Yes; this is my question. I am depressed and wonder whether we are meant to be happy or sad. I feel like there are two persons inside me body-one of them would say :"Sure! life is happiness". I hear this answer if I am not experiencing a panic attack. If I experience a panic attack, the other person inside me would say: "The aim of life is nothing but sadness". I am totally exhausted to deal with those two persons! I need the help ASAP! I feel such a black cloud passing above my mind!