I suffer from depression and anxiety, so I would be feeling these feelings no matter what. But what do you do when you have real reasons for the worry. I lost my job due to anxiety keeping me fro going in. I’m on disability now. I don’t make enough money to cover our bills so we’re in real danger of losing our house and filing bankruptcy. My husband asked for a separation because he said my anxiety and depression were too much to live with. He’s unemployed and has gone to Honduras to work as a missionary. He makes no money. I’m living with my son and his wife because I don’t think I could take being in the house alone. I was hospitalized twice last year from my symptoms and I think that’s where I would end up again if I was alone. I’m already fantasizing about the relief of being in a hospital where I don’t have to pretend to be ok. A small bit of suicidal ideation is creeping back in. So as you can see, my anxiety and depression is not without cause. How can you get better when the monsters are real?
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