~ Depressed and scared ~

Posted by amberpep @amberpep, Tue, Feb 26 8:00am

I'm 74 years old and moved 3 years ago from MD to VA. My girls had hounded me to come down for several years so I finally did it. I sold my condo (at a loss), and a job with a dentist. Well, here I am, and financially I'm just not making it. That amount I earned from the dentist covered me with just a little left over. Now, more than often, I don't have enough. I eeked out just enough for my rent this month, and now there's not even enough for a quart of milk. I get S.S. and what I get goes right out for my rent (usually there's enough), and my son sends me money each month. I'm sickened, depressed, and scared. I live in low income housing, and have a budget that practically squeaks. I'm thinking of starting to sell some of my furniture.
I so wish I'd have stayed in MD, for so many reasons, this being one of them. I have applied for oodles of jobs (they're all on line now), and legally they're not supposed to ask you how old you are (although many do), but they all ask when you graduated from either high school or college …. well, it doesn't take rocket science to figure out how old a person is. I'm so depressed about this, and .so upset that my stomach.constantly churns.
Thanks for letting me vent.
abby

@smilie

Hi! I’m suffering this morning from depression and anxiety. I had breakfast, I took my pills and just now I took a second Ativan. I’m half dressed and I have things to do, which I did start, like laundry. I’m lying down again and I don’t have the will and energy to move. In fact I want to slam my head into a wall!!!!

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@smilie do you have a friend you can call? Have you figured out what the source of your depression and anxiety is this morning? If you're like me you don't want your laundry sitting in the washer after it gets done, so put the timer on and go move it to the dryer when it's finished. That gives you something to think about for the next 45 minutes or an hour. And after the clothes are dry in the dryer take them out and fold/hang them up, put them away. That takes care of the next little bit. Then go check your plant and see how it's doing. Go outside and feel the sun on your face, and take a bit of a walk, even just five minutes. I guarantee you will feel better just moving around. And I really want to thank you for checking in with us this morning to let us know how you are feeling. We really do care for you here.
Ginger

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I feel your pain I've had those days. Its incredibly difficult to even move. what can I say Meds have their limits. Spend time with friends. Do some simple exercise…A short walk . Do you have someone to talk to ? Sure hope so. Its a tough world out there Love, pain, sadness at different times of our lives.. Good luck

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Thanks dianrib ….. I just got into a group through the new Psychiatrist I found since I moved ….. it's called DBT …. Dialectical Behavior Therapy. I wouldn't want to have to take it without therapy first, but for me with 12 years of therapy in Frederick …… it was really helpful. Right now my daughters are helping me find another place to live. My apartment is nice, but the environment is terrible ….. crime ridden. The building across from me is know as a crack house, little children wander around unsupervised, and not a day goes by without at least 2 police cars being called due to some sort of problem. We have found a really nice place for seniors, which is basically single story homes, attached by a breezeway to the next house, and so on. My daughters talked to some of the residents and they love it. So I'm on their waiting list but it could be a year or more. That's OK …. just knowing there will be a change is satisfying. The other day a little child – maybe 2 or 2-1/2 was wandering down the sidewalk, bottle in his mouth, calling "Mommy, Mommy." Little wonder the kids nowadays are so disrespectful and have no guidance or motivation.
abby

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Great you have a place to look forward too Your area sounds dangerous. Careful. hate to see kids or pets ignored or mistreated. I am thru with phychiatrits all they have for me is Drugs . On xanax trying to get off get sick when I miss a day . Too many drugs legal & not.

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@smilie

Hi! I’m suffering this morning from depression and anxiety. I had breakfast, I took my pills and just now I took a second Ativan. I’m half dressed and I have things to do, which I did start, like laundry. I’m lying down again and I don’t have the will and energy to move. In fact I want to slam my head into a wall!!!!

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I just came across your post but may I ask, are you feeling better?

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Yes, I'm definitely better, but typical of Bipolar 2, it's up and down, up and down. The up's aren't very "up" just probably ore normal. I'm looking forward to moving, but it won't be for one or two years. It's in a town about 7 miles from here in a senior setup. They're small single story houses attached by a breezeway. I've adjusted to living here about as much as I think I will ….. still, if someone said they'd pay for me to go back I'd be right on it. But, it's not to be, so here I am.
abby

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@amberpep

Yes, I'm definitely better, but typical of Bipolar 2, it's up and down, up and down. The up's aren't very "up" just probably ore normal. I'm looking forward to moving, but it won't be for one or two years. It's in a town about 7 miles from here in a senior setup. They're small single story houses attached by a breezeway. I've adjusted to living here about as much as I think I will ….. still, if someone said they'd pay for me to go back I'd be right on it. But, it's not to be, so here I am.
abby

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@amberpep that is the kind of setup I was looking at when I was looking for a community living situation! I had seen a special about it some that were seniors only some that were mixed ages with a community room, but everyone had their private space. Space for visitors was provided also. To me it just seemed like the ideal setup but I never was able to find something. And then this relationship and marriage happened and I stopped looking! I hope that that year or two is less then that for you.
Ginger

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@amberpep

Yes, I'm definitely better, but typical of Bipolar 2, it's up and down, up and down. The up's aren't very "up" just probably ore normal. I'm looking forward to moving, but it won't be for one or two years. It's in a town about 7 miles from here in a senior setup. They're small single story houses attached by a breezeway. I've adjusted to living here about as much as I think I will ….. still, if someone said they'd pay for me to go back I'd be right on it. But, it's not to be, so here I am.
abby

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Hi, @amberpep – wanted to check in and see how you are doing lately?

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Thanks Great last few weeks when my son came from CA Just have lots of stress & worry Savings almost depleted . What to do when its all gone scares me so much Want to go fast so my kidsd at least get my house Thats all I have left Miss my hubby so much 46 great yrs Blesed

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@dianrib

Thanks Great last few weeks when my son came from CA Just have lots of stress & worry Savings almost depleted . What to do when its all gone scares me so much Want to go fast so my kidsd at least get my house Thats all I have left Miss my hubby so much 46 great yrs Blesed

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Hi, @dianrib – sorry you have lots of stress and worry. Is most of this related to finances, or are other issues also bothering you at this time?

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@lisalucier

Hi, @dianrib – sorry you have lots of stress and worry. Is most of this related to finances, or are other issues also bothering you at this time?

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I’m sorry that I’m not replying to this but I’m confused and don’t remember how to post!!!!

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@smilie

I’m sorry that I’m not replying to this but I’m confused and don’t remember how to post!!!!

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@smilie – looks like you posted just fine, but if there is anything I can help with, glad to do so. Here's a page you will find helpful with some tips on using Mayo Clinic Connect https://connect.mayoclinic.org/get-started-on-connect/.

How are you doing today, smilie?

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@lisalucier

@smilie – looks like you posted just fine, but if there is anything I can help with, glad to do so. Here's a page you will find helpful with some tips on using Mayo Clinic Connect https://connect.mayoclinic.org/get-started-on-connect/.

How are you doing today, smilie?

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Thank you!

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@lisalucier

@smilie – looks like you posted just fine, but if there is anything I can help with, glad to do so. Here's a page you will find helpful with some tips on using Mayo Clinic Connect https://connect.mayoclinic.org/get-started-on-connect/.

How are you doing today, smilie?

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I’m doing lousy! I’m exhausted and depressed and angry and I’m being abused by my brother in law. He’s abusing me mentally and emotionally and financially, and for whatever reason I’m afraid of him. I’m sorry I have to go because I’m falling asleep.

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Horrible Call the police etc
Report him They can find you a safe place to go so sorry

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