@aliali – that is a very interesting question about whether we are meant to be happy, in light of experiencing depression and feeling as though the answer might differ with experiencing a panic attack or not. Feeling a black cloud passing above your mind does indeed sound very difficult.
I'd like to invite @gailb@cdcc@notaround @yangedd @guener@thankful to offer their insights on this question about whether we are meant to be happy or sad, plus any tips they may have on moving the black cloud away from above your mind.
@aliali – you previously mentioned having been put on a new antidepressant. Have you found that this or any anti-anxiety medications you may be taking or have taken in the past help balance those two persons inside your body warring about whether life is meant to be happy or sad?