Long-term depression

Posted by seeker70 @seeker70, Oct 11, 2017

I have been depressed, when I think about it, since I was a kid (I”m a senior now!) I have been treated off and on with meds and minimal talk therapy, but nothing changes. In the past it has been underlying but as I grow older it is becoming more intense. People ask: ‘why are you depressed? I never get depressed, just get a better attitude’. Or they don’t hear my (probably passive-aggressive) cries for help. Or they say: ‘what do you have to be depressed about?’ Actually although I agree with these opinions to a certain extent, it does not address the problem that depression is not a ‘why’, not is it a ‘choice’. It’s almost like being gay, you just are. Maybe I should just accept it (guess that’s what I have done for decades 🙂 But I don’t want to. I want to feel better now. Earlier in my life I was able to enjoy things, although the depression would keep popping out. But now I seem to have trouble enjoying anything, including my own family, and it’s harder and harder to ‘push depression down’ once it’s popped. So I have longer periods of depression and sadness and sleeplessness and lonliness, an shorter periods of being able to enjoy my life. Or want something. Or look forward to anything. I will say too that I have as much to be happy about as I do to be unhappy – but as I said, it’s not a ‘why’. I’m looking for people to explore this idea, and to help each other begin to overcome. Or maybe it’s just me and there’s no one else who feels this way — 😉 Thank you for reading all this.

@lisalucier

Hi, @ainsleigh — I've merged your post on brain stimulation for depression for those who do not respond to medication here, as many members have been talking about long-term depression in this discussion.

Are you looking into pursuing some form of brain stimulation therapy?

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Hi Lisa
No-I am fine on my medication but I like to share info. that I read about in the paper in case it may be helpful to somebody else.
( I am interested in the medical field).
Ainsleigh

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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Thank you, my prayers are with you too dianajane.

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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Thank you for your kind words.

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@anniegk

You are not alone seeker. I am going through the same feelings you are plus Amxiety/Panic. I am also a senior that just wants to live peacefully and enjoy my husband, daughter and grandaughter before it's too late. Are you on medication?

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Yes. Just to live peacefully one day at a time. Thats all I desire as well. My wish for you, too.

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@anniegk

You are not alone seeker. I am going through the same feelings you are plus Amxiety/Panic. I am also a senior that just wants to live peacefully and enjoy my husband, daughter and grandaughter before it's too late. Are you on medication?

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always

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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Thank you LoveToAll. I think it is feeling like I am all alone. You began to think you are the only one that has this. You look around at all the other people…they are living, laughing going on with life. You want so bad to be (normal) ???. Yes, the worst thing is feeling alone and that you arn't enjoying life like you should.

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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Hi Annie! You are certainly not alone, and that is why I am glad you are here with us. Many of us have "been there and done that." I have had a long period of feeling pretty much alone, as 1) we live out in the country with no neighbors, 2) I travel 45 minutes one way to work in another town, 3) we go to church in yet another town, as my family is involved with the praise band there, 4) my only sister lives 1200 miles away and we do not see each other often. I have become a stranger in my home community, with not much time to create/maintain new ties. I'm feeling pretty much like a robot, and there are times when I have shed tears all the way home from work in the afternoons. While my husband is a good musician, he is not a social person, so I cannot rely on him to create relationships we both can tap into. My fur babies save me! I know I am missing so much. Soon I will retire and, hopefully, I will find some roads into new groups/activities. So I FULLY UNDERSTAND how you feel. I'm TOUGH, by golly, and I will not give up. Guess what? I have a big, red, stuffed Love Frog that rides to/from work with me! It has been nice to be able to touch something warm and fuzzy on those days I was shedding tears! No, I'm not crazy; just creative! lol When all else fails….. Know that I care about you and will be looking forward to hearing how you approach all of this. I know you will be successful, whatever you have to do! God bless you!

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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You’re definitely not alone. I wish we all lived near each other and could meet to support one another. Having this forum is a wonderful tool though. I find myself jealous of even my adult children who seem to have it all together and how they are living so carefree. Of course I’m very happy, proud and supportive of them but I often sit and think will I get back to that life? Still struggling today with the Lexapro withdrawal and the Cymbalta addition. Also still sick so it’s not been my best week. I will say my head seems more alert, perhaps clearer so maybe that means the Lexapro is on its way out! All we all really want is to be at peace, to smile, to want to join in. It’s not too much to ask for. We simply have to keep trying to find what works for us. I pray that each of you will find yours soon.

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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Well said @kdo0827. Do you mind if i ask if you are a senior.

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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And you, as well, @kdo0827 ! And yes, wouldn't we be a productive group?! I hope you truly are moving toward better times, and I hope you will keep us posted. God bless you!

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It's been some time since I've entered into discussion with my family (all of you). I've suffered from mental illness (Bi-Polar 1) for 60 years, and I self-medicated for 22 years (wouldn't take medicine prescribed by Doctors because I didn't like how I was feeling, and I couldn't drink alcohol because of
the interactions), and I became an alcoholic. I found my way into AA and this was the start on a path to wellness. Of course my thinking was warped,
and I thought that alcohol was my only problem. I forgot about having other mental illnesses. It took me another 20+ years to finally seek help for my
Bi-Polar 1/Anxiety/Border Line Personality. I've learned that I'm not capable of doctoring myself and to listen to the educated therapists and Doctors.
Last year, I realized that I was depressed and it was so different from past experiences I wasn't aware of what was affecting my feelings. My Doctor
changed my medication from Zoloft to Cymbalta and during the phase out of Zoloft and replacement with Cymbala, I suffered a psychotic episode and
was admitted to a psych ward for 8 days. This was the best experience in my life…….I finally accepted my mental illnesses, and I realized that all of us
have similar empathetic feelings towards each other, but we all have a different and individual story which makes us a living miracle. I feel like acceptance was a major break through for recovery and positive growth. I pray for all of you to be relieved of your depression and painful feelings.
Charlie75

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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Thank you for your kind words. LoveToAll. I have such a fear of drugs. I am realizing that I might be on medication for the remainder of my life. This scares me so much.

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@farmor

Have you tied CBD oil?

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dianajane I also wake up with anxiet. I would love to wake up all relaxed like I use to.

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It’s good to see you back! I’m so sorry for all you’ve gone through in life. It makes us wonder sometimes why we are given the curveballs that we get. I know that even with my strong faith I still sometimes question but then I’ve learned to ask myself why not me? Now that’s a tough one! It sounds like you’ve certainly come to a good place and for that I’m glad for you.

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@lovetoall

Dearest Annie, I am so sorry you spend your time in fear. Please make sure you share all of those feelings with your doctor, and make a point of asking him about the meds and their consequences. If you can, you may wish to talk with a psychological counselor other than your physician, in order to get a different perspective and some helpful tips. This is another reason depression is so difficult when it strikes us as Seniors — it is easy for us to believe there will be no end. But do not accept that! If you attend church, spend some time with your pastor and let him help you gain some positive thoughts. If you do not attend church, get a friend or relative to introduce you to a good pastor they know. Find a hobby where you are making or designing something. One thing this will do is perk you up when you have done a good job and you are proud of the outcome. It also keeps your mind occupied and productive. I hope there is someone close to you who can listen to your circumstances and provide support. If not, look for someone — befriend a neighbor, find a group to join, do some pleasing volunteer work if you are able. You need a distraction, so that you will not dwell on your fears. You have taken a good step by writing your thoughts here, and I hope you will continue. Please know that, although we are not acquainted, I care about you. I want you to be content for the rest of your life! God bless you always.

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I am 54. I am a stay at home grandma on disability. I’m married to my high school sweetie for 35 years and have 2 daughters, 2 granddaughters and an infant grandson. I take care of my mom who has dementia as well. I want so badly to get out of this depression and enjoy life.

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