for 30+ years is very hard. One of them says "oh you'll make new friends ... you don't have trouble doing that," and while that's true, I'm thinking more of my "safety net" ..... my Therapist and my Psychiatrist. They are the best ones in the whole surrounding area and why would I want to leave that? I know if I run into trouble, who to call. I'm just not able to change that right now .... maybe never. I've been seeing my Psychiatrist every 4-6 months for 12 years and seeing my Therapist for 10, to weed through all the trauma from my childhood and marriage. These 2 people are very important to me. I do not trust easily - especially men - and it took 4-5 years to trust my Therapist with all the real stuff about my childhood - like sexual abuse and being locked in closets. People that have never dealt with mental difficulties just don't get it .... I just wish they would really listen and "hear" us when we try to tell them. Funny thing is both my girls are Geriatric Social Workers. And, my X husband of 40 years lives down there too.