Your first thought when you read the description is probably, “Oh, it’s just anxiety.” but it’s not. I honestly hope I die, I’m tired of this.
I’m 19, living with my family. I get kidney infections and kidney stones frequently. I had a upper UTI and a 3 mm kidney stone trying to pass a little over a month ago. Skip forward to 2 weeks ago, I started feeling terrible. Constantly severely exhausted, having trouble sleeping even though I’m fatigued, feeling really hot, back pains that radiate from the middle part of my back, to the front of my ribs or to the top part of my butt, feeling sick (nausous, headaches, and malaise). I started getting a lightheaded sensation yesterday.
Went to the doctor a few days ago, they said there was blood (both red and white blood cells) in my urine, sent it off to culture and everything was fine. Then, I went to the ER later on that night because I was having sharp pangs of pain in my flank area and I felt sick. They ran a urine test and blood test, said the urine was contaminated (They found the same thing the doctor did), so they did a catheter to draw the urine and everything came out fine. They said the contaminated urine could’ve possibly been because I still had blood left from my last cycle… which wouldn’t make sense because I’d been off of it for almost 1-2 weeks. They ran no CT to see if it was possibly kidney stones.
They said it was a thoractic something muscular strain. They gave me Toradol and lidocaine patches for my back, and the pain still didn’t subside.
Skip forward to now (a few days later), I’m so exhausted physically that I can’t get out of bed. I try but it’s so painful to move, when I do stand up and move around I’ll feel lightheaded frequently, sometimes I feel like I’m going to pass out, I feel nauseous on and off throughout the day. I’ve basically been bound to my bed since this happened. I have absolutely no energy, yet I still want to do things… I just have no energy and when I do go do stuff (drive to my friends, go do something in the house, etc…) I feel dizzy, lightheaded, or like I’m going to pass out.
It’s a struggle for me to take showers, do daily hygeine, clean, basic teenager things and whatnot because of all of this.
Now when I say, “I hope I die” I don’t mean it in a suicidal / depressed way. I just am tired of feeling like this because it starts when I wake up and keeps going until I eventually am able to sleep… shoot even in my dreams I dream about how sick and dead I feel, so It’s constant.
I honestly feel like I’m dying and I don’t know what else to do.