People's Opinions On Zoloft?

Posted by EdCork @yangedd, Nov 27, 2018

Hey,

Is anyone on Zoloft here? I was with my Psychiatrist two weeks ago (Diagnosis of BPD, Depression and GAD) and we were discussing my severe anxiety and panic attacks and she prescribed Zoloft. I'm sure the dose was 50mg to be increased this week, but my mind seriously couldn't handle this drug. I had violent thoughts, I felt completely out of touch with my body, I walked out of a store and left my coat, hat and gloves there and even lit a cigarette in the middle of the post office (No exaggeration). It was like I was acting without even thinking and only realizing minutes later. After four days I had to stop because I couldn't function properly and went to my GP and told her. She immediately stopped the medication and left notes on her PC for my Psychiatrist when I see her this day next week. Has anyone ever experienced side effects to this level on Zoloft before?

Thanks guys,
Ed

@colleenyoung

Hi @am3, I'm glad that you found an outlet to talk here on Mayo Clinic Connect. I can imagine that it is very hard when people close to you don't understand. I think it can be hard for adults to understand when a 13 year old has dark thoughts, is cutting or has suicidal thoughts. Adults think "Why? You have your whole life in front of you." or "You'll grow out of it." But, I bet that's not the way you feel.

I'm going to ask you to stay in touch. If you feel like hurting yourself or just wish you could cry but can't, there is help. In addition to talking to us here, you might think about chatting with an online counselor here:
– Lifeline Chat https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/
Lifeline Chat is a service of the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, that will connect you with a counselor for emotional support and other services via web chat. All chat centers in the Lifeline network are accredited by CONTACT USA. Lifeline Chat is available 24/7 across the U.S. You don't need your phone. You can chat on your computer.

I think people here like @ineedhope @ayeshasharma @georgette12 and @parus as well as @guener can also share some thoughts with you and their experiences.

@am3, can you share more about what your parents don't understand? What would you like your mom to understand? What isn't she getting?

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Well my dad is in jail and anytime he calls it's like he doesn't listen. I have always been on my dad's side, then I realized that he is so addicted to drugs that they are his priority and I am not. My mom has been sober for quite a while now but nobody in this house listens to me. Nobody is gonna understand because they aren't me. I get that, but I just want my parents, to be parent, at least listen to me when I'm asking you for help.

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@helenfrances

Am3
Many ministers, priests and rabbis are trained in counseling.. or know someone who will listen to you and help you….
It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help. You can do it.

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My mom doesn't really allow me to do anything without running it by her and she just thinks i'm fine. My "counselor" does not engage into conversation. I'm honestly just waiting till i'm 18.

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@zep

@am3 Dear "troubled kid", you have come to the right place. I am fairly new here, but right away felt better for having these kind, and knowledgeable, people to talk to. They will not give up on you, so don't you give up. You sound very intelligent, and focused on solving your own problems with this med, and with all the other stuff, too. That you can still be that focused in spite of having to take increasing doses of a med that is obviously not right for you, is a sign of your inner strength.

I don't know what the answer is for you with a mom who doesn't seem to be listening, that is a huge problem. Maybe you could show her some of the letters on this forum from other people who have had extreme problems with Zoloft, so that she could begin to understand that the problem lies with the prescription, not with you. People sometimes have to go through drug after drug before a good match is found. I did. And things got much better because of it. Different bodies respond in wildly differing ways to almost any psychiatric drug there is. It is a process of trial and error, and most doctors understand that.

In the meantime, hang on to hope, and don't give up. I wish I could put my arm around your shoulder, and give you a squeeze, you good kid. Keep on communicating, and you will find the help you need and deserve. With love and confidence in you, Zep

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I appreciate all of you amazing people. Honestly, I don't want to take meds. I'm not meaning it as a bad thing towards other people I just don't want medicine to define me. I feel so different and confused. I hate when I kind of lash out, or if I seem off, and they ask, "Have you taken your meds today?" Last night my mom asked me, "Why are you like this?" I said, "Like what?" She said, "You act like life is a game."
People tell me that I can't be happy unless I want to be. That's the thing though. When I was 9, I was sent to live with grandparents and before that, I honestly don't remember much. I know it sounds crazy but I was told I had PTSD back then and I would always get these bad dreams that put me in bad places. I remember some things, vaguely but everything I remember is bad. I just don't know who I am when I'm happy. I much rather rely on friends, then family. I just feel like friends get me better. I feel okay when I'm with friends. I'm just not sure if happy is right for me. I don't wanna be miserable but I don't wanna be drugged up, especially since my parents were addicts, I just don't wanna rely on something to make me numb. Due to this Covid-19 stuff and being grounded off of my phone, The only thing that keeps me from going insane is my room, and sleep. I can't seem to sleep at night. That's when my thoughts get horrible. During the day is when I sleep and wait for a reasonable time to nap, till I'm up at 11, and can't sleep till 6 in the morning. I'm recently going through a break up and I feel like I'm going to explode. I can't cry and let it out. Instead, what do I do? I think. I overthink. Thank you o much for listening to me. It helps.

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@am3 Im so sorry you are going through all this having to shoulder it all by yourself . Like so many people said is there someone you can talk to a good friends Mom maybe What about your Grandmother is it possible for you to go to her for awhile maybe to live for awhile Your so young to go through all this . Have you seen a Dr? maybe he/she could help you even if it is only to talk . I dont think they will make you take any meds unless you want to . Maybe they can suggest someone to talk to . Keep us posted we all do care .

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I don't really have any trustworthy people. I'm just waiting until I have a chance to speak up to the doctor and let him know how it effects me. Thanks a lot <3

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@am3

I don't really have any trustworthy people. I'm just waiting until I have a chance to speak up to the doctor and let him know how it effects me. Thanks a lot <3

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@am3 you have written quite a bit today. If you have access to a printer why don't you print out what people have said to you along with what you have been saying? I think that if you kept a journal of some sort, detailing how you feel and how the medications make you feel, this would be very useful for the doctor to see. And later, when you are feeling well, when you review this you'll see how the struggle you have every day has been eased by help that you were able to get. How does that sound to you? Please know that we are all pulling for you and we know how much strength it took for you to reach out. I'm so glad you did! Just knowing you reached proved to yourself that you are "A great kid"! Does your school computer have any info on how to reach for help from a trusted teacher at school? We care
Ginger

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A journal sounds great. The thing about reaching out to people at school is everything goes to my school counselor. Whenever she realizes that I'm not getting better she suggests the psych ward and I do not wanna go back there. People just think to do the easy thing. "send her away for a week, so we don't have to deal with it." It's complicated. Thank you so much.
~Amiah~

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@am3

Well my dad is in jail and anytime he calls it's like he doesn't listen. I have always been on my dad's side, then I realized that he is so addicted to drugs that they are his priority and I am not. My mom has been sober for quite a while now but nobody in this house listens to me. Nobody is gonna understand because they aren't me. I get that, but I just want my parents, to be parent, at least listen to me when I'm asking you for help.

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for Teens with Alcoholic parents – there is an group specific for kids dealing with that and I went to college with a guy praising how much they help him. Please check church or your resources within government offices for help with kids with parents dealing with that. You seemed to have a good head on your shoulders- that is so awesome . We are listening to you. And will continue as long as you need us. But you need this also- a group of teens dealing with specific issues of parents who use – drugs and alcohol or just drugs. . Again we are here for you
Please do a journal- of writing or drawing – get it out there
Take care.

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Hi Amiah, As you can see, there are a lot of people in this forum who care. The message board will go quieter in a few hours as people turn in for the night from the east coast to the west coast. You mentioned that you often stay awake during the night hours and that's when your thoughts get horrible. If that happens, remember the 24/7 Lifeline Chat https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/

Use it if you need it. There's always someone there to text or talk with you.

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@colleenyoung

Hi Amiah, As you can see, there are a lot of people in this forum who care. The message board will go quieter in a few hours as people turn in for the night from the east coast to the west coast. You mentioned that you often stay awake during the night hours and that's when your thoughts get horrible. If that happens, remember the 24/7 Lifeline Chat https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/

Use it if you need it. There's always someone there to text or talk with you.

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Yes: We are thinking of you, Amish.
You are not only in our thoughts… you are in our prayers.
Keep in touch with us.
We know that you will be strong.
Strong 💪 people also know when to get help.
Helen

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@am3

So I'm on Zoloft at 13. I was in a hospital for about a week for my cutting addiction and suicidal thoughts. I started at 25mg. I noticed my eyes were glossy and my pupils were huge. When I got out of the hospital, I couldn't cry. It's like I lost myself. Then I got put on 50mg. I couldn't focus on anything. My grades got bad. I fell apart and I just didn't care about anything. Fast forward to now, I'm on 100mg. I try to explain to my mom that I don't want to be on this. I can't cry when I need to. I feel more violent. Like enjoying it when people die in shows and movies. I feel the need to isolate myself. I'm always tired. I can't sleep though. I don't go to bed till 3-6 every morning. I don't like to wake up in the mornings. I kinda just wanna dream. The only time I feel okay is when i'm by myself in my room, Sometimes I just feel numb. I get really sad because of my thoughts but it's like in my mind and my body won't process it. I get really dizzy. I start seeing black. I can't even have fun anymore. I don't like to go in public because I don't like people looking at me or seeing anyone I know. I couldn't get up for school. When I got home from school, I slept for hours till I got woke up. I just wanna be normal. Instead I'm out here not caring about anything and feeling way too numb.

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@am3 Oh my poor dear! What does your psychiatrist say? Me, not being a doctor I would say you need to get off of Zoloft and try a different med. My daughter has trouble falling asleep too. I wish I could help you, reach out and give you a hug. Oh, that's right Covid-19. we can't hug. How about a pretend hug?
Anyway, your mom needs to wake up and see it's not working and listen to you. She doesn't know how you feel. Let me know how you are and I hope you get better. Blessings to you.

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@lilypaws

@am3 Oh my poor dear! What does your psychiatrist say? Me, not being a doctor I would say you need to get off of Zoloft and try a different med. My daughter has trouble falling asleep too. I wish I could help you, reach out and give you a hug. Oh, that's right Covid-19. we can't hug. How about a pretend hug?
Anyway, your mom needs to wake up and see it's not working and listen to you. She doesn't know how you feel. Let me know how you are and I hope you get better. Blessings to you.

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@lilypaws I don't really have a psychiatrist… I only had one in the hospital and he never really had the time to actually "talk" to us. My doctor manages my meds. I appreciate you. You are so sweet. Thank you so much!!

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