I was recently diagnosed with PICS. I have been struggling for years after a long ICU stay where I was on a vent. I am seeing a therapists but getting frustrated with diaphragmatic breathing. I don’t see that it is helping me. The only thing that helps right now is having my dog with me. In my mind, though I know it’s not rational, I was held against my will in a facility that experimented on people and tortured me. My family stood by and couldn’t see what was happening to me. The doctors would look at me with an evil laugh when my family wasn’t looking. Would it help, since I have a science degree in veterinary technology, if I obtained my medical records from the hospital so I could get a clearer picture of what my hospital stay entailed?