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Long-term depression
I have been depressed, when I think about it, since I was a kid (I"m a senior now!) I have been treated off and on with meds and minimal talk therapy, but nothing changes. In the past it has been underlying but as I grow older it is becoming more intense. People ask: 'why are you depressed? I never get depressed, just get a better attitude'. Or they don't hear my (probably passive-aggressive) cries for help. Or they say: 'what do you have to be depressed about?' Actually although I agree with these opinions to a certain extent, it does not address the problem that depression is not a 'why', not is it a 'choice'. It's almost like being gay, you just are. Maybe I should just accept it (guess that's what I have done for decades 🙂 But I don't want to. I want to feel better now. Earlier in my life I was able to enjoy things, although the depression would keep popping out. But now I seem to have trouble enjoying anything, including my own family, and it's harder and harder to 'push depression down' once it's popped. So I have longer periods of depression and sadness and sleeplessness and lonliness, an shorter periods of being able to enjoy my life. Or want something. Or look forward to anything. I will say too that I have as much to be happy about as I do to be unhappy - but as I said, it's not a 'why'. I'm looking for people to explore this idea, and to help each other begin to overcome. Or maybe it's just me and there's no one else who feels this way -- 😉 Thank you for reading all this.
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This depression thing is forever lurking. No answers, just deep and dark depression.
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2 ReactionsI feel the same way you do, always have. Feel I was also “born this way.” Exercise does help. Cannot always feel an immediate serotonin boost.
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2 ReactionsHello i totally agree with you. I have same symptoms. Also nothing that i get interested lasts long. I get a feeling of" cant be asked" . When watching telly nothing seems to interest me for very long. Anxious all the time. I feel my whole insides shaking. I hate this condition. I am 62 yesrs old and have been suffering for about 20 years. I get alot of peeps saying the same thing. Pull yourself up. Its just laziness. NONE OF THE ABOVE. Please someone find a solution to depression. But some of the symptoms also resemble chronic fatigue. Good luck.
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3 ReactionsHi, @daddylonglegs -- I am so sorry you are feeling anxious all the time and your insides seem to shake. Feeling like this for about 20 years is a long time.
I'm so sorry that people have told you anything about being lazy and to just pull yourself up. You are right on -- this is a real illness. I'm thinking that @parus, @amberpep @jimhd and @seeker70 would have some thoughts about what people have said to you.
Sounds like you have depression and anxiety? Are you taking any medication for either condition?
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3 ReactionsLong term depression is nothing more than a death sentence. The constant battle is never ending. There are no solutions for some. Reality is all there is for some. DNA cannot be a battle that can be won for some. we all do the best we know how. There is no denying genetics.
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1 ReactionHello @daddylonglegs
I am sorry to hear of your symptoms. It sounds like they must limit your activities and your life. Have you ever been seen by a neurologist? While I'm not a medical professional, I have heard of these symptoms before in relation to neurological diagnoses. Over the past 20 years have you had other symptoms like balance problems, double vision, etc.?
Some of your symptoms, especially the one about nothing holding your interest for very long, can be related to an ADHD diagnosis or another neurological condition. I have found that many folks with Parkinson's have what is called "internal tremors." The PD disorder makes you feel "shaky" on the inside.
A good neurologist might be able to help you sort this out. I have known many people who have been treated for anxiety to later find out that it was a neurological problem. While your problem might be anxiety, it might be helpful to look at other possibilities.
I look forward to hearing from you again.
Teresa
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2 ReactionsMcLean Hospital and Harvard Medical School researchers believe they have uncovered a method that could be useful in predicting a depressed patient's treatment prognosis, prior to starting treatment.
Read more https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180411111103.htm
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1 ReactionThis depression I carry will always be my companion whether I want it or not. It never goes away and now all I want to do is go away-far, far away. There is no "away".
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1 ReactionBecause of the use of brain imaging there is hope that what is learned will provide the answer to the depression you live with. We live in an amazing age and perhaps tomorrow some research team will provide the answer and free you from the depression you live with today,
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3 ReactionsI feel the same way. IT NEVER goes away!
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