Being attacked by some negative ideas

What a beautiful comment you gave.
Very thoughtful.

Thanks I appreciate your advice, it’s interesting because just yesterday my doctor told me that my cortisol level is high and that I need to be in healing mode, practice mindfulness, meditation, etc I guess this is my wake up call. Chronic stress and trauma can do this. I always exercised eat healthy but I didn’t realize how this unresolved stress can be so damaging to my body and mind.

How do I practice mindfulness?

I too struggle with anxiety, depression, PTSD (from a past domestic violence situation). I actually had anxiety before my diagnosis. And it is 10x worst now. I was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer on Jan19, 2022.):

I was previously on Prozac. Started off at 20 mg and now I am on 60 mg. It has helped. My palliative care nurse just added a low dosage of Lorazepam. Of course they come with side effects. But not too much for me to manage. But I am also on my 8th round of chemotherapy.

Some of the things that I do outside of medication is: mindfulness, sitting outside with nature, grounding, meditation, box breathing and just being still. Some times sitting in the moment and finding 5 things to be grateful for can boost your spirits.
Having a great personal support group is wonderful and essential as well. I hope you find your peace as you go through.

A Psalm of David.
27 The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked came against me
To eat[a] up my flesh,
My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell.
3 Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;
Though war may rise against me,
In this I will be confident.

4 One thing I have desired of the Lord,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord
All the days of my life,
To behold the [b]beauty of the Lord,
And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock.

6 And now my head shall be [c]lifted up above my enemies all around me;
Therefore I will offer sacrifices of [d]joy in His tabernacle;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.

7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When You said, “Seek My face,”
My heart said to You, “Your face, Lord, I will seek.”
9 Do not hide Your face from me;
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not leave me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the Lord will take care of me.

11 Teach me Your way, O Lord,
And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.

14 Wait[e] on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!

Peace and prayers.

Join a group in you vicinity.
It's always helpful to be with others who have challenges.

I recently join a support group at Saint Thomas More catholic church. The Name for the group is The Sanctuary Catholic. You can access information on their website just to get an idea of what it's about. Then perhaps if it interest you -you can look up groups you live near by.

Blessings to you

@my46th, there is a blog dedicated to mindfulness here on Mayo Clinic Connect. Check it out here:
- Health & Mindfulness https://connect.mayoclinic.org/blog/mindfulness-in-health/

Be sure to check out the videos too here: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/blog/mindfulness-in-health/tab/resources/#ch-tab-navigation

One of the biggest mistakes people with anxiety and depression make is the choice not to try medications. I was that person as stoicism was what my family taught and practiced. But that didn't work and I had two young children that needed a good mother. I thought, "What the heck!". And I saw a psychiatrist and got on meds. It took months to find the right ones but with the doctor's support and encouragement I finally began to feel better. I've had ups and downs since. That's life for me. I do encourage anyone with persistent depression/anxiety to give meds a try.

“GOD, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can; and the Wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; enjoying one moment at a time; accepting hardship as the pathway to peace. Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it. Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His will; and that I may be reasonable happy in this life, and supremely happy with Him in the next. Amen.”

@antonieta71 I have been feeling exactly the same as you! I think the past two years of the pandemic haven’t helped, either.

@bjintn and @cmd - I have fibromyalgia and sleep deprivation, anxiety making it harder to go back to sleep when I wake up every two or three hours, so I can relate to both of you.