Anniversary of my hospital stay/ Pregnant in the ICU
Hello, I am new here. I just searched for this because I am having a hard time right now. It is the first anniversary of my illness. I was 8 months pregnant with severe pneumonia in both lungs. They intubated me and performed a c-section on my birthday last year. I was in coma for 2 weeks and experienced delirium upon waking up, I was also trying to understand where my baby was and they would not let him come see me in the ICU. They dried up my milk supply and I would just cry for my baby. I didn't meet him until he was a month old. Then I still had to do rehab due to myopathy and neuropathy on my whole right side. When I came home I could not care for him alone. The whole thing was extremely traumatic I had horrific nightmares and the memories haunt me. Sounds trigger me to feeling back in the hospital. I have been getting better over the last year but, right now it is all coming back. I feel like it is just too much knowing that it's not just the anniversary of one event, but 6 weeks of my life. I missed out on everything. Now everyday I am remembering what was happening to me on this day last year and what I feel like was taken from me. Friends and family just seem like they want me to be grateful, and I am but they don't want to hear the reality of what it was like for me. It is such lonely experience. Can anyone relate?