I’ve struggled with depression since my teens, ranging from chronic low-grade (dysthymia) to suicidal “major” or “clinical” depression, for which I was hospitalized. Add a few heart conditions and possible ischemic stroke to that and then have to move where I know no one and don’t fit in the conservative culture, and then not being able to take SSRI antidepressants because of my bradycardia — well, it’s rather grim. I function fine most of the time, but I can hardly stand to be inside my own head some days, and I alienate a lot of people because of my “negativity.” I was actually asked to leave a church-sponsored women’s “support” group because, as the leader put it, “You’re so depressed that it makes me weary.” Really. She said that!
I’ve seen a psychologist who was of no help at all in telling me what I could take, only what I couldn’t take, which I knew already. I did go back on Prozac briefly last year, out of desperation, but it lowered my heart rate noticeably and steadily. So that was that after about 10 days.
I’m pretty good at all the cognitive behavioral therapy stuff on my own: Change your mind, I call it (“What to Say When You Talk to Yourself” was a life-changing book for me). I’m not interested nor can I afford to go into talk therapy. Been there, done that.
So is there anything new I don’t know about that is safe for people with arrhythmias and heart failure to take, perchance?
Liked by Teresa, Volunteer Mentor