Is depression permanent?

Two of my kids are bipolar. My ex only abused me. He is a good father for the most part although he never payed me a dime in child support.
My middle daughter and I talk a lot but my son and youngest daughter arent that close. I try to wait for them to contact me.

How could your so have told you, he didnt know he was different

@mjpg2013 My husband was raised with a verbal abusive dad, and uncle. They were farmers. He was driving tractors at age 10. He doesn't know what verbal abuse is or does now believe he does it. He's better now, but does lose his patients sometimes, but he was very verbal abusive to our 2 children and me as they grew up. My daughter asked me why I didn't divorce him. I told her I didn't know what was going on. She is ok now, by going to a special group at a church. So she has forgiven him. But, my son is bipolar 1 and we can't have any contact with them. His wife is great to help him, but I think she's the one mainly keeping him away from us. He is very smart and has his PHD, but can't teach because of his bipolar 1 and has it bad. Most of it is from the Bipolar 1 the reason we have no contact, but part is the way he was treated. He knew as a child he had mental illness, but didn't tell us. They have a 9 year old daughter, my only grandchild. If she's at her grandma's in Chicago she can skype with us, but they live in NYC. I have to mail all things for Marlowe to the Grandmother in Chicago and she forwards it to her. I haven't seen her since she was 3, but I do get pictures from the other grandmother. So sorry about you not having contact with some of your kids. Have you tried to contact them? It's hard, but all I can do is pray.

I'm sorry if I led you to believe I don't have contact with my kids. My son lost his license a few years ago and doesnt drive a lot. My middle daughter told me my son got a new cell phone number but he hasnt gave it to me yet. Hes probably busy working and sleeping most of the time.My youngest daughter works for the local post office or USPS.Her work hours are spiratic and long. One day she may get off at noon or have to work untill after 5 pm. She just moved into a house with her new boyfriend, so she is busy with her own life.I got to go to a new restaurant with my middle daughter and grandaughter not that long ago.So I see them a lot through out the year. We always get together during the holidays and have a meal together.

Thanks. I need to get a legal aid lawyer but am so depressed I can't concentrate on what he'd be saying! I have no one to help me. Maria.

Keep in touch with me and let me know what I can help you with. I will see what I can find out for you and if there is anything I can help you with I will let you know.

Thanks. Maybe I'll have a priest talk to us first. There seems to be no hope for me. Divorced or not.

Ive been where you are. Ive always been told its always the darkest before the dawning.Maybe you could take a walk and think it over.Im sure you have run it through your head a thousand times.I know you are at your wits ends as to what to do next.I had my sister to rely on when I first seperated from my ex.I wish I knew what to say to you to help you feel better.Dont give up, you are strong enough to face anything. Once you get thrrough today everything will get better tomorrow.
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@mariajean03 Yes, to talk with your Priest or a counselor that deals with divorce. I know it's hard. Letting go of a partner I have heard can be just like death, except he is alive. My niece and her husband got divorced and it was a big surprise to me. They had a lot of counseling, because they had a teenage daughter. She was cutting herself and having a hard time dealing with it so they had counseling with her too. We have mental illness that runs through our family. Take care of yourself I can't imagine what it must be like. Like Marcie said take one day at a time and I will pray you will get through this.

I will see if a priest can come over this week and talk to the both of us about divorce. Therapy is a waste because I have no desire to get closer. Thanks. Maria.