Hello. I’m new. I’ve managed my depression, for the most part, most of my life. Mainly by doing. But now, at 62, I’m deemed anti-depressant resistant, and so so stuck. I can’t figure out what to do with myself. I go round and round, considering options, but find myself unable to take the steps necessary. Even easy things, like going to the movies, is too hard. (…nothing I want to see; I don’t want to go by myself; I feel I’m imposing to ask someone, yadda yadda …). I am just wasting my years. And that’s so tragic. Some days are just so so painful. I sleep a lot on many days. Other days I try to ‘kill time’ by reading or watching tv, or long crossword puzzles. My outings are to the grocery store and pharmacy. I have a psychiatrist that bounces me from medication to medication, most of which don’t work. I am on Pristiq now which keeps my head above water, on good days. I want to become someone my two sons and my husband can be proud of. And I’m descending into nothing but a picture of a weak and crippled being. I hate it. But I can’t find help. I’ve been to psych therapist…but my current insurance has terrible ones and I keep explaining I need a real psychologist with experience and solutions. It feels like there is nowhere to go for help. Is there no cure for this terrible condition??!!