Lifelong Struggle with Depression, Feeling Lonely with It

Posted by Xin @xin, Mar 30, 2012

Just want to talk with others who have had a lif long struggle with depression. Feeling quite lonely with it. I know others who seem to have overcome it completely. I have certainly had some good times but also countless recurrences. Very discouraging!
Xin

@belle23

Hey everyone..ive been suffering depression for about 4 years now i also have insomnia, parasomnia, ADHD, and im just overall mentally unstable. ive tried comitting suicide twice, once from ODing and once walking in front of a car at abourlt 50mph. obviously both were failures. i also think im a compulsive liar, and also have serious trust issues, which sucks in relationships as u could imagine. i cut myself about 4 times a week. i waver between anorexia and bulimia, right now im bulimic. i smoke cigarettes and i might be an alcoholic. practically nobody knows about any of this, my whole family thinks im the perfect child, and expectations have always been high, im first born. all of this is hiding behind a fake smile 24/7 which i guess isnt good for me but im so used to it, it doesnt seem to matter anymore. so thats my story. please respond (; oh yeah and im 14 years old.

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Hi Belle 23. Welcome my dear. You have got alot going on at 14years my sweet. May I ask the reason for your depression. If not that’s fine we’ll just talk if you feel more comfortable. My name is Piglit and I’m 54years old. I have suffered anxiety from a very young age and depression a little later in my life. You are so young and have the rest of your life in front of you my dear. You need to adress the things that are worrying you to cause you to have the issues of suicide thoughts, buliminia, the drinking. cutting yourself , smoking etc. You know that none of us are perfect in this life and we are all faced with different situations that can cause upset within ourselves. But it doesn’t mean that we can’t talk and get help with things. Your not crazy my dear I worked for many years with children, with OCD, ADHD, dyslexia, asphergers just to name a few. A condition doesn’t label you are your own person as we all are. You have many interests, and you need to rely on the ones that make you feel good, happy within yourself. It would be good as you have mentioned that you haven’t made an appoinment with Mayo as yet to do so. Alll of us here me included have spoken to someone for guidance in our lives. That’s what helps have to gain strength and also gives us knowledge to learn about the things that are troubling us. Anyway my sweet I am here if you need to talk and have someone to listen, Take care my dear Piglit

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Are you ok? A little worried about you.
Rox

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Ur not alone in this battle.

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I struggle with the same Xin. What’s refreshing is that we now have each other …
Hugs

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@roxie43

I struggle with the same Xin. What’s refreshing is that we now have each other …
Hugs

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you both have me too xo

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hi how r u. ur not alone at all

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Belle.
I sure hope that you are getting some help. I think that I was much like you at that age. I am 67 now & have been through much pain. Howeve I have had wonderful times too. Sorry to admit that I still have a problem with depression. Don’t give up though because “I could have missed the pain, but I’d have missed the dance.” . . Garth Brooks song.
Hugs for you
Xin

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@xin

Belle.
I sure hope that you are getting some help. I think that I was much like you at that age. I am 67 now & have been through much pain. Howeve I have had wonderful times too. Sorry to admit that I still have a problem with depression. Don’t give up though because “I could have missed the pain, but I’d have missed the dance.” . . Garth Brooks song.
Hugs for you
Xin

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Hi xin How are things going Piglit

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@xin

Belle.
I sure hope that you are getting some help. I think that I was much like you at that age. I am 67 now & have been through much pain. Howeve I have had wonderful times too. Sorry to admit that I still have a problem with depression. Don’t give up though because “I could have missed the pain, but I’d have missed the dance.” . . Garth Brooks song.
Hugs for you
Xin

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Hi Piglet.
I’m doing pretty good for the last while. It was such a relief to have my daughter’s problems all done with & it wasn’tthe”C” word. She is recovering nicely from the surgery. We celebrated fathers’ day with the whole tribe of us & it was a very happy day.
However, my daughter-in-law is going to have neuro-surgery on Friday to hopefully relieve the pain she has been having for too long now. She has trigemal neuralgia. So I have another worry, although this surgery sounds pretty delicate, her doctor has done a lot of them & is confident of good results. Still brain surgery is scary to me & every surgery has its risks . . . . We pray it turns out well.
How is the world treating you?? Let me know how it is with you. OK?
Love & hugs
Diana

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@xin

Belle.
I sure hope that you are getting some help. I think that I was much like you at that age. I am 67 now & have been through much pain. Howeve I have had wonderful times too. Sorry to admit that I still have a problem with depression. Don’t give up though because “I could have missed the pain, but I’d have missed the dance.” . . Garth Brooks song.
Hugs for you
Xin

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Hi Diana, So glad to hear from you. I have a few more downs lately than ups but I’m strong and will work through it. Hope all goes well with your daughter-in -law will send all my thoughts and prayers for you and your family. Let me know how it goes and I’m here if you need me Take care love and hugs back Annie

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@xin

Belle.
I sure hope that you are getting some help. I think that I was much like you at that age. I am 67 now & have been through much pain. Howeve I have had wonderful times too. Sorry to admit that I still have a problem with depression. Don’t give up though because “I could have missed the pain, but I’d have missed the dance.” . . Garth Brooks song.
Hugs for you
Xin

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Sorry to hear about the downs, but you know, I feel that I can tell that you are strong, just don’t take on too much because you’re strong. It’s OK to say NO & you don’t have to apologize for it either.
Thanks for kind thoughts & prayers are appreciated so much because I know they help. I will let you know how it goes.
Let me know how you make it through this glitch time.
Always here with a caring heart
Diana

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@xin

Belle.
I sure hope that you are getting some help. I think that I was much like you at that age. I am 67 now & have been through much pain. Howeve I have had wonderful times too. Sorry to admit that I still have a problem with depression. Don’t give up though because “I could have missed the pain, but I’d have missed the dance.” . . Garth Brooks song.
Hugs for you
Xin

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How beautiful Xin!

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hi sweetie i hope ur ok

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@china

hi sweetie i hope ur ok

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Hi China! I’m doing quite well – a few bumps in the road but managed not to fall into “the pit”. How are you??
luv
Xin

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Hi I’m new to this site so be patient but I got on here by way of researching the mayo clinics in patient mental health center .. I think I need something other than what my dr has tried for yrs I’m worse now than ever .. has anyone ever tried in patient treatment for depression

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