I have been obsessing over the loss of my relationship with my once fiance. My anxiety has been really high, and while I do not cry I think about her all the time. There is no possibility of reconciliation, and I feel my guilt over the matter continuously. My fault lies in my use of alcohol over my depression, and I know how detrimental this is to one’s physical and mental well being. Sometimes suicidal thoughts intrude, but so far I can recognize those ideas as irrational and not a course to take, though I have pretty much arranged how things would be carried out in the event of my death. I don’t mean to overemphasize the dire straits, but this sadness is consuming me. It has been months of pain, and sometimes I think it will never end.
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