HypoThyroid and depression

I want to ask everyone a very hard question. If your spouse is uncooperative, selfish, non loving, and mentally abusive, and drinks every two hours, even in the night, why does the doctor give you medication so you can stand the pain? I told my doctor that my husband had problems and he should give him the pills. He replied that he neve thought of it that way. Yes, I should have left after a few years of his controlling behavior, but I refused to give up taking care of my grandchildren before and after school while their mothers went to work. I knew that if I left he would find me and physically drag me back home.
So I stayed until his health went bad and he died. I took Xanax to sleep for a while but went off the drug before he died because I knew my bad journey would soon be over. I have no need of medications now in my contented life. I have learned a lot in 84 years. I should write it down, I think. Dorisena

I am on levothyroxine, and anxiety medication. Have had my regular check-up and am in the normal range. I am considering making changes in my career, as stress is a factor. With COVID 19, I pause to make any employment decision, I'm still working and so is my husband. The culture shift that seems to be happening,, creates a level of anxiety of its own. It is uncertain times to be sure. I have seen a therapist, and she doesn't feel my bouts of depression are clinical, more circumstance related. I have decided not to disengage with my family members, because, well, I am all they have, and they won't be on this earth forever. So, maybe I am my own worst enemy. Just trying to cope in these uncertain times. Thank you all for chimming in and offering support. Blessings and good thoughts from me.
Pianohands123

@dorisena I am so sorry for you. There are AA meetings for the spouses and others. I'm worried about you. Have you seen a counselor? You may have to get out of this bad situation. Mental abusive is as bad as physical. I hope you find some help. Please take care of yourself and maybe separate from your husband for awhile.

Lillypaws, I am sorry I misled you. I have written about my past, and have been free and widowed for 14 years. My problem is buried in the local cemetery two miles north. I did the alcohol classes, I saw three psychiatrists and a psychologist, I spent time away as much as I could, I studied in college, and I prayed much. I learned about mental illness, and now am living a wonderful life, reaching out to others so they can learn to make changes for themselves. Do not feel sorry, as I am a winner at life. Dorisena

Lillypaws, I am sorry I misled you. I have written about my past, and have been free and widowed for 14 years. My problem is buried in the local cemetery two miles north. I did the alcohol classes, I saw three psychiatrists and a psychologist, I spent time away as much as I could, I studied in college, and I prayed much. I learned about mental illness, and now am living a wonderful life, reaching out to others so they can learn to make changes for themselves. Do not feel sorry, as I am a winner at life. Dorisena

@pianohands123 I think many of us are anxious at this time. I am sure your therapist is correct, that your depression is situational. It sounds as if you do have a handle on it though, and that's about all any of us can do. From what I know, from friends and family, we are all having good days and bad days.
JK

I'm not sure if I can ask this question in this group or not. I'm diabetic and I have stress. My forehead and eyebrows get intense itching. Nobody seems to know why. It's not all the time and sometimes worse than others. I just had a short bout of itching a few minutes ago, now its gone. Other times it lasts for a very long time.