Post ICU Nightmares / Hallucinations
I was hospitalized several years ago and was in the ICU for approximately 3 days after vascular surgery. Those days were a bit of a blur, and my overall stay at St. Mary’s was 5-6 nights. When I was in the ICU I was having chest pain and ended up on a nitro drip. I remember doctors and nurses talking very softly and I could not hear what they were saying… but I wanted to badly. I was so frightened and I could not seem to communicate my fears. I was constantly fighting the pain medication as I was scared to fall asleep. Again, I just remember feeling like no one was understanding what I was going through. At the time I was having auditory hallucinations…which added to my fear. It was like I could hear a constant loud rock concert and it was not enjoyable. To this day when I am extremely stressed, this sound comes back to haunt me. It does not happen often but when it does the fear is horrible. Would like to hear what others do to cope with nightmares or hallucinations. What have others experienced? I have never shared this, but I felt abandoned by my husband during that stay, he was not supportive- thankfully my best friend sat by the side of my bed til 1 or 2 am in the morning, holding my hand just so I would close my eyes. I became very bitter in my marriage and our relationship and am also wondering if this has happened to anyone? (We are currently separated as of recently… first time I am saying this out loud) Now that I am separated I have the same anxiety as I did in the hospital. Thank you in advance for sharing.