When Depression "Flares"

Posted by Lyn @pearlbaby7, Sat, Mar 23 12:32am

I've been having a depression "flare". Along with this swing down I've felt a heaviness in the center of my chest. Do othets have this as well?

@merpreb I posted for a couple reasons if I'm going to be honest and vulnerable. I was curious if other people in a strictly depression cycle felt this heaviness too. The second, and maybe more motivating, reason was I needed some support. I have no one to give me that support of understanding like you all. As good as my neighbor is to me by bringing me dinner and doing my shopping, she undercuts that semi-frequently by calling me lazy or some form of it. I thought I'd given her enough info to understand but I guess not. She did it again last night. Maybe I'm just a good place to vent because I'm not able to pull back from her being in my life right now. I'm trying to look at it from her point of view but it's still destructive to me. That's why I posted. I regretted it because I felt vulnerable and still hate having to ask for help.

@pearlbaby7

@merpreb I posted for a couple reasons if I'm going to be honest and vulnerable. I was curious if other people in a strictly depression cycle felt this heaviness too. The second, and maybe more motivating, reason was I needed some support. I have no one to give me that support of understanding like you all. As good as my neighbor is to me by bringing me dinner and doing my shopping, she undercuts that semi-frequently by calling me lazy or some form of it. I thought I'd given her enough info to understand but I guess not. She did it again last night. Maybe I'm just a good place to vent because I'm not able to pull back from her being in my life right now. I'm trying to look at it from her point of view but it's still destructive to me. That's why I posted. I regretted it because I felt vulnerable and still hate having to ask for help.

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@pearlbaby7 I am sending you cyber hugs. Feeling vulnerable but still having the strength to reach out for help is a major positive. Don't ever forget that. When we are in a downswing and we can't even see a glimmer of light from the surface, that is when it can be so devastating. Just one little pinprick of light may help us refocus and help us get through those down times/dark times and those times when we feel like such a burden to ourselves and others. I am so glad that you're here on Mayo Connect.
Ginger

@gingerw

@pearlbaby7 I am sending you cyber hugs. Feeling vulnerable but still having the strength to reach out for help is a major positive. Don't ever forget that. When we are in a downswing and we can't even see a glimmer of light from the surface, that is when it can be so devastating. Just one little pinprick of light may help us refocus and help us get through those down times/dark times and those times when we feel like such a burden to ourselves and others. I am so glad that you're here on Mayo Connect.
Ginger

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@gingerw Thank you!

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@merpreb I posted for a couple reasons if I'm going to be honest and vulnerable. I was curious if other people in a strictly depression cycle felt this heaviness too. The second, and maybe more motivating, reason was I needed some support. I have no one to give me that support of understanding like you all. As good as my neighbor is to me by bringing me dinner and doing my shopping, she undercuts that semi-frequently by calling me lazy or some form of it. I thought I'd given her enough info to understand but I guess not. She did it again last night. Maybe I'm just a good place to vent because I'm not able to pull back from her being in my life right now. I'm trying to look at it from her point of view but it's still destructive to me. That's why I posted. I regretted it because I felt vulnerable and still hate having to ask for help.

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@pearlbaby7– I'm sorry that you are having a tough time with your neighbor. You two must be very close for her to even try to talk to you like that. Is it possible to tell her how much she hurts you when she does? I know what you mean about feeling vulnerable if you divulge a sensitive part of yourself. I cringe when I have to but, but do it nevertheless, and you did it here too! I hope that you can break away from her soon. Is there a church group that you can turn to? I think that we've talked about this before.

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@merpreb

@pearlbaby7– I'm sorry that you are having a tough time with your neighbor. You two must be very close for her to even try to talk to you like that. Is it possible to tell her how much she hurts you when she does? I know what you mean about feeling vulnerable if you divulge a sensitive part of yourself. I cringe when I have to but, but do it nevertheless, and you did it here too! I hope that you can break away from her soon. Is there a church group that you can turn to? I think that we've talked about this before.

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@merpreb She does know I don't have any options right now. Being on an MAOI limits my food options so much and most people don't want the hassle of fixing food without the long list of ingredients I can't have. Meals on Wheels won't do it either. I keep burning myself when I try cooking stove top, oven and even sometimes the microwave. Ordering food delivered is too expensive here. Basically the pizza places are the only ones who will. I have a meeting scheduled with an organization that connects people who need help with resources in the area. I didn't think about asking him for that kind of help. Thank you for leading me there. I meet with him Thursday. Maybe he can help me not be so dependent on my neighbor.

@pearlbaby7 Lyn prayers for you that they can help you immensely

@lioness

@pearlbaby7 Lyn prayers for you that they can help you immensely

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@lioness Thank you!

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