OCD and Major Depression

Posted by mariajean03 @mariajean03, Oct 26 8:51pm

I'm overly medicated but am afraid to cut back. When I do I spend all nite worrying I won't sleep! All I do is lay there doing tormenting compulsions. Wake up very dizzy every morning,. It goes away in 2 hours. I need to taper off 325mg. Seraquel but too scared. I have been able to stay out of the hospital for a year though. So confused. Any suggestions? Maria.

Hi, I also deal with Ocd and anxiety abd depression.I try to distract myself by doing my ipad. I cant do serqual because of the side affects. I take seratine and that seems to help me with ocd and my anxiety.

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@mariajean03 You think you are overly medicated but are scared to taper off of your medication. You have managed to stay out of the hospital but you are awake at night with worry and are tormented by compulsions. It sounds like your depression and OCD are not being managed. No one should have to live "tormented" by compulsions. Would you tell me more about your situation? What kind of mental health services are you receiving and what kind of treatment have you had regarding your OCD and depression?

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@erikas

@mariajean03 You think you are overly medicated but are scared to taper off of your medication. You have managed to stay out of the hospital but you are awake at night with worry and are tormented by compulsions. It sounds like your depression and OCD are not being managed. No one should have to live "tormented" by compulsions. Would you tell me more about your situation? What kind of mental health services are you receiving and what kind of treatment have you had regarding your OCD and depression?

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I don't lay awake if I take the Seraquel. But some nites I have terrible side effects. I can't move and slur my speech. I'm very alone with a tine help with sleep. I have wierd side effhusband who was addicted to porn. I get no physical touch but he is a great care taker. Des Moines has no treatment for OCD. I've tried every thing from ect's to TMS. Nothing works. I see my psychiatrist and a therapist. Iowa is rated F for mental health. Is there a med that can help me while I taper off seraquel. I want to stay out of the hospital so my meds are working somewhat. I'm 61 and make the best of my situation. I've been alone and neglected all my life. I just had bunion surgery and am forced to change my walking rituals. Every time I try to go down on the seraquel I panic and can't sleep. Does Seratine help with sleep? so confused! Maria.

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@mariajean03

I don't lay awake if I take the Seraquel. But some nites I have terrible side effects. I can't move and slur my speech. I'm very alone with a tine help with sleep. I have wierd side effhusband who was addicted to porn. I get no physical touch but he is a great care taker. Des Moines has no treatment for OCD. I've tried every thing from ect's to TMS. Nothing works. I see my psychiatrist and a therapist. Iowa is rated F for mental health. Is there a med that can help me while I taper off seraquel. I want to stay out of the hospital so my meds are working somewhat. I'm 61 and make the best of my situation. I've been alone and neglected all my life. I just had bunion surgery and am forced to change my walking rituals. Every time I try to go down on the seraquel I panic and can't sleep. Does Seratine help with sleep? so confused! Maria.

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@mariajean03 What I'm hearing is medication is your first and primary concern. It's best if you talk to your psychiatrist about medications. What has your psychiatrist told you about your medications?

Your situation both past and present sounds extremely difficult. I'm sorry to hear Iowa is rated F for mental health. It sounds like you are not receiving adequate mental health services. May I ask if you are open to residential treatment?

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@mariajean03

I don't lay awake if I take the Seraquel. But some nites I have terrible side effects. I can't move and slur my speech. I'm very alone with a tine help with sleep. I have wierd side effhusband who was addicted to porn. I get no physical touch but he is a great care taker. Des Moines has no treatment for OCD. I've tried every thing from ect's to TMS. Nothing works. I see my psychiatrist and a therapist. Iowa is rated F for mental health. Is there a med that can help me while I taper off seraquel. I want to stay out of the hospital so my meds are working somewhat. I'm 61 and make the best of my situation. I've been alone and neglected all my life. I just had bunion surgery and am forced to change my walking rituals. Every time I try to go down on the seraquel I panic and can't sleep. Does Seratine help with sleep? so confused! Maria.

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Dear Maria, after looking at your post, my history sounds so alike (depressio, OCD, 27 total ect's, and 12 years hunting,searching, and trying all different meds) Seraquel is one of the few I did not try. After 12 years I went to a Neuropsychiatrist. She went over my family mental health history, gave me LITHIUM for the first time ever and I have been taking it for 33 years! I know every body is different and not all meds work for everyone but Lithium is truly a GOD send for me. I believe HE has done a miracle for my mental health after all I've been through. My #1 suggestion is NEVER adjust your meds without approval from your Doctor–side effects can be worse than the original dose. #2-somehow find a doctor, psychiatrist who is willing to really work with you and your meds. #4 – Keep at it and don't ever give up. #5-Pray, pray, pray–God still works miracles in our lives. Then saturate your mind with Scripture from God's Word, also ask God to give you a specific verse to memorize that you can repeat in place of any troubling thoughts. Mine is Proverbs 3:5-6 – "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, acknowledge HIM in all your ways and HE will direct your paths." Maria, I will be praying for you every day around 8:00 am. Sharon

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@erikas

@mariajean03 What I'm hearing is medication is your first and primary concern. It's best if you talk to your psychiatrist about medications. What has your psychiatrist told you about your medications?

Your situation both past and present sounds extremely difficult. I'm sorry to hear Iowa is rated F for mental health. It sounds like you are not receiving adequate mental health services. May I ask if you are open to residential treatment?

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What is residential treatment and where? I have MediCare and the Blue Cross supplement. I'm staying with Jim until he passes. He is my only friend. Maria.

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@buyearly

Dear Maria, after looking at your post, my history sounds so alike (depressio, OCD, 27 total ect's, and 12 years hunting,searching, and trying all different meds) Seraquel is one of the few I did not try. After 12 years I went to a Neuropsychiatrist. She went over my family mental health history, gave me LITHIUM for the first time ever and I have been taking it for 33 years! I know every body is different and not all meds work for everyone but Lithium is truly a GOD send for me. I believe HE has done a miracle for my mental health after all I've been through. My #1 suggestion is NEVER adjust your meds without approval from your Doctor–side effects can be worse than the original dose. #2-somehow find a doctor, psychiatrist who is willing to really work with you and your meds. #4 – Keep at it and don't ever give up. #5-Pray, pray, pray–God still works miracles in our lives. Then saturate your mind with Scripture from God's Word, also ask God to give you a specific verse to memorize that you can repeat in place of any troubling thoughts. Mine is Proverbs 3:5-6 – "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, acknowledge HIM in all your ways and HE will direct your paths." Maria, I will be praying for you every day around 8:00 am. Sharon

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Thanks so much Sharon. Your prayers mean so much! I will lean more on Him. I'm just the co-pilot. God's the pilot. Please pray I get on the right mixture of meds. I'm so happy for you. Do you ever feel rejected by friends an family due to OCD? So much stigma. Would love to talk more. Maria.

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@mariajean03

Thanks so much Sharon. Your prayers mean so much! I will lean more on Him. I'm just the co-pilot. God's the pilot. Please pray I get on the right mixture of meds. I'm so happy for you. Do you ever feel rejected by friends an family due to OCD? So much stigma. Would love to talk more. Maria.

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Hi Maria, your comment prompts me to say that I don't get why people are so judgemental of others just because they do not understand them. I think life is plenty difficult enough and I'm not sure why they don't just accept others for whatever they are, assuming they are not harming anyone else of course. I don't get many of my siblings (I have 6) but I do not reject any of them. I can love someone even if I don't understand them. Ugh, people! Hank

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@mariajean03

Thanks so much Sharon. Your prayers mean so much! I will lean more on Him. I'm just the co-pilot. God's the pilot. Please pray I get on the right mixture of meds. I'm so happy for you. Do you ever feel rejected by friends an family due to OCD? So much stigma. Would love to talk more. Maria.

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Thank you, Maria, for your comments! My OCD tends to be in my mind/thoughts so I am able to "hide" the effects from other people except when my husband says "your repeating yourself". My stigma/fear is when I share that I have had 27 ECT's. I know that even in 2020 it is a procedure that is greatly misunderstood. I rely on God to bring people to me who need my story/testimony to help them and HE has protected me. I have to say that ECT treatment is NOT scary and by God's grace I was totally and completely healed and escaped being a mental vegetable in a mental institution for life. So, Maria, if God can do that for me, HE can do that for you. If you have to go to a hospital, do not fear–that's where God put me to be healed. I will pray about your meds – that they are correct, with no side effects and that they are effective to make you feel better than ever! Don't ever give up!!! Sharon

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@mariajean03

What is residential treatment and where? I have MediCare and the Blue Cross supplement. I'm staying with Jim until he passes. He is my only friend. Maria.

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@mariajean03, Residential treatment offers 24-hour care in a home-like setting for a short term, usually about 3 months, while you pursue treatment for mental health with the care team. At residential treatment centers, people are able to access a higher level of care than can be provided by individual, family, or group therapy alone. Residential treatment centers are available for both youth and adults, and stays can range in length from 28 days to six months and beyond.

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Where are treatment centers? Do they take Medicare? I'm in Des Moines and don't have the money or capacity to fly alone somewhere. Do they ever keep people for a life time when they can't function alone in society? I have no people or purpose. Maria.

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@mariajean03

Where are treatment centers? Do they take Medicare? I'm in Des Moines and don't have the money or capacity to fly alone somewhere. Do they ever keep people for a life time when they can't function alone in society? I have no people or purpose. Maria.

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@mariajean03 You feel that you are alone and you have no purpose. That sounds incredibly painful. No, residential treatment centers are not a permanent option. However, there are other options such as a group home that are more permanent. May I ask if you are connected to your local county? Do you have a social worker or ARMS worker that helps you?

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@mariajean03

Where are treatment centers? Do they take Medicare? I'm in Des Moines and don't have the money or capacity to fly alone somewhere. Do they ever keep people for a life time when they can't function alone in society? I have no people or purpose. Maria.

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Maria, don't give up – God has a purpose for you because HE loves you! I think sometimes we find ourselves painfully alone so that we can realize that God is with us and will never leave us alone. I looked up mental health services in Des Moines and found several. I do not know this Clinic-only what they on their website. If you want to look up others do a Google Search on "Des Moines Mental Health". God still does miracles and I am praying for yours! HE rescued me–I know HE can do the same for you!
Behavioral Health Urgent Care
Des Moines Walk-In Mental Health Clinic

If you're experiencing a mental health crisis, UnityPoint Health – Behavioral Health Urgent Care is open Monday through Thursday, 9 a.m. to 7 p.m. and Friday from 9 a.m. to 5 p.m. and is located at 1250 East 9th Street in Des Moines.

The new behavioral health urgent care clinic in central Iowa provides services to individuals who are needing mental health services, psychiatric evaluation and assessment, addiction medicine, crisis services and community resources. Both pediatric and adult patients can be seen at Urgent Care. Patients under 18 years of age must have a parent or guardian with them. Patients are advised to utilize the Emergency Room instead of the Urgent Care Clinic if they are needing immediate medical attention (i.e. open or fresh wounds), are a minor who does not have a guardian to sign a consent to treat, demonstrating aggressive behavior or having a crisis outside of the hours listed above.

If you or a loved one are considering taking actions related to ending one's own life, exhibit behaviors or actions that could lead to self-harm, overdose, or danger to yourself or others, this is considered an emergency. Please dial 9-1-1.

Contact Us

UnityPoint Health – Behavioral Health Urgent Care
1250 East 9th Street
Des Moines, IA 50316

(515) 263-2632

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@buyearly

Maria, don't give up – God has a purpose for you because HE loves you! I think sometimes we find ourselves painfully alone so that we can realize that God is with us and will never leave us alone. I looked up mental health services in Des Moines and found several. I do not know this Clinic-only what they on their website. If you want to look up others do a Google Search on "Des Moines Mental Health". God still does miracles and I am praying for yours! HE rescued me–I know HE can do the same for you!
Behavioral Health Urgent Care
Des Moines Walk-In Mental Health Clinic

If you're experiencing a mental health crisis, UnityPoint Health – Behavioral Health Urgent Care is open Monday through Thursday, 9 a.m. to 7 p.m. and Friday from 9 a.m. to 5 p.m. and is located at 1250 East 9th Street in Des Moines.

The new behavioral health urgent care clinic in central Iowa provides services to individuals who are needing mental health services, psychiatric evaluation and assessment, addiction medicine, crisis services and community resources. Both pediatric and adult patients can be seen at Urgent Care. Patients under 18 years of age must have a parent or guardian with them. Patients are advised to utilize the Emergency Room instead of the Urgent Care Clinic if they are needing immediate medical attention (i.e. open or fresh wounds), are a minor who does not have a guardian to sign a consent to treat, demonstrating aggressive behavior or having a crisis outside of the hours listed above.

If you or a loved one are considering taking actions related to ending one's own life, exhibit behaviors or actions that could lead to self-harm, overdose, or danger to yourself or others, this is considered an emergency. Please dial 9-1-1.

Contact Us

UnityPoint Health – Behavioral Health Urgent Care
1250 East 9th Street
Des Moines, IA 50316

(515) 263-2632

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@mariajean03 Thank you @buyearly, you make an excellent and important point.

Yes, if you feel unable to keep yourself safe it's important to reach out to people, organizations, and entities that can help you do so.

Feeling like you are alone and lack purpose can be common feelings but that doesn't make them any less painful.

I'm wondering if you feel that you are able to keep yourself safe?

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@erikas

@mariajean03 Thank you @buyearly, you make an excellent and important point.

Yes, if you feel unable to keep yourself safe it's important to reach out to people, organizations, and entities that can help you do so.

Feeling like you are alone and lack purpose can be common feelings but that doesn't make them any less painful.

I'm wondering if you feel that you are able to keep yourself safe?

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I've been to urgent care in Des Moines. It was worthless. They had a terrible young Dr. there who told me to take Seraquel all day! I'm safe but in a terrible marriage. He's an x porn addict who hasn't touched me in 10 years. Now you can see the tension I'm in. He's nice but we fight all the time. I am so angry but can't afford to live alone. My siblings don't care and don't think I can move back to my home town. I'm ready to get a divorce and try though. What do I have to lose? I'm a good person but people reject me. Trying to recover from bunion surgery and need Jim's help. I also have colitis and Doctors are here! I have no one to turn to. Don't even drive in the city. Too scared. I grew up in an abusive family in a small town. My Dad was anyway. I've been trapped for 10 years. Pray someone reaches out. I feel so ready to give up. I try so hard just to be friends but dream of different men every nite. I'm his third marriage. What a joke! Maria.

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