Anyone Else With PTSD?

Posted by Parus @parus, Jul 21, 2017

Curious

I’ve had numerous mental health professionals note I have PTSD. Mine stems from childhood experiences. For decades my brain has been in denial and am just now beginning to deal with it. Sometimes, after a talk-therapy appointment, I just want to run away…escape.

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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Wouldn’t it be great to be able to put the past behind oneself, to not affect one’s present life. But I have learned, a learning curve of decades, that child abuse will manifest symptoms in adult life. I, too, have anxiety and depression disorders and it ruins the quality of my life.

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I am the one starting this thread and if I could I would delete it!! Extremely naive on my part. This is not helpful for me and if it has been harmful to others I am sorry.

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@sue1

I’ve had numerous mental health professionals note I have PTSD. Mine stems from childhood experiences. For decades my brain has been in denial and am just now beginning to deal with it. Sometimes, after a talk-therapy appointment, I just want to run away…escape.

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Hello @sue1

Your feeling about running away is common for those of us who uncover PTSD experiences later on in life. However, often peace will come about as a result of this discovery. Support groups are good for this as well. There are many different groups available to discuss these childhood problems that we’ve kept “under covers” so to speak. In a support group, we learn from the coping strategies of others and also don’t feel so alone in our pain.

Have you tried any support groups?

Teresa

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@sue1

So true, Sue. That which we don’t deal with, has a way of dealing with us, doesn’t it?

Teresa

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@parus

I am the one starting this thread and if I could I would delete it!! Extremely naive on my part. This is not helpful for me and if it has been harmful to others I am sorry.

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Hi, @parus. I’m pretty sure that if you hadn’t started this thread, someone else would have, and I’m finding it helpful reading what people have to say. If it upsets you to read it, you can just delete it from the posts you follow, though I’m not sure how to do it.

PTSD certainly affects a lot of people, and we need to know that we’re not in this alone, and it helps to learn how others are coping with it. I’m fairly certain that there are many, many people with PTSD who don’t recognize what’s wrong with them, and others who deny it or don’t want to admit it. Some people let it define them, and I suppose there are those who claim falsely to have PTSD, for whatever reason.

I know how upsetting it can be to relive the reasons for our PTSD – flashbacks, stress, anger, anxiety, panic, guilt – we all react to it in different ways. Talking about it can help a lot, and even listening and reading other’s experience can.

Jim

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Hi, @jimhd—thank you very much for your kind response to @parus.

@parus—thank you for starting this thread on PTSD. The community has had great benefit from this thread you started. At the same time, however, it’s certainly fine if you would prefer to withdraw from the conversation. At the bottom of any response to this thread that you receive by email you will note that there are the words “Unsubscribe to this thread” with a link. If you click on that link, you will no longer get notifications for just this one thread.

If you choose to leave this thread, please know you are always welcome to come back and check in if you would like, and we would miss your participation.

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I still stop by…I just cannot read about details and totally my issue. I have unsubscribed and glad others benefit and I have at times. I have learned to not read some as it can be upsetting and I also realize some can share more in detail. This is a public site and we are all special in different ways. Also new to this type of thing.

There are many w/ PTSD and many getting diagnosed all wrong and this can worsen the symptoms of PTSD. I hear some say they have been helped through therapy and there surely are therapists w/ good boundaries, well educated and professional. For now, I need to heal from the abuse by therapists. As I may have stated-one less predator in the mental health system.

I am thankful for the support.

I am glad I have found this part of Mayo clinic.

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@jimhd Does this mean I am now leader of the pack??? PT again today so about ready for the heat/cold routine.

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@parus

There are many folks I know that have been in therapy (I once was) that want others to get therapy as it helps them and we are all different. It would take a highly skilled professional to determine if someone has PTSD. Many times PTSD is misdiagnosed and this can turn into a horrific experience.

I know I would “not” diagnose another as even professionals “can” and “do” make mistakes.

If this shoe happens to fit some…I apologize for starting this post on PTSD.

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i also would like to share this as it might help others. i have 2 cats and 2 dogs. if i ever feel so depressed and want to harm myself i think of the animals. what will happen to them? i must be here to take care of them. by taking care of them i am taking care of myself. since i do not have any family this is soul saving at least to me.

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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yes, i have been abused since i was born. the memories never stop. somehow we live. as the years go by the memories are less painless. but when there are many, many memories of the abuse it takes longer. it is easy to feel sorry for myself but sometimes believe it or not, sometimes it helps to remember knowing that it is over and to continue to try to love myself. thinking as bad as it was for me, there are others who have been treated worse. whenever i can, i help others when i can. the worst part of my problems is that i have no family and am pretty much alone. (i do have a few friends).

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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@peach414144 Friends are a good thing! We can’t pick our families, but we can pick our friends!

Teresa

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@parus

I surely am not alone.

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thank you for that. friends are true whether they say right or wrong. it is usually for your good.

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In the beginning of my recovery journey I was a very angry person with a chip on my shoulder. That was 30 years ago and today thanks to alot of people who cared I have been able to rebuild my life. I come from a back ground of excessive drinking and mental illness . My mom suffered from Major depression and my dad had PTSD from being a Marine in WW2. There was a lot of chaos in our lives and it trickled down hill. I am the third of four children all of whom are now in recovery from drug and alcohol addictions. We are all sober for about 30 years. They say it is in the journey not the destination and I find that to be true.I was first diagnosed with depression at 28 and it took a bit of time to stabilize me but it happened. Now to today. Life with depression is often difficult but I find that there is a gift in it all some how. I am much more understanding then I would have been otherwise. There really isn’t any thing you can tell me that I can’t understand. I am very empathetic and caring today. Not a door mat but you know what I mean. These days the depression does’t respond to meds but I have other coping stratagies that I use. Today was tough. For me the fatigue is overwelming and sometimes during the day I can’t fight it so I give myself a half hour off to just rest. Then I go back to my list of things to do and check something off. Its not a perfect system but I at least feel like I am contributing something to life.

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@parus

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@peach. I understand your pain, having been physically abused (my dad broke my nose, my ankle, three ribs and used to beat us with a belt until our butts bled) and sexually abused – dad again – (as were my 3 sisters). For me, family earns trust just like friends. In the great words of Martin Luther King, I judge a person by their character. “Blood” doesn’t mean squat. I have great friends that are part of my family and “family” I wouldn’t give the time of day. You and I are SURVIVORS! Hold your head up! They didn’t break us! They are no longer allowed to have power in our lives. My mom divorced my dad but the JUDGE in the divorce allowed my dad unsupervised visitation even though the divorce decree stated my father had physically and sexually abused all four of his daughters!!! (My two older sisters had to testify.) My mom refused to let us go and we refused to have any contact with him. He was not an alcoholic or a drug addict. He was bipolar. If I could go back in time, I would beat the crap out of that judge for throwing us all under the bus. At any rate, it took me years of therapy to become truly functional. I mean, I did well in school and had a good job and stuff (all my sisters did, too, in spite of everything), but to stop the nightmares and not jump at certain triggers or get enraged, I was lucky to have good therapists, antidepressants that worked and my faith to fill the empty, dark hole in my soul. I empowered myself by getting a black belt in Tae Kwon Do and learning how to shoot and handle a gun. I am blessed in many ways. I have so much love from my children, grand children, sisters, husband, etc. I am so glad you can help others. I try to do so, too. I share so you know you are not alone. I don’t feel comfortable sharing all, but enough just to let you know my childhood was rough. I pray you can find that peace that surpasses all understanding! I am so glad you found Mayo Connect. I think you can find help as well as give help and hope to others!

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