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Long-term depression

Posted by seeker70 @seeker70, Oct 11, 2017

I have been depressed, when I think about it, since I was a kid (I"m a senior now!) I have been treated off and on with meds and minimal talk therapy, but nothing changes. In the past it has been underlying but as I grow older it is becoming more intense. People ask: 'why are you depressed? I never get depressed, just get a better attitude'. Or they don't hear my (probably passive-aggressive) cries for help. Or they say: 'what do you have to be depressed about?' Actually although I agree with these opinions to a certain extent, it does not address the problem that depression is not a 'why', not is it a 'choice'. It's almost like being gay, you just are. Maybe I should just accept it (guess that's what I have done for decades 🙂 But I don't want to. I want to feel better now. Earlier in my life I was able to enjoy things, although the depression would keep popping out. But now I seem to have trouble enjoying anything, including my own family, and it's harder and harder to 'push depression down' once it's popped. So I have longer periods of depression and sadness and sleeplessness and lonliness, an shorter periods of being able to enjoy my life. Or want something. Or look forward to anything. I will say too that I have as much to be happy about as I do to be unhappy - but as I said, it's not a 'why'. I'm looking for people to explore this idea, and to help each other begin to overcome. Or maybe it's just me and there's no one else who feels this way -- 😉 Thank you for reading all this.

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Parus | @parus | Apr 19, 2018
In reply to @johnsonk "@parus While Im not all that old, I feel old and useless. Long distance significant other..." + (show)
@johnsonk

@parus While Im not all that old, I feel old and useless. Long distance significant other that doesn't need me, no children, feel unwanted and useless at work, cant care about anything long enough to have a real hobby, family lives 5 hrs away, number of true friends countable on one hand, etc. Talk therapy doesn't work anymore. Really the only thing that keeps me going is my dog and a couple of friends. I know how you feel...

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@ladybugmg Just by knowing someone else understands. I am 66 and seems I wore my body out being a people pleasing person. Looking back I can see that I was a fool thinking such behavior would mean friends. The world is full of users and abusers. There are also a lot of folks whom are not. At 65 I finally learned I can say "no" without giving a reason. Thankful for this lesson learned. If wishes were horses beggars would ride. Thank you for some sunshine.

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Kami Johnson | @johnsonk | Apr 19, 2018
In reply to @parus "Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending...." + (show)
@parus

Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending. There are no solutions for some. Reality is all there is for some. DNA cannot be a battle that can be won for some. we all do the best we know how. There is no denying genetics.

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@ladybugmg You cant, no one can. That's the most difficult part, maybe I just have to wait or maybe I need to stop looking. Maybe it will never fully arrive but Im hopeful to at least obtain a modicum of peace at some point in this lifetime. Im happy to know you have found what works for you.

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ladybugmg | @ladybugmg | Apr 19, 2018
In reply to @parus "Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending...." + (show)
@parus

Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending. There are no solutions for some. Reality is all there is for some. DNA cannot be a battle that can be won for some. we all do the best we know how. There is no denying genetics.

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I realize there are no easy answers and hope you did not think I was being glib. One of my interests is current brain imaging/research that is reported on the Internet and there is and some evidence that a certain part of the brain is responsible for the occurence of depression. Let us hope they find a solution soon.

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ladybugmg | @ladybugmg | Apr 19, 2018

If I have brought you some sunshine, you have made my day!

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Parus | @parus | Apr 19, 2018
In reply to @parus "Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending...." + (show)
@parus

Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending. There are no solutions for some. Reality is all there is for some. DNA cannot be a battle that can be won for some. we all do the best we know how. There is no denying genetics.

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I am all for that!! I feel so weak because the depression is not manageable. I ought to be strong enough to conquer this darkness. Still trudging on even if only in place.

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Parus | @parus | Apr 19, 2018
In reply to @parus "Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending...." + (show)
@parus

Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending. There are no solutions for some. Reality is all there is for some. DNA cannot be a battle that can be won for some. we all do the best we know how. There is no denying genetics.

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@johnsonk I understand this feeling of dread. T'would be nice to have this cloud magically vanish.

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Parus | @parus | Apr 19, 2018
In reply to @parus "Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending...." + (show)
@parus

Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending. There are no solutions for some. Reality is all there is for some. DNA cannot be a battle that can be won for some. we all do the best we know how. There is no denying genetics.

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Could it be that some of us try too hard? Possibly I do not even know what it is I am striving for and continue to do so...Does this mean I will cease the journey? No. I have made it thus far and realize my companion is depression. Is what it is. Somethings cannot be changed or fixed, but can be tolerable even if on a low level. I do know what those depression meds did to me and as much as I do not enjoy depression the side effects made the depression much worse and did dreadful things to my mind. Thankful to not be taking them. Mayhap one day there will be one that will help others and myself.

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freesociety | @freesociety | Apr 19, 2018

CBD helps me a little with depression

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donny67 | @donny67 | Apr 19, 2018
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@parus

Long term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending. There are no solutions for some. Reality is all there is for some. DNA cannot be a battle that can be won for some. we all do the best we know how. There is no denying genetics.

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Are you open to Meditation ? If it does't do anything else it will rest your thinking while you do it. It takes time tolp us but it can be helpful !

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donny67 | @donny67 | Apr 19, 2018

How old are you that you say your old ?

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