People's Opinions On Zoloft?

Posted by EdCork @yangedd, Nov 27, 2018

Hey,

Is anyone on Zoloft here? I was with my Psychiatrist two weeks ago (Diagnosis of BPD, Depression and GAD) and we were discussing my severe anxiety and panic attacks and she prescribed Zoloft. I'm sure the dose was 50mg to be increased this week, but my mind seriously couldn't handle this drug. I had violent thoughts, I felt completely out of touch with my body, I walked out of a store and left my coat, hat and gloves there and even lit a cigarette in the middle of the post office (No exaggeration). It was like I was acting without even thinking and only realizing minutes later. After four days I had to stop because I couldn't function properly and went to my GP and told her. She immediately stopped the medication and left notes on her PC for my Psychiatrist when I see her this day next week. Has anyone ever experienced side effects to this level on Zoloft before?

Thanks guys,
Ed

@am3

So I'm on Zoloft at 13. I was in a hospital for about a week for my cutting addiction and suicidal thoughts. I started at 25mg. I noticed my eyes were glossy and my pupils were huge. When I got out of the hospital, I couldn't cry. It's like I lost myself. Then I got put on 50mg. I couldn't focus on anything. My grades got bad. I fell apart and I just didn't care about anything. Fast forward to now, I'm on 100mg. I try to explain to my mom that I don't want to be on this. I can't cry when I need to. I feel more violent. Like enjoying it when people die in shows and movies. I feel the need to isolate myself. I'm always tired. I can't sleep though. I don't go to bed till 3-6 every morning. I don't like to wake up in the mornings. I kinda just wanna dream. The only time I feel okay is when i'm by myself in my room, Sometimes I just feel numb. I get really sad because of my thoughts but it's like in my mind and my body won't process it. I get really dizzy. I start seeing black. I can't even have fun anymore. I don't like to go in public because I don't like people looking at me or seeing anyone I know. I couldn't get up for school. When I got home from school, I slept for hours till I got woke up. I just wanna be normal. Instead I'm out here not caring about anything and feeling way too numb.

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@am3, I had to discontinue to Zoloft years ago when I was temporarily put on anti-depressants, because it was making me feel robotic. But my experience is less important to describe than it is for you to be able to communicate with your mother that you are not doing well and need to be seen by a/your psychiatrist for further evaluation, because it sounds like you have been taking the Zoloft for a while now and are experiencing no relief but significant and debilitating for you side-effects. If you are experiencing thoughts of self-harm, that's even more important to be seen, but I think you understand that, too. It's sometimes hard to get parents to listen to us, because they trust in medical advise over our own feelings, I know, but you need to have that conversation again in a calm way.

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I went on Zoloft for two months. I felt MORE anxious and suicidal……went to the Psych ward for 72 hrs. NEVER AGAIN WITH SSRI’s.

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@am3

So I'm on Zoloft at 13. I was in a hospital for about a week for my cutting addiction and suicidal thoughts. I started at 25mg. I noticed my eyes were glossy and my pupils were huge. When I got out of the hospital, I couldn't cry. It's like I lost myself. Then I got put on 50mg. I couldn't focus on anything. My grades got bad. I fell apart and I just didn't care about anything. Fast forward to now, I'm on 100mg. I try to explain to my mom that I don't want to be on this. I can't cry when I need to. I feel more violent. Like enjoying it when people die in shows and movies. I feel the need to isolate myself. I'm always tired. I can't sleep though. I don't go to bed till 3-6 every morning. I don't like to wake up in the mornings. I kinda just wanna dream. The only time I feel okay is when i'm by myself in my room, Sometimes I just feel numb. I get really sad because of my thoughts but it's like in my mind and my body won't process it. I get really dizzy. I start seeing black. I can't even have fun anymore. I don't like to go in public because I don't like people looking at me or seeing anyone I know. I couldn't get up for school. When I got home from school, I slept for hours till I got woke up. I just wanna be normal. Instead I'm out here not caring about anything and feeling way too numb.

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Please, please go to an emergency room and tell them what you just wrote and ask them to help you! You need help! This will take time too, months for your body to heal, there will be some bad times, but it will end and your life will be normal!!!

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@jh31251

Please, please go to an emergency room and tell them what you just wrote and ask them to help you! You need help! This will take time too, months for your body to heal, there will be some bad times, but it will end and your life will be normal!!!

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It's kinda impossible. I'm 13. Nobody listens to me. Trust me I have tried several times to tell my therapist, my doctor, my mother, and others that I wanna be taken off this stuff. People continue to laugh in my face because they think that "I'm fine."

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@am3

It's kinda impossible. I'm 13. Nobody listens to me. Trust me I have tried several times to tell my therapist, my doctor, my mother, and others that I wanna be taken off this stuff. People continue to laugh in my face because they think that "I'm fine."

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@am3, It is very distressing to me that you are finding nobody who will listen to you. Do you have a trusted adult family member, an aunt or uncle, who might be willing to help you get your voice heard? Have you considered approaching your school nurse, counselor or the principal to reach out?

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@guener, I don't really have any family that would listen. I'm known as a troubled kid. How I feel does not matter to them and school has been cancelled for the year due to Covid-19. Nobody can really help me and I'm becoming hopeless once more. I had no option but to take the medicine and I have once more talked to my mother about an hour ago saying how I feel about it. She, as expected, did not seem to understand. I am not going to give up though. I'm on my school computer and have not really been able to contact many people because my phone being gone. I had gotten in trouble and have not really had much contact with the outside world. Once I get my phone back I may be able to talk to my grandmother and that is it. If she hasn't given up on me like other family members.

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@am3

@guener, I don't really have any family that would listen. I'm known as a troubled kid. How I feel does not matter to them and school has been cancelled for the year due to Covid-19. Nobody can really help me and I'm becoming hopeless once more. I had no option but to take the medicine and I have once more talked to my mother about an hour ago saying how I feel about it. She, as expected, did not seem to understand. I am not going to give up though. I'm on my school computer and have not really been able to contact many people because my phone being gone. I had gotten in trouble and have not really had much contact with the outside world. Once I get my phone back I may be able to talk to my grandmother and that is it. If she hasn't given up on me like other family members.

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Hi @am3, I'm glad that you found an outlet to talk here on Mayo Clinic Connect. I can imagine that it is very hard when people close to you don't understand. I think it can be hard for adults to understand when a 13 year old has dark thoughts, is cutting or has suicidal thoughts. Adults think "Why? You have your whole life in front of you." or "You'll grow out of it." But, I bet that's not the way you feel.

I'm going to ask you to stay in touch. If you feel like hurting yourself or just wish you could cry but can't, there is help. In addition to talking to us here, you might think about chatting with an online counselor here:
– Lifeline Chat https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/
Lifeline Chat is a service of the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, that will connect you with a counselor for emotional support and other services via web chat. All chat centers in the Lifeline network are accredited by CONTACT USA. Lifeline Chat is available 24/7 across the U.S. You don't need your phone. You can chat on your computer.

I think people here like @ineedhope @ayeshasharma @georgette12 and @parus as well as @guener can also share some thoughts with you and their experiences.

@am3, can you share more about what your parents don't understand? What would you like your mom to understand? What isn't she getting?

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@am3, it is difficult being labeled by others when we all have our own problems in life. You come across as quite intelligent and are doing the right things as best as you can. I think talking with your grandmother would be a good idea when you are able to do so. In the mean time, how are you handling coping with your isolation and feelings during this time? Are there online support groups, like this one, that you are able to turn to to express your thoughts with persons in your peer group? The added stress of being stuck at home is something we are all dealing with, and I am hoping that you are finding the resources you need to be able to share and to receive the best possible feedback possible. For what it's worth, I was considered an oddball kid when I was your age, and I think that was very difficult for me to accept as a judgment from others, when I was just anxious and hurting all the time. Coming here for information shows a degree of maturity in you that is to be complimented.

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@am3

It's kinda impossible. I'm 13. Nobody listens to me. Trust me I have tried several times to tell my therapist, my doctor, my mother, and others that I wanna be taken off this stuff. People continue to laugh in my face because they think that "I'm fine."

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Do you have a school counselor, school nurse or teacher that you trust? Please tell them. I agree with Guener…
someone at school will help you… and you will not be the first to ask for their help. They are there for you. You can trust them. They are trained to help you.

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@am3

@guener, I don't really have any family that would listen. I'm known as a troubled kid. How I feel does not matter to them and school has been cancelled for the year due to Covid-19. Nobody can really help me and I'm becoming hopeless once more. I had no option but to take the medicine and I have once more talked to my mother about an hour ago saying how I feel about it. She, as expected, did not seem to understand. I am not going to give up though. I'm on my school computer and have not really been able to contact many people because my phone being gone. I had gotten in trouble and have not really had much contact with the outside world. Once I get my phone back I may be able to talk to my grandmother and that is it. If she hasn't given up on me like other family members.

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@am3 Dear "troubled kid", you have come to the right place. I am fairly new here, but right away felt better for having these kind, and knowledgeable, people to talk to. They will not give up on you, so don't you give up. You sound very intelligent, and focused on solving your own problems with this med, and with all the other stuff, too. That you can still be that focused in spite of having to take increasing doses of a med that is obviously not right for you, is a sign of your inner strength.

I don't know what the answer is for you with a mom who doesn't seem to be listening, that is a huge problem. Maybe you could show her some of the letters on this forum from other people who have had extreme problems with Zoloft, so that she could begin to understand that the problem lies with the prescription, not with you. People sometimes have to go through drug after drug before a good match is found. I did. And things got much better because of it. Different bodies respond in wildly differing ways to almost any psychiatric drug there is. It is a process of trial and error, and most doctors understand that.

In the meantime, hang on to hope, and don't give up. I wish I could put my arm around your shoulder, and give you a squeeze, you good kid. Keep on communicating, and you will find the help you need and deserve. With love and confidence in you, Zep

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@helenfrances

Do you have a school counselor, school nurse or teacher that you trust? Please tell them. I agree with Guener…
someone at school will help you… and you will not be the first to ask for their help. They are there for you. You can trust them. They are trained to help you.

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If you do not have a trusted teacher’s phone number, is there a trusted priest or minister who can help you.

You do not need to be a member of their church. I knew a minister who was trained in counseling. He helped me! They will not tell anyone that you called them or saw them.

Please talk to a teacher, a minister… your town may have a counselor.
Let us know. We are waiting to hear from you.

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@am3

@guener, I don't really have any family that would listen. I'm known as a troubled kid. How I feel does not matter to them and school has been cancelled for the year due to Covid-19. Nobody can really help me and I'm becoming hopeless once more. I had no option but to take the medicine and I have once more talked to my mother about an hour ago saying how I feel about it. She, as expected, did not seem to understand. I am not going to give up though. I'm on my school computer and have not really been able to contact many people because my phone being gone. I had gotten in trouble and have not really had much contact with the outside world. Once I get my phone back I may be able to talk to my grandmother and that is it. If she hasn't given up on me like other family members.

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Am3
Many ministers, priests and rabbis are trained in counseling.. or know someone who will listen to you and help you….
It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help. You can do it.

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