Possible Depression & ADHD - Need Advice & Support.

Posted by greymelody @greymelody, Wed, May 15 10:36am

Hey, call me Melody or Mel for short.

Guess I’ll get straight to the point– 13 year old female (turning 14 soon) who has undiagnosed ADHD and shows possible depression symptoms.

Parents both are diagnosed with ADHD, have shown ADHD symptoms before the age of 12, and still struggle with symptoms as of now. If I had to guess, I’d say I have the Combination Presentation (Inattention & Hyperactivity/Impulsive). I show symptoms of both inattention and hyperactivity — the former being unable to properly focus often, getting distracted easily (even when it’s something I have to get done), and daydreaming far more than should be appropriate (waste hours of my life doing this, even when there’s more important things to be done). Pace often (coupled with daydreaming), can’t sit still, mind is always racing, and tend to blurt whatever’s on my mind, along with a lot of extreme gestures while talking.

With that ADHD note, I am uncertain where my constant daydreaming is a symptom of my ADHD, perhaps a larger issue, or both. As I mentioned before, I waste hours of my life daydreaming, even if there’s things I need to get done. I blast music in my earbuds and pace. I’m told I make facial expressions and sounds while daydreaming, which isn’t something that people with ADHD seem to complain about – although it seems like something I would be more likely to struggle with, due to my ADHD. I’ve heard of the term “Maladaptive Daydreaming,” but I don’t daydream of worlds or make up entire storylines or plot. I don’t make my own fictional characters in my head, nor do I imagine an idealized version of myself. I would say I daydream of fictional characters I’ve read or watched through media going through emotional conflicts — it is not a storyline or a full plot; it is a section of a plot, the climax, with no other added details.

I would like to know what other people think of this issue, and if there’s anything that can be done to improve it. I think I may have developed it as an unhealthy coping mechanism, but I’m unsure how to go about improving it. I have nothing against daydreaming in itself; it’s a wonderful thing. But now it is interfering with my schoolwork and daily life, as I find myself procrastinating both relationships and work in order to daydream.

Finally, the main crux of what I want to talk about: My depression symptoms.

I’m not comfortable with self-diagnosing depression. It is a very real, serious condition that hurts people — even people that I currently know and love — and I would hate to invalidate the struggles of people who go through it if I don’t actually suffer from it. It’s why I am so hesitant in even professing the idea that I could have depression, perhaps a mild form of it, because I’m scared of invalidating other people’s experiences.

The fact of it is that I’ve been showing depression symptoms for a while now, and I’m not sure how to feel about it. I’ve gone through a lot as of late, so I would be valid in being stressed or sad about recent events. To tl;dr of it: Briefly moved to another country, withdrew from an online community of friends after an argument with one of the main friends in said community (didn’t feel comfortable there anymore), learned about my ADHD when my parents told me that I most likely had it but never knew before that time, got into a relationship that inevitably failed once said guy got into another relationship and told me after the fact (he was polyamorous and we never had the conversation about it until then), and am currently in a very unstable living situation, as I am unsure of where my parents and I are going to travel next or where we’ll be staying long-term.

With all that, it would be natural for me to be upset or stressed or sad. I’m aware of that. And yet, when I think about what’s causing me distress, it’s not those things — It’s me. I’m upset, not because of what I’m going through (although I am not fine with these events, they aren’t the main struggle), but because of who I am as a person. I feel like a failure, useless, a burden, and that all I can do is take from other people, no matter how hard I try to do good. … That last one probably stems from my falling out with the friend I mentioned earlier. They told me I was untrustworthy, unintentionally two-faced, and a person who takes from others in her pursuit to try to help everyone. I feel like their words have become a part of my mental dialogue, now.

I don’t know. I think I’ve been oversleeping, eating more than usual, and I feel tired, all the time. But not a physical tiredness; a mental tiredness that doesn’t go away, no matter what. It’s a heavy nothing that follows me everywhere, and there’s moments where I’ll feel better — distracting myself with friends or my daydreaming habit — but the second those things stop, it washes over me all over again. I don’t know what to do about it.

I feel worthless, like a waste of space. I’m guilty a lot, even for things I’ve got no reason to be. I’ve gotten passive suicidal ideation, different from active.

And I don’t know, because I’m terrible at self-awareness. I don’t know, because with all my distractions, it’s possible that this has worsened over time, with the more I ignored it and the more I used my daydreaming as a coping mechanism to feel better, instead of actually addressing what was going on. And now… Now, I’m overdue on schoolwork, on the brink of tears because I feel so pathetic, and I just. Need advice, help, something.

My friends who I have talked to about this comment that it seems like a very mild form of depression, considering that I’m still able to function, but still showcase these depression symptoms. Heck, despite being told by two of my friends who suffer from depression themselves that it’s okay for me to call it such or that they even think it’s possible I have it and that that it doesn’t invalidate their experiences at all, I’m scared.

I got a therapist appointment in June, I think, but my parents seem to be of the impression that’s it’s for an ADHD diagnosis only. It’s only an hour long, and I don’t think I’ll have future, consistent ones besides that one, considering how shaky my living situation is right now. Should I talk to them about me showcasing depression symptoms, as well? I don’t know if we’ll have time to really go over it, or if I’ll be able to find help right away, though.

I would say the depression symptoms began a year ago, got better with the relationship I had, and then fell right back into that hole of darkness again. And then I had a period where I felt better, and then crashed for no particular reason, and am now right back here again.

What should I do? What should I think? What do you guys think? I need some outside advice here.
I would really appreciate any input, so thanks in advance for anyone who bothers to reply to this mess, haaaa.
If more context or information is needed, just let me know.

(Also, I’m new here, so if this is posted in the wrong area, let me know, and I’ll move it.)

@greymelody

@mamacita, thank you so much, I don't even really what to say– I can't really say anything besides expressing my gratitude for your kind words. So, really, thank you.

As you're someone who is diagnosed with ADHD and depression, do you think I could contact you in the future for some coping strategies/tactics and information regarding those conditions? I've done a lot of research into it myself, but first-hand accounts are just as important, if not more-so, I would think.

Mhm, and yeah, I agree. When it come to mental health, I've come to form the opinion that all aspects of treatment are important: Forming healthy coping strategies (such as mindfulness, meditation, etc), medication (depending), and therapy (such as CBT, DBT, etc). Like, I would compare it to: They're all pieces of an overall puzzle; you can't just have one piece and not the others, if that makes sense.

That does remind me – Does anybody have any CBT exercises/sources online that I could take a look at? I don't really have access to a therapist right away that I can do that type of thing with, but it seems like something that could be helpful to what I'm struggling with. I also have a friend who I think would benefit from CBT, as well, so all the more reason to learn about it, heh.

Mhm, yeah, I do think doing all that would be a good idea. The main issue that since I'm currently unsure of what our long-term living situation is, I don't think I can get a steady therapist or consistent treatment plan just yet. We're currently in Dubai, and in June, we're going to the U.S. for the therapist appointment to get my ADHD diagnosis (and possibly medication for it, as well).

After that, we aren't really sure — My dad may be getting a project in Saudi Arabia for a couple of years, so we may possibly move to Bahrain for a while, if that does happen (since my mom and I don't want to move to Saudi, and Bahrain is close enough that he could drive back and forth to see us, I think). Possibly being the keyword here, though, haha.

From the way my mom has talked about the therapist I'm going to see in June, she apparently works through a psychiatrist, of sorts which means that even though she's a therapist, she's allowed to prescribe medication through him. She works in the U.S. though, so if we end up moving to Bahrain or somewhere else, I wouldn't be able to continuously see her — basically, I can't really get a steady treatment plan until we can figure out where our long-term plans for living are. So I guess I'm sort of searching for coping mechanisms/strategies to work with while I wait for the opportunity to get more concrete treatment?

Still, I want to thank you again for your kind words. I really do appreciate it. Love and light to you, too. ♥

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Hey, @graymelody, you can chat here with me. This is about the best forum for sharing information and getting support I have found.

An addendum for my previous statement earlier: There are lots of medications out there, obviously, for ADHD and other things.

The medical specialists like to start slowly and carefully, as they should. Sometimes they decide for no medication at all.

I'm with the no medication at all group, for young people. Growing, vibrant brains have enough to contend with . However, having said that, I do know that sometimes it is necessary.

Time magazine put out a specialty magazine on Mindfulness. That one little magazine is chock full of information about a very simple, easy, no cost approach to soothing our frazzled nerves.

I am not a medical doctor and of course cannot "prescribe" treatment. But I do agree with the principle that physicians go by every day of their lives. "First, do no harm."

The jury is still out on what is at the bottom of your situation. Research is wonderful and I thank the Lord for Google every day! When I was your age I lived in the library, because I was much like you. I had situations that made me feel uncomfortable , I felt like I only had myself to figure things out, and I was anxious about so many things.

I commend you for reading everything you can get your hands on to try to figure things out. Just remember that time will tell. And breathe! You are a very well informed young lady and that is so awesome! But remember too, that if you read all of this medical information , non stop, without taking a break for yourself, pretty soon you will have diagnosed yourself with Hungarian Jungle Rot Disease!

My point is merely this: Take time to just be a 13 year old. Breathe. Literally . Most people are shallow breathers and do not realize it.

Take time for yourself with self care. Whatever brings you joy, think about scheduling some time for that.

Start a journal, if you haven't already. What I really like is a gratitude journal. Medical professionals in the area of psychology are telling us that the attitude of gratitude changes our thought patterns.

Hydrate! I can't say this enough! Eat as healthy as you can, but don't beat yourself up if you have a Hershey bar with almonds every now and then. The best of us do!

Sleep. Try to get a good bit of it before the midnight hour. It's been proven that's when teens do their healing and growing more than any other time. No screens flashing, either.

Move!!! Not from where you are, obviously…..But put on an exercise video or a dance routine and move that body! A new rule we have here at our house is this: Never leave a room without something in your hand. This will help your parents out with the housework, tremendously! A place for everything and everything in its place.

Marie Kondo has changed my life. Literally. With every bag of clothing that I donate, a weight is lifted off my shoulders. Depression loves to hide out in dark corners of "stuff" we keep because we are attached emotionally to "things." Let it go.

Sorry this is so long. I'm sure that others on here have some more tips for you that I in my lack of coffee haze have not thought of. Ha!

There really are some great ideas I can share with you about depression. I am a survivor! And nothing makes me any happier than sharing how!

Hope to "talk" with you some more later! Have a great day! And welcome to the table….we are here for you!

Mamacita

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@mamacita

Hey, @graymelody, you can chat here with me. This is about the best forum for sharing information and getting support I have found.

An addendum for my previous statement earlier: There are lots of medications out there, obviously, for ADHD and other things.

The medical specialists like to start slowly and carefully, as they should. Sometimes they decide for no medication at all.

I'm with the no medication at all group, for young people. Growing, vibrant brains have enough to contend with . However, having said that, I do know that sometimes it is necessary.

Time magazine put out a specialty magazine on Mindfulness. That one little magazine is chock full of information about a very simple, easy, no cost approach to soothing our frazzled nerves.

I am not a medical doctor and of course cannot "prescribe" treatment. But I do agree with the principle that physicians go by every day of their lives. "First, do no harm."

The jury is still out on what is at the bottom of your situation. Research is wonderful and I thank the Lord for Google every day! When I was your age I lived in the library, because I was much like you. I had situations that made me feel uncomfortable , I felt like I only had myself to figure things out, and I was anxious about so many things.

I commend you for reading everything you can get your hands on to try to figure things out. Just remember that time will tell. And breathe! You are a very well informed young lady and that is so awesome! But remember too, that if you read all of this medical information , non stop, without taking a break for yourself, pretty soon you will have diagnosed yourself with Hungarian Jungle Rot Disease!

My point is merely this: Take time to just be a 13 year old. Breathe. Literally . Most people are shallow breathers and do not realize it.

Take time for yourself with self care. Whatever brings you joy, think about scheduling some time for that.

Start a journal, if you haven't already. What I really like is a gratitude journal. Medical professionals in the area of psychology are telling us that the attitude of gratitude changes our thought patterns.

Hydrate! I can't say this enough! Eat as healthy as you can, but don't beat yourself up if you have a Hershey bar with almonds every now and then. The best of us do!

Sleep. Try to get a good bit of it before the midnight hour. It's been proven that's when teens do their healing and growing more than any other time. No screens flashing, either.

Move!!! Not from where you are, obviously…..But put on an exercise video or a dance routine and move that body! A new rule we have here at our house is this: Never leave a room without something in your hand. This will help your parents out with the housework, tremendously! A place for everything and everything in its place.

Marie Kondo has changed my life. Literally. With every bag of clothing that I donate, a weight is lifted off my shoulders. Depression loves to hide out in dark corners of "stuff" we keep because we are attached emotionally to "things." Let it go.

Sorry this is so long. I'm sure that others on here have some more tips for you that I in my lack of coffee haze have not thought of. Ha!

There really are some great ideas I can share with you about depression. I am a survivor! And nothing makes me any happier than sharing how!

Hope to "talk" with you some more later! Have a great day! And welcome to the table….we are here for you!

Mamacita

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@mamacita Thank you so much!! No need to apologize for it being long, I appreciate it! I agree with all the tips you've shared with me– Exercising daily, eating healthy, having a healthy sleep schedule, etc, are all good and healthy things to do, both mentally and physically. It's just a matter of actually applying those principles in real life. I feel like we all know these things in the back of our minds, but it's hard to actually apply it and put it into practice, you know? Maybe I'll try to make more of an effort to work on these things (like, my terrible sleep schedule, for example; staying up to 3AM and sleeping to 3PM isn't good, for obvious reasons lol).

As I mentioned earlier, I agree with the sentiment that medication isn't everything, and that it really depends on an individual! The thing with medication is that you can't just take a pill by itself – you also have to start developing healthy habits and strategies along with it. It's an entire process, and so I definitely understand the sentiment of avoiding medication for younger kids, unless the individual really needs it/it proves effective for them. I think that when it comes to people in my age group, we should really focus on like. Learning healthy coping strategies, how to deal with stress healthily, making sure to take care of our own mental health, etc, so that we can apply those habits/methods/strategies as we grow older and have to deal with more stress + responsibilities. Without knowledge of those strategies and whatnot, we'll get overwhelmed and crash and burn, if that makes sense?

And hey, you know, I just turned 14 today! It's my birthday, ahah. I should maybe take the time to celebrate it a little, jkalds.

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@greymelody

@mamacita Thank you so much!! No need to apologize for it being long, I appreciate it! I agree with all the tips you've shared with me– Exercising daily, eating healthy, having a healthy sleep schedule, etc, are all good and healthy things to do, both mentally and physically. It's just a matter of actually applying those principles in real life. I feel like we all know these things in the back of our minds, but it's hard to actually apply it and put it into practice, you know? Maybe I'll try to make more of an effort to work on these things (like, my terrible sleep schedule, for example; staying up to 3AM and sleeping to 3PM isn't good, for obvious reasons lol).

As I mentioned earlier, I agree with the sentiment that medication isn't everything, and that it really depends on an individual! The thing with medication is that you can't just take a pill by itself – you also have to start developing healthy habits and strategies along with it. It's an entire process, and so I definitely understand the sentiment of avoiding medication for younger kids, unless the individual really needs it/it proves effective for them. I think that when it comes to people in my age group, we should really focus on like. Learning healthy coping strategies, how to deal with stress healthily, making sure to take care of our own mental health, etc, so that we can apply those habits/methods/strategies as we grow older and have to deal with more stress + responsibilities. Without knowledge of those strategies and whatnot, we'll get overwhelmed and crash and burn, if that makes sense?

And hey, you know, I just turned 14 today! It's my birthday, ahah. I should maybe take the time to celebrate it a little, jkalds.

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@greymelody

Mel Happy Birthday~🎈🎂😊

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@greymelody

@mamacita Thank you so much!! No need to apologize for it being long, I appreciate it! I agree with all the tips you've shared with me– Exercising daily, eating healthy, having a healthy sleep schedule, etc, are all good and healthy things to do, both mentally and physically. It's just a matter of actually applying those principles in real life. I feel like we all know these things in the back of our minds, but it's hard to actually apply it and put it into practice, you know? Maybe I'll try to make more of an effort to work on these things (like, my terrible sleep schedule, for example; staying up to 3AM and sleeping to 3PM isn't good, for obvious reasons lol).

As I mentioned earlier, I agree with the sentiment that medication isn't everything, and that it really depends on an individual! The thing with medication is that you can't just take a pill by itself – you also have to start developing healthy habits and strategies along with it. It's an entire process, and so I definitely understand the sentiment of avoiding medication for younger kids, unless the individual really needs it/it proves effective for them. I think that when it comes to people in my age group, we should really focus on like. Learning healthy coping strategies, how to deal with stress healthily, making sure to take care of our own mental health, etc, so that we can apply those habits/methods/strategies as we grow older and have to deal with more stress + responsibilities. Without knowledge of those strategies and whatnot, we'll get overwhelmed and crash and burn, if that makes sense?

And hey, you know, I just turned 14 today! It's my birthday, ahah. I should maybe take the time to celebrate it a little, jkalds.

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@greymelody Melody, happy birthday to you! Singin' and dancin' in the aisles just for you, today! We'll put a big cake in the center of this cyber table, with candles, and wish you a year of joy and growth. Then let's each take a tiny piece of cake to celebrate with you!
Ginger

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@greymelody

@mamacita Thank you so much!! No need to apologize for it being long, I appreciate it! I agree with all the tips you've shared with me– Exercising daily, eating healthy, having a healthy sleep schedule, etc, are all good and healthy things to do, both mentally and physically. It's just a matter of actually applying those principles in real life. I feel like we all know these things in the back of our minds, but it's hard to actually apply it and put it into practice, you know? Maybe I'll try to make more of an effort to work on these things (like, my terrible sleep schedule, for example; staying up to 3AM and sleeping to 3PM isn't good, for obvious reasons lol).

As I mentioned earlier, I agree with the sentiment that medication isn't everything, and that it really depends on an individual! The thing with medication is that you can't just take a pill by itself – you also have to start developing healthy habits and strategies along with it. It's an entire process, and so I definitely understand the sentiment of avoiding medication for younger kids, unless the individual really needs it/it proves effective for them. I think that when it comes to people in my age group, we should really focus on like. Learning healthy coping strategies, how to deal with stress healthily, making sure to take care of our own mental health, etc, so that we can apply those habits/methods/strategies as we grow older and have to deal with more stress + responsibilities. Without knowledge of those strategies and whatnot, we'll get overwhelmed and crash and burn, if that makes sense?

And hey, you know, I just turned 14 today! It's my birthday, ahah. I should maybe take the time to celebrate it a little, jkalds.

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Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Me-el….Happy Birthday to you! Now, blow out the candles and make a wish!

Love and light to you, @graymelody,

Mamacita

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@greymelody

@mamacita Thank you so much!! No need to apologize for it being long, I appreciate it! I agree with all the tips you've shared with me– Exercising daily, eating healthy, having a healthy sleep schedule, etc, are all good and healthy things to do, both mentally and physically. It's just a matter of actually applying those principles in real life. I feel like we all know these things in the back of our minds, but it's hard to actually apply it and put it into practice, you know? Maybe I'll try to make more of an effort to work on these things (like, my terrible sleep schedule, for example; staying up to 3AM and sleeping to 3PM isn't good, for obvious reasons lol).

As I mentioned earlier, I agree with the sentiment that medication isn't everything, and that it really depends on an individual! The thing with medication is that you can't just take a pill by itself – you also have to start developing healthy habits and strategies along with it. It's an entire process, and so I definitely understand the sentiment of avoiding medication for younger kids, unless the individual really needs it/it proves effective for them. I think that when it comes to people in my age group, we should really focus on like. Learning healthy coping strategies, how to deal with stress healthily, making sure to take care of our own mental health, etc, so that we can apply those habits/methods/strategies as we grow older and have to deal with more stress + responsibilities. Without knowledge of those strategies and whatnot, we'll get overwhelmed and crash and burn, if that makes sense?

And hey, you know, I just turned 14 today! It's my birthday, ahah. I should maybe take the time to celebrate it a little, jkalds.

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@greymelody, I will look up some super pages for you to look at. Deal? Deal! And my partners in crime here will be looking for the good stuff too.

Love and light,

Mamacita

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@hopeful33250, @mamacita, @gingerw , thank you all so much!!!!! ;w; you're all so sweet! Thank you so much for everything, you guys!

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@greymelody

@hopeful33250, @mamacita, @gingerw , thank you all so much!!!!! ;w; you're all so sweet! Thank you so much for everything, you guys!

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@greymelody Hello Mel,

We are all here to listen so post away and we will be here!

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@greymelody, here's one for the books….some folks are just meant to move. Why fight it? Move with all your heart and soul.

How do you feel about dancing? Yoga? Walking the family dog?
Gym membership? Swimming? I realize your options are limited at the moment, taking into consideration where you currently reside.

Yet we , all of us, have our limitations. The thing is, movement can be purposeful. My purpose, your purpose, is to feel good and be as healthy as we can be.

Movement tells our bodies to produce hormones essential for our well-being. Even the little boys and girls in grammar school show us the need for this activity. The "experts" are now telling us that children need two and three recesses a day, rather than the previous trend of only one or none.

We cannot pour from an empty cup. We take care of ourselves so that we can live our best lives. To enjoy, yes, certainly. But also to serve. We are better together, as we say around here.

Trust that you will find the answers you need. Take time for yourself. You are young and have that to your advantage. Life is about balance. Thankfully, there are so many ways to do that.

Enjoy the journey! Love and light to you, dear heart! We are here for you….

Mamacita

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@greymelody, choff, choff…this Birthday cake is really good! How thoughtful of you to invite us over! What a great excuse to stray from my "lazy keto" diet.

Frankly, these days I would use just about any excuse at all to stray from my Lazy Keto diet. I've been so good for so long, lost 65 pounds, gone down so many dress sizes. But I am stalled. Planning for two trips, finishing up home-schooling the teen, and Marie Kondo-ing my entire house leaves me exhausted all too frequently.

Not to mention my book club, recovering from Shingles, and all the other books I am currently reading. I move into my new office this week. I am blessed with incredible people who want to make a difference in our world. We are a team of "helpers." Remember Mr. Rogers? He always said that when you are in trouble, lost, and can't find your way home, to look for the "helpers."

We have various labels and titles. Different degrees, cerificates, licenses, and experience. We are a non-profit organization. I will be able to work as much or as little as I want or need to. We cooperate with other agencies and groups in the community to help provide a place where people can come and be seen. Be heard.

Very much like Mayo Clinic Connect. We hear you. We see you. Come to the table. We have a place set just for you. Give our best regards to your family.

See you later, gator. (Our teen groans when we talk like that to him. I imagine you grimacing as you read the last sentence!) Come on, you know we old folks like to be a source of embarrassment for the young ones. Ha!

Have a blessed day! Talk to you later!

Mamacita

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@mamacita

@greymelody, choff, choff…this Birthday cake is really good! How thoughtful of you to invite us over! What a great excuse to stray from my "lazy keto" diet.

Frankly, these days I would use just about any excuse at all to stray from my Lazy Keto diet. I've been so good for so long, lost 65 pounds, gone down so many dress sizes. But I am stalled. Planning for two trips, finishing up home-schooling the teen, and Marie Kondo-ing my entire house leaves me exhausted all too frequently.

Not to mention my book club, recovering from Shingles, and all the other books I am currently reading. I move into my new office this week. I am blessed with incredible people who want to make a difference in our world. We are a team of "helpers." Remember Mr. Rogers? He always said that when you are in trouble, lost, and can't find your way home, to look for the "helpers."

We have various labels and titles. Different degrees, cerificates, licenses, and experience. We are a non-profit organization. I will be able to work as much or as little as I want or need to. We cooperate with other agencies and groups in the community to help provide a place where people can come and be seen. Be heard.

Very much like Mayo Clinic Connect. We hear you. We see you. Come to the table. We have a place set just for you. Give our best regards to your family.

See you later, gator. (Our teen groans when we talk like that to him. I imagine you grimacing as you read the last sentence!) Come on, you know we old folks like to be a source of embarrassment for the young ones. Ha!

Have a blessed day! Talk to you later!

Mamacita

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@mamacita You're an inspiration, so many irons in the fire. The new office sounds wonderful with a cadre of people to help, And bring light to the dark corners.
Ginger

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@gingerw

@mamacita You're an inspiration, so many irons in the fire. The new office sounds wonderful with a cadre of people to help, And bring light to the dark corners.
Ginger

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Precious friend, @ginger, Volunteer Mentor, How wonderful to spend time with you again! I have missed you so much! Shingles just about got me, I tell you.

I still have issues with it. I may have to go to the doc in the box today. Several places are not healing as they should.

Who needs Facebook when you can have Mayo Clinic Connect?!!

We are going to my little Grands kindergarten graduation soon. I plan to wear waterproof mascara. I know I will cry buckets.

He is my little mini-me. He is Autistic and thriving!!@

And he makes me think so much of my Daddy. Oh how he would have adored this little boy!

As you remember, my empathic abilities can be overwhelming at times. It cracks me up when people say that we Autistics don't have feelings like other people.

I don't just have my own deep feelings, I feel other's deepest feelings. Some folks I adore tend to shy away from me, as if they realize I can see through the facade.

I get it. They don't want to be reminded of the pain that they carry around.

They sense I will bring it up. They should know by now that I won't. They are safe with me.

You, my dear, have been busy, too! Isn't it amazing what we can do in the middle of the mess?

This world we live in is such a mess. But there is still beauty, joy, and grace.

Thank you for your encouraging words. You are an inspiration to me!

Thanks for being you!

Love and light to you, my friend!

Mamacita

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@mamacita

Precious friend, @ginger, Volunteer Mentor, How wonderful to spend time with you again! I have missed you so much! Shingles just about got me, I tell you.

I still have issues with it. I may have to go to the doc in the box today. Several places are not healing as they should.

Who needs Facebook when you can have Mayo Clinic Connect?!!

We are going to my little Grands kindergarten graduation soon. I plan to wear waterproof mascara. I know I will cry buckets.

He is my little mini-me. He is Autistic and thriving!!@

And he makes me think so much of my Daddy. Oh how he would have adored this little boy!

As you remember, my empathic abilities can be overwhelming at times. It cracks me up when people say that we Autistics don't have feelings like other people.

I don't just have my own deep feelings, I feel other's deepest feelings. Some folks I adore tend to shy away from me, as if they realize I can see through the facade.

I get it. They don't want to be reminded of the pain that they carry around.

They sense I will bring it up. They should know by now that I won't. They are safe with me.

You, my dear, have been busy, too! Isn't it amazing what we can do in the middle of the mess?

This world we live in is such a mess. But there is still beauty, joy, and grace.

Thank you for your encouraging words. You are an inspiration to me!

Thanks for being you!

Love and light to you, my friend!

Mamacita

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@mamacita Have a joyous time with the grand's Kindergarten graduation. Cry buckets. You know the saying "there is healing in salt: from the sea, from your tears, orfrom your sweat."
Yep, as Auties we are often so sensitive to others. I think that is why I sometimes need to be so focused, so that I don't pick up what others are feeling and their energies. It's simply too overwhelming for me.
Ginger

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@mamacita Have a joyous time with the grand's Kindergarten graduation. Cry buckets. You know the saying "there is healing in salt: from the sea, from your tears, orfrom your sweat."
Yep, as Auties we are often so sensitive to others. I think that is why I sometimes need to be so focused, so that I don't pick up what others are feeling and their energies. It's simply too overwhelming for me.
Ginger

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@gingerw Volunteer Mentor, I will carry a big purse with lots of tissues safely tucked inside.

And a small bag of Doritos, his favorite junksnack. This child. He does not drink soda, or juice, and I can count on one hand the times in his life that he has had a cookie.

But he shall have his beloved Doritos after Graduation, followed by whatever he wants to do! I am so grateful for all the teachers and special people who worked with him and gave him the support he needed to be successful.

I am Autistic. I am already a bit anxious about leaving my home for this great adventure. But I will grit my teeth, keep my chin up, and focus on my destination: My precious Grandbabies.

I don't like change. I like my routines. I like my "stuff" and it has to be in a certain order. A specific place.

But I love my kiddos way more than any routine. So I will take my Magnesium with me, Drink my water with electrolytes. Practice mindfulness. And keep things simple.

I will be checking in on you all quite frequently. Don't have too much fun while I'm gone!

Love and light, my friend….

Mamacita

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@gingerw Volunteer Mentor, I will carry a big purse with lots of tissues safely tucked inside.

And a small bag of Doritos, his favorite junksnack. This child. He does not drink soda, or juice, and I can count on one hand the times in his life that he has had a cookie.

But he shall have his beloved Doritos after Graduation, followed by whatever he wants to do! I am so grateful for all the teachers and special people who worked with him and gave him the support he needed to be successful.

I am Autistic. I am already a bit anxious about leaving my home for this great adventure. But I will grit my teeth, keep my chin up, and focus on my destination: My precious Grandbabies.

I don't like change. I like my routines. I like my "stuff" and it has to be in a certain order. A specific place.

But I love my kiddos way more than any routine. So I will take my Magnesium with me, Drink my water with electrolytes. Practice mindfulness. And keep things simple.

I will be checking in on you all quite frequently. Don't have too much fun while I'm gone!

Love and light, my friend….

Mamacita

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@mamacita What fun, a Kindergarten graduation! I'm looking forward to hearing all about it!

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