@mariajean03 You think you are overly medicated but are scared to taper off of your medication. You have managed to stay out of the hospital but you are awake at night with worry and are tormented by compulsions. It sounds like your depression and OCD are not being managed. No one should have to live "tormented" by compulsions. Would you tell me more about your situation? What kind of mental health services are you receiving and what kind of treatment have you had regarding your OCD and depression?