Long-term depression
I have been depressed, when I think about it, since I was a kid (I"m a senior now!) I have been treated off and on with meds and minimal talk therapy, but nothing changes. In the past it has been underlying but as I grow older it is becoming more intense. People ask: 'why are you depressed? I never get depressed, just get a better attitude'. Or they don't hear my (probably passive-aggressive) cries for help. Or they say: 'what do you have to be depressed about?' Actually although I agree with these opinions to a certain extent, it does not address the problem that depression is not a 'why', not is it a 'choice'. It's almost like being gay, you just are. Maybe I should just accept it (guess that's what I have done for decades 🙂 But I don't want to. I want to feel better now. Earlier in my life I was able to enjoy things, although the depression would keep popping out. But now I seem to have trouble enjoying anything, including my own family, and it's harder and harder to 'push depression down' once it's popped. So I have longer periods of depression and sadness and sleeplessness and lonliness, an shorter periods of being able to enjoy my life. Or want something. Or look forward to anything. I will say too that I have as much to be happy about as I do to be unhappy - but as I said, it's not a 'why'. I'm looking for people to explore this idea, and to help each other begin to overcome. Or maybe it's just me and there's no one else who feels this way -- 😉 Thank you for reading all this.
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@guener- Thank you for your thoughtful words of experience and wisdom. I concur with all of your suggestions.
I’m 71. I have dysthymia, so I am always experiencing a base line of depression all the time. Can’t remember when I wasn’t depressed. My late mother was also depressed, and there are indications that this is genetic. I am also male, and am a statistical minority. I am pro-active. I’ve had talk therapy, and an assortment of medication. It’s a bit of a crapshoot. I’m seeing my physician/psychiatrist about issues with a new medication. I find being aggressive about managing these issues helps. Anxiety, suicidal ideation, and all the depression issues are unpleasant, and possibly fatal. Dysthymia presents as a constant, low-level depression, and occasionally presents some more intense experiences. Can’t eliminate the problem, but it can be managed.
@elwoodsdad- I hear you. They symptoms are horrible. When we are aggressive with taking care of ourselves it helps for sure. Taking control always does. Keep us up to date, please, after you have a new "try" with new meds.