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Loss and Grief: How are you doing?
Loss & Grief | Last Active: Apr 7, 2024 | Replies (932)Comment receiving replies
I really dont even know where to start. I lost my best friend, lover and husband to liver cancer 2.5 years ago. Didnt really start to grieve till last year. As to, I believe having recieved 2 foster kids 6 mos after he died. So poured everything into the kids. and delayed my grieving, untill they left my home 5 months later. Then it was like I lost and was grieving all 3 at the same time. To say the least, Im not doing so well. My friends and neighbors dont understand, and say I push them away, (not what I wanted to do, or intended to do) just didnt know how to express myself. so ended up more alone, and felt abandoned. I am a christian, and have been studying all I can in the word about grief, depression, and loneliness. My family lives far away, I thought I had the church family, but feel I dont fit in anymore, and they quit reaching out cause they feel I should be over it by now. and they dont know what to do with me, I dont fit in any of the groups that we used to be in. All I really want is to feel needed, wanted, and to belong to something, cant find the new normal, dont seem to fit in, feel more alone in a crowd, so I just stay home alone. know that is not the answer either, but dont know what to do. Want to go home to be with my husband, and all the loved ones who have died before me. At times it seems the only answer. Just waiting to die of a broken heart. I get up each day, because I have animals to care for, so all I am living for now.
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@littleonefmohio, Thanks little one! I'm having fun and it's distracting me from you know what.
Littleone, I really like that name. Got a picture of some of my daffodils. I'll give you some flowers
@2011panc, I've got a fairly good picture of my opium poppies. Thought they were California poppies. Some hippies lived here and left some stuff behind.
@lisalucier,
Don't think I have a picture of the lilac's. They blossom in the late spring or summer, depending on how they feel. Hope they're feeling good. LOL
Beautiful. I love flowers. I will send mine when they bloom..haha
Johnbishop isn't it? I'm doing ok. Just because I'm having fun doesn't make everything better but this helps. Should try posting Johnny Cash's song. "I still miss someone."
Can't see very well, got something in my eyes.
My daffodils just started blooming. We used to live in the Willamette Valley in Oregon, and they bloom much sooner there. Everyone knew our place by the thousands of daffodils. I picked a handful the other day to enjoy in the house.
My wife grew up on a farm near Chowchilla, CA, and has told me about daffodil hill. We lived in Merced for several years in the late 70s, and kept our house there until '04. Friends rented it for a long time and we offered them a lease to buy, but they turned it down. That was a$125,000.00 mistake for them, as we sold it for that much more than we offered to them.
Thanks for showing us your daffodils. Maybe I'll post some this evening. Right now I need to press a couple of pairs of slacks that I just hemmed. They were too long. Actually, they used to be just the right length, but I've shrunk a couple of inches over the past decade, and the style is shorter than it used to be. I had a pile of around ten pair of pants to hem, glad to have finished the job finally. Several were suit pants.
Jim
@littleonefmohio, haha, make me laugh. Glad you enjoyed the flowers. Can't wait to see your flowers. What state are you in? I'm in CA. I think my beans are done so I'm gonna have dinner.
Thanks Mark
@jimhd, Good to hear from you again. I'd like to see your flowers. Are you in Southern CA? Forget the name of the place you mentioned. I asked Mary if she'd like a steam iron for Christmas and she just looked at me. I got the clue. Sometimes I'm quick.
Hope your feeling better. "One day at a Time" was our AA slogan. What do we know about tomorrow?
Take care, and give me a heads up when you put your pics up.
Mark
@2011panc, Me again! I forgot to tell you that the VA sent me a large kit of stop smoking tablets, patches and whatever. It's sitting right beside me on the floor. Expensive stuff but they send if for almost no charge, maybe a few bucks.
I suppose I ought to pick the pack up and pop a tab. I've tried it before but I really don't get it. Guess I'm still being stubborn.
OK, I'll try. You're making me laugh again. Thanks. Pushy much? LOL
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@2011panc, Hi again. Think I got this picture thing right. Don't have a panoramic type camera but this should do, got other pictures. Cheers!