Hi all …. well, and I may have told you this, but for Mother's Day my 3 kids went together and got me a Cocklatier …. it's a cross between a Cocker Spaniel and a Cavalier. Cavaliers are usually born with a heart murmur, which ultimately becomes congestive heart failure stage 5 and then they must be put to sleep. With the breeding of the Cocker Spaniel and Cavalier, reputable breeders are trying to breed out the heart problem. My dog is the result of 2 Coclatiers, so hopefully she'll avoid any heart problems. I couldn't believe it when they got her for me.
Well, I'm isolating again. I see my girls each once a week, and I can't expect more as one works, and the other will start full time once her kids are in school. I have 1 friend in my building, a nice lady. Otherwise here I sit.
If I'd have known what I know now I'd have never moved down here. Guess I'm just MD through and through. It's not that far apart, but it is totally different – I'm in the far, far west right next to the Blue Ridge Parkway. It's pretty, but usually the mountain are clothed in mist or fog. I know this is probably only natural since he's (my X) is down here too and has spend several years with the grandkids, but when he walks in the world stops! They run to him, hug him and start to chatter. When I walk in, they're usually playing in their rooms, eventually my granddaughter comes down (she's13), and probably if I didn't say hi first she wouldn't either, but I always make a point of going up to her and giving her a hug. Her little brother is about the same. My X has managed to get himself involved in EVERYTHING …. hiking groups, tennis groups, he leads a Scout Troop, totally involved in his church. To hear him say it, "everyone just loves him." (the narcissist's mantra). But, I never gave it a thought, when I was trying to decide whether to move down here or not, that he lived in the area too, and the affect that would have on me. We get along, but with him living here now too, well, it's just sickening.
With this Bipolar 2, I have ups and downs and this doesn't help. I'm looking for a job, so hopefully that will open up more "people" resources.
I am SO SORRY that I ever moved here. I should have stayed in Frederick. I'm sure a lot of you are sick of hearing this, but I don't have anyone else to talk to this frankly. To think this is where I'll be forever, almost makes me feel sick. I just cannot move back to MD as it would really upset my 2 daughters, but they just don't get it. I'd have to rent low income, as I do here, because I sold my condo (at a loss), and I could never afford the rent in one of the nicer neighborhoods. But at least I'd be back in a place I'd lived for 30 years and loved. Thanks for listening, again, to my never-ending saga.
abby

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Hi all …. well, and I may have told you this, but for Mother's Day my 3 kids went together and got me a Cocklatier …. it's a cross between a Cocker Spaniel and a Cavalier. Cavaliers are usually born with a heart murmur, which ultimately becomes congestive heart failure stage 5 and then they must be put to sleep. With the breeding of the Cocker Spaniel and Cavalier, reputable breeders are trying to breed out the heart problem. My dog is the result of 2 Coclatiers, so hopefully she'll avoid any heart problems. I couldn't believe it when they got her for me.
Well, I'm isolating again. I see my girls each once a week, and I can't expect more as one works, and the other will start full time once her kids are in school. I have 1 friend in my building, a nice lady. Otherwise here I sit.
If I'd have known what I know now I'd have never moved down here. Guess I'm just MD through and through. It's not that far apart, but it is totally different – I'm in the far, far west right next to the Blue Ridge Parkway. It's pretty, but usually the mountain are clothed in mist or fog. I know this is probably only natural since he's (my X) is down here too and has spend several years with the grandkids, but when he walks in the world stops! They run to him, hug him and start to chatter. When I walk in, they're usually playing in their rooms, eventually my granddaughter comes down (she's13), and probably if I didn't say hi first she wouldn't either, but I always make a point of going up to her and giving her a hug. Her little brother is about the same. My X has managed to get himself involved in EVERYTHING …. hiking groups, tennis groups, he leads a Scout Troop, totally involved in his church. To hear him say it, "everyone just loves him." (the narcissist's mantra). But, I never gave it a thought, when I was trying to decide whether to move down here or not, that he lived in the area too, and the affect that would have on me. We get along, but with him living here now too, well, it's just sickening.
With this Bipolar 2, I have ups and downs and this doesn't help. I'm looking for a job, so hopefully that will open up more "people" resources.
I am SO SORRY that I ever moved here. I should have stayed in Frederick. I'm sure a lot of you are sick of hearing this, but I don't have anyone else to talk to this frankly. To think this is where I'll be forever, almost makes me feel sick. I just cannot move back to MD as it would really upset my 2 daughters, but they just don't get it. I'd have to rent low income, as I do here, because I sold my condo (at a loss), and I could never afford the rent in one of the nicer neighborhoods. But at least I'd be back in a place I'd lived for 30 years and loved. Thanks for listening, again, to my never-ending saga.
abby

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Hi all …. well, and I may have told you this, but for Mother's Day my 3 kids went together and got me a Cocklatier …. it's a cross between a Cocker Spaniel and a Cavalier. Cavaliers are usually born with a heart murmur, which ultimately becomes congestive heart failure stage 5 and then they must be put to sleep. With the breeding of the Cocker Spaniel and Cavalier, reputable breeders are trying to breed out the heart problem. My dog is the result of 2 Coclatiers, so hopefully she'll avoid any heart problems. I couldn't believe it when they got her for me.
Well, I'm isolating again. I see my girls each once a week, and I can't expect more as one works, and the other will start full time once her kids are in school. I have 1 friend in my building, a nice lady. Otherwise here I sit.
If I'd have known what I know now I'd have never moved down here. Guess I'm just MD through and through. It's not that far apart, but it is totally different – I'm in the far, far west right next to the Blue Ridge Parkway. It's pretty, but usually the mountain are clothed in mist or fog. I know this is probably only natural since he's (my X) is down here too and has spend several years with the grandkids, but when he walks in the world stops! They run to him, hug him and start to chatter. When I walk in, they're usually playing in their rooms, eventually my granddaughter comes down (she's13), and probably if I didn't say hi first she wouldn't either, but I always make a point of going up to her and giving her a hug. Her little brother is about the same. My X has managed to get himself involved in EVERYTHING …. hiking groups, tennis groups, he leads a Scout Troop, totally involved in his church. To hear him say it, "everyone just loves him." (the narcissist's mantra). But, I never gave it a thought, when I was trying to decide whether to move down here or not, that he lived in the area too, and the affect that would have on me. We get along, but with him living here now too, well, it's just sickening.
With this Bipolar 2, I have ups and downs and this doesn't help. I'm looking for a job, so hopefully that will open up more "people" resources.
I am SO SORRY that I ever moved here. I should have stayed in Frederick. I'm sure a lot of you are sick of hearing this, but I don't have anyone else to talk to this frankly. To think this is where I'll be forever, almost makes me feel sick. I just cannot move back to MD as it would really upset my 2 daughters, but they just don't get it. I'd have to rent low income, as I do here, because I sold my condo (at a loss), and I could never afford the rent in one of the nicer neighborhoods. But at least I'd be back in a place I'd lived for 30 years and loved. Thanks for listening, again, to my never-ending saga.
abby

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@lisalucier Thank You for asking about my parakeet, Baby. He's a sweetheart of a companion. Very social and he's the only one I talk to mostly daily. He's easy to take care of and also cheap on food etc. Buy him a few toys and he plays with them all day. I have taught him to speak quite a few things and he also sings, in his own way. I am teaching him to say trick or treat atm. Right now he's at my brothers because I am going into surgery tomorrow on my right artery in my neck. A piece of plaque has broken up and floating around. My left artery is 80% clogged so I hope the surgeon has picked the right artery to operate on. I worry I won't be walking out of the hospital!! I am terrified. Off subject (sorry). I love my parakeet and if anyone would like to get one for companionship, get a male, they talk more.

Love you all, Lorraine 🙂

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@desirea Thank you for sharing about your sweet Baby. They do provide company and are superb listeners and can become articulate as well Can your Baby whistle tunes??? I once had a cockatiel that could whistle tunes and talk a blue-streak. I saw him in a pet store in a cage without food or water like the other birds. I asked to have him taken from the cage and the employee had not a clue how to handle a bird. I did buy him and realized on the way home he had a deformed foot. Turns out the little fella was physically disabled. I saved him from being killed. I designed his cage by making it handicapped accessible. He was a joy to have and what he lacked physically he made up for in personality!!!
Thank you Lorraine for this happy memory.

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