Lifelong Struggle with Depression, Feeling Lonely with It

Hi Roxie,
Nice to see a response in my mail. I still feel pretty despondent, although not so desparately STRANGLED by it. Just chugging along in the quiet dullness, waiting for heaven knows what. No matter what EFFORT I put forward, it makes no difference. I am still hollow & dark inside. I go through the motions even though everything seems so meaningless. Even the beautiful & the loving makes me weep~!!!
Gosh, I sure hope things are brighter for you!! (& me maybe someday, "somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue & dreams really do come true").
Love y'all for putting up with me.
Xin

Hi xin. Sorry that your still going through the downs more than ups. Stay positive and stay strong. Things will get better for you you just have to believe that they will and also in yourself. I have always been a beleiver in following our dreams, and your never know one of yours may come true soon for you. Take care my dear friend
Here if you need me anytime Love back to you too Piglit

Piglit, my dear!
Thank you for hearing & LISTENING! Your kind thoughts & wishes are appreciated ~ nay TREASURED. It is a beautuful,warm (at last looks like spring) day. That helps. Got to get out the barbecue & make burnt offerings to the sun god. Summer & sunshine is always a better time for all of us don't you think? I am here for you too sweetie. Here's to the GOOD TIMES!!!
Hugs
Xin

Hi Xin. thanks for your kind words. I have just returned to work and am struggling a bit, and it so helps to know that your are here for me as I am for you. Hope you enjoyed the barbeque one of my favourite things. Take care Big Hugs Back x0 Piglit

Hey everyone..ive been suffering depression for about 4 years now i also have insomnia, parasomnia, ADHD, and im just overall mentally unstable. ive tried comitting suicide twice, once from ODing and once walking in front of a car at abourlt 50mph. obviously both were failures. i also think im a compulsive liar, and also have serious trust issues, which sucks in relationships as u could imagine. i cut myself about 4 times a week. i waver between anorexia and bulimia, right now im bulimic. i smoke cigarettes and i might be an alcoholic. practically nobody knows about any of this, my whole family thinks im the perfect child, and expectations have always been high, im first born. all of this is hiding behind a fake smile 24/7 which i guess isnt good for me but im so used to it, it doesnt seem to matter anymore. so thats my story. please respond (; oh yeah and im 14 years old.

Hi Belle 23. Welcome my dear. You have got alot going on at 14years my sweet. May I ask the reason for your depression. If not that's fine we'll just talk if you feel more comfortable. My name is Piglit and I'm 54years old. I have suffered anxiety from a very young age and depression a little later in my life. You are so young and have the rest of your life in front of you my dear. You need to adress the things that are worrying you to cause you to have the issues of suicide thoughts, buliminia, the drinking. cutting yourself , smoking etc. You know that none of us are perfect in this life and we are all faced with different situations that can cause upset within ourselves. But it doesn't mean that we can't talk and get help with things. Your not crazy my dear I worked for many years with children, with OCD, ADHD, dyslexia, asphergers just to name a few. A condition doesn't label you are your own person as we all are. You have many interests, and you need to rely on the ones that make you feel good, happy within yourself. It would be good as you have mentioned that you haven't made an appoinment with Mayo as yet to do so. Alll of us here me included have spoken to someone for guidance in our lives. That's what helps have to gain strength and also gives us knowledge to learn about the things that are troubling us. Anyway my sweet I am here if you need to talk and have someone to listen, Take care my dear Piglit

Are you ok? A little worried about you.
Rox

Ur not alone in this battle.

I struggle with the same Xin. What's refreshing is that we now have each other ...
Hugs

you both have me too xo