dear wendell. thank you for this information. first time i have heard of this cptsd. would really, really want and need to go to a support group. i will try to find it on the internet. wonderful and thanks again. as this went on into my teens. many years, many, many. even to this day if i would have anything to do with any family members. lonely.@@
Thanks for the information. I'd say that it's pretty complex for me, with each event building on the previous ones over the course of my life. Even dealing with the disorder is traumatic sometimes. As my therapist says, anxiety about anxiety, depressed about depression. Trauma about trauma. I have to be attentive to that because it's so true for me.
I'm sorry you're so lonely, Barb peach. Trouble with loneliness is that we can be lonely even though we're surrounded by people. We do need each other, don't we. I've discovered that even connecting with people online can relieve loneliness.
For anyone living w/ PTSD symptoms vary. I had some terrible experiences w/ therapists and this did nothing but increase my symptoms. I was misdiagnosed and loaded up w/ anti psychotics which were so wrong-One therapist ended up w/ a 99 year suspension on her license and is still harassing and stalking me which is so difficult. I moved once and she found me...I did not file the charges against this therapist.
Living in fear is not the way to live out the rest of my life...I live in fear for my family too. I don't know where 2 of my adult children live because of this mess w/ someone that was supposed to be helping...I find it hard to trust.
I have grand children too. I live in fear for them. This sicko caused much harm to others as well. One less predator in the mental health system.
Maybe I can get some help from others. I grew up being abused and did not know as I partitioned by brain into other parts and did not need to deal...now I am trying to have some kind of life and fear has driven me back from others.
I can understand that some have been helped by the mental health system...I don't think there is help there or anywhere.
I'm so sorry @parus for all that you have gone through. Especially with your therapist, someone you trusted. That is so wrong what she is doing. I'm glad her license were suspended. You should not have to put up with that kind of treatment. You might contact the behavioral science regulatory board in your area, if that's what it's called in your state. I had a very negative experience with a psychologist many years ago, and he had his license suspended for a time because of his treatment of me.
I can sure understand your not thinking there is help out there, but I want to encourage you to continue to try to find a therapist who has your best interest in mind and that you feel safe and comfortable with. I went years without seeing a therapist after my negative experience, but out of determination to feel better, I started looking for someone again and was fortunate to find a very caring and ethical one. Because there ARE good ones out there too! Best of luck!
For anyone living w/ PTSD symptoms vary. I had some terrible experiences w/ therapists and this did nothing but increase my symptoms. I was misdiagnosed and loaded up w/ anti psychotics which were so wrong-One therapist ended up w/ a 99 year suspension on her license and is still harassing and stalking me which is so difficult. I moved once and she found me...I did not file the charges against this therapist.
Living in fear is not the way to live out the rest of my life...I live in fear for my family too. I don't know where 2 of my adult children live because of this mess w/ someone that was supposed to be helping...I find it hard to trust.
I have grand children too. I live in fear for them. This sicko caused much harm to others as well. One less predator in the mental health system.
Maybe I can get some help from others. I grew up being abused and did not know as I partitioned by brain into other parts and did not need to deal...now I am trying to have some kind of life and fear has driven me back from others.
I can understand that some have been helped by the mental health system...I don't think there is help there or anywhere.
i would like to put my 2 cents into this please. i agree with all of you. have experienced this first hand. most (or all) of these (people) have many different kinds of mental defects. after they get a degree in these areas it gives them the privelage to abuse people with such enjoyment. realize where they are coming from, know that they know what they are doing or trying to do to you. there are many of these people on this planet. sometimes they are caught. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND SHAME ON THEM. YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO YOURSELF AND TO THE WORLD. (WHAT A SHAME IT IS FOR THE VERY WONDERFUL AND CARING THERAPISTS). with love peachbarb
Peaches, @magspierce Jim
I understand that. I have had to go no contact with my narcissistic mother and family of flying monkeys that aided in her horrible physical & verbal snd mental abuse.
Walking away from my whole family and getting healthy was the best thing that I ever did. I have found my own family. In my life blood is NOT thicker than water
And the hardest thing after was figuring out how not to run away like a bat out of hell every time I felt uncomfortable. And I felt uncomfortable a lot! When you are a child and the very people that are supposed to give you love and protection are your abusers, trust and self worth are only words to you.
Just know that you can get through it...and little by little you learn how to let people get past that wall of protection that you have built up around you.
There is a website called Out of the Storm, the first time I read the pages, I just couldn't stop crying with every word I found I wasn't alone in my pain... and just knowing that made me stronger.
Google complex PTSD quotes and you will see you are not alone! There are number of sites and blogs that can start you in the right direction with advice on things like how to find a therapist who understands the "complex".
For anyone living w/ PTSD symptoms vary. I had some terrible experiences w/ therapists and this did nothing but increase my symptoms. I was misdiagnosed and loaded up w/ anti psychotics which were so wrong-One therapist ended up w/ a 99 year suspension on her license and is still harassing and stalking me which is so difficult. I moved once and she found me...I did not file the charges against this therapist.
Living in fear is not the way to live out the rest of my life...I live in fear for my family too. I don't know where 2 of my adult children live because of this mess w/ someone that was supposed to be helping...I find it hard to trust.
I have grand children too. I live in fear for them. This sicko caused much harm to others as well. One less predator in the mental health system.
Maybe I can get some help from others. I grew up being abused and did not know as I partitioned by brain into other parts and did not need to deal...now I am trying to have some kind of life and fear has driven me back from others.
I can understand that some have been helped by the mental health system...I don't think there is help there or anywhere.
I like the tiny taste of your watercolors. It would be nice to see more. I imagine it's good therapy, though it's not something I've ever tried. I find knitting therapeutic, as well as gardening, playing the piano, going to church, housepainting, shopping (especially thrift stores) and going for drives.
Peaches, @magspierce Jim
I understand that. I have had to go no contact with my narcissistic mother and family of flying monkeys that aided in her horrible physical & verbal snd mental abuse.
Walking away from my whole family and getting healthy was the best thing that I ever did. I have found my own family. In my life blood is NOT thicker than water
And the hardest thing after was figuring out how not to run away like a bat out of hell every time I felt uncomfortable. And I felt uncomfortable a lot! When you are a child and the very people that are supposed to give you love and protection are your abusers, trust and self worth are only words to you.
Just know that you can get through it...and little by little you learn how to let people get past that wall of protection that you have built up around you.
There is a website called Out of the Storm, the first time I read the pages, I just couldn't stop crying with every word I found I wasn't alone in my pain... and just knowing that made me stronger.
Google complex PTSD quotes and you will see you are not alone! There are number of sites and blogs that can start you in the right direction with advice on things like how to find a therapist who understands the "complex".
Thank you for your encouragement. I'm going to try to remember to talk about complex PTSD. I don't know if I'll have time at my next appointment on Thursday because I already have some important issues to begin working through, but I'll put it on my list of things to talk with the doctor about. I keep a list in Evernote on my phone.
Peaches, @magspierce Jim
I understand that. I have had to go no contact with my narcissistic mother and family of flying monkeys that aided in her horrible physical & verbal snd mental abuse.
Walking away from my whole family and getting healthy was the best thing that I ever did. I have found my own family. In my life blood is NOT thicker than water
And the hardest thing after was figuring out how not to run away like a bat out of hell every time I felt uncomfortable. And I felt uncomfortable a lot! When you are a child and the very people that are supposed to give you love and protection are your abusers, trust and self worth are only words to you.
Just know that you can get through it...and little by little you learn how to let people get past that wall of protection that you have built up around you.
There is a website called Out of the Storm, the first time I read the pages, I just couldn't stop crying with every word I found I wasn't alone in my pain... and just knowing that made me stronger.
Google complex PTSD quotes and you will see you are not alone! There are number of sites and blogs that can start you in the right direction with advice on things like how to find a therapist who understands the "complex".
I know that many people have had to break away from their toxic families. As you said, it's not natural. They're the people we're supposed to turn to and lean on, who never stop loving us. Unfortunately, it doesn't work out that way every time.
As children, we were a very close family, but as we grew up and had families of our own, we kind of drifted apart. Not that we stopped loving each other, but the next generation became our primary focus. I was the last holdout to get a computer and get reconnected online, and then on cell phones. I feel more connected with my siblings now than I did for a long time. I can't really imagine what it would be like never to see or hear from them again. It's good that you have other families.
Connect
Connect
Like
Helpful
Hug
Jim, the C stands for Complex, meaning from multiple experiences of abuse and trauma. In case you haven't found out yet what it stands for. 🙂
-
Like -
Helpful -
Hug
1 Reactiondear wendell. thank you for this information. first time i have heard of this cptsd. would really, really want and need to go to a support group. i will try to find it on the internet. wonderful and thanks again. as this went on into my teens. many years, many, many. even to this day if i would have anything to do with any family members. lonely.@@
Wow! I never heard of that either, but it sure makes sense. Are there any groups for this or is this something to discuss with our own therapist?
abby
@magspierce, @peach414144
Thanks for the information. I'd say that it's pretty complex for me, with each event building on the previous ones over the course of my life. Even dealing with the disorder is traumatic sometimes. As my therapist says, anxiety about anxiety, depressed about depression. Trauma about trauma. I have to be attentive to that because it's so true for me.
I'm sorry you're so lonely, Barb peach. Trouble with loneliness is that we can be lonely even though we're surrounded by people. We do need each other, don't we. I've discovered that even connecting with people online can relieve loneliness.
Jim
-
Like -
Helpful -
Hug
2 ReactionsI'm so sorry @parus for all that you have gone through. Especially with your therapist, someone you trusted. That is so wrong what she is doing. I'm glad her license were suspended. You should not have to put up with that kind of treatment. You might contact the behavioral science regulatory board in your area, if that's what it's called in your state. I had a very negative experience with a psychologist many years ago, and he had his license suspended for a time because of his treatment of me.
I can sure understand your not thinking there is help out there, but I want to encourage you to continue to try to find a therapist who has your best interest in mind and that you feel safe and comfortable with. I went years without seeing a therapist after my negative experience, but out of determination to feel better, I started looking for someone again and was fortunate to find a very caring and ethical one. Because there ARE good ones out there too! Best of luck!
-
Like -
Helpful -
Hug
2 Reactionsi would like to put my 2 cents into this please. i agree with all of you. have experienced this first hand. most (or all) of these (people) have many different kinds of mental defects. after they get a degree in these areas it gives them the privelage to abuse people with such enjoyment. realize where they are coming from, know that they know what they are doing or trying to do to you. there are many of these people on this planet. sometimes they are caught. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF AND SHAME ON THEM. YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO YOURSELF AND TO THE WORLD. (WHAT A SHAME IT IS FOR THE VERY WONDERFUL AND CARING THERAPISTS). with love peachbarb
Peaches, @magspierce Jim
I understand that. I have had to go no contact with my narcissistic mother and family of flying monkeys that aided in her horrible physical & verbal snd mental abuse.
Walking away from my whole family and getting healthy was the best thing that I ever did. I have found my own family. In my life blood is NOT thicker than water
And the hardest thing after was figuring out how not to run away like a bat out of hell every time I felt uncomfortable. And I felt uncomfortable a lot! When you are a child and the very people that are supposed to give you love and protection are your abusers, trust and self worth are only words to you.
Just know that you can get through it...and little by little you learn how to let people get past that wall of protection that you have built up around you.
There is a website called Out of the Storm, the first time I read the pages, I just couldn't stop crying with every word I found I wasn't alone in my pain... and just knowing that made me stronger.
Google complex PTSD quotes and you will see you are not alone! There are number of sites and blogs that can start you in the right direction with advice on things like how to find a therapist who understands the "complex".
((( hug))) to all of you!
-
Like -
Helpful -
Hug
3 Reactions@parus
I like the tiny taste of your watercolors. It would be nice to see more. I imagine it's good therapy, though it's not something I've ever tried. I find knitting therapeutic, as well as gardening, playing the piano, going to church, housepainting, shopping (especially thrift stores) and going for drives.
Jim
-
Like -
Helpful -
Hug
2 Reactions@wendallzmom
Thank you for your encouragement. I'm going to try to remember to talk about complex PTSD. I don't know if I'll have time at my next appointment on Thursday because I already have some important issues to begin working through, but I'll put it on my list of things to talk with the doctor about. I keep a list in Evernote on my phone.
Jim
-
Like -
Helpful -
Hug
1 Reaction@wendallzmom
I know that many people have had to break away from their toxic families. As you said, it's not natural. They're the people we're supposed to turn to and lean on, who never stop loving us. Unfortunately, it doesn't work out that way every time.
As children, we were a very close family, but as we grew up and had families of our own, we kind of drifted apart. Not that we stopped loving each other, but the next generation became our primary focus. I was the last holdout to get a computer and get reconnected online, and then on cell phones. I feel more connected with my siblings now than I did for a long time. I can't really imagine what it would be like never to see or hear from them again. It's good that you have other families.
Jim