Morning Anxiety

Something I would like to mention about caffeine. I stopped caffeine entirely for a year or so thinking it could be one of the culprits. For me it was not. There are things that will make morning anxiety worse for me and I endeavor to steer clear of...fear of the unknown being one of them. All of those “what if” thoughts and wanting to have a plan in place for them. Does not make sense. Living in the moment is a gargantuan obstacle that has a grip on me. This and waiting on the other shoe to fall. I get myself worked into such a state it takes most of the morning to find my rational mind. It does help doing the short morning routines of Tai Chi, Qigong and Louhan (an ancient form of tapping) Patting. I have found I look forward to starting my day this way. I also purchased some Chandrika soap for a family member and found the fragrance to be helpful. Yup, got a bar for myself and the aroma fills the room.
Got wordy again.

Hmmm, I believe in aromatherapy, but had never heard of Chandrika soap. I'll have to look into that, @parus. I'm a little worked-up today. I have an appointment with an endocrinologist and I have a lot of material I want to present and questions to ask. She is an exceptionally good doctor and a great listener, my only concern is that I give her all the information that I need. My list of questions is a mile long as are my research printouts.

I hope you appointment with the pain specialists goes well for you, @parus

Wow, @merpreb, I really like that analogy to picking out a wardrobe for a meeting. That is a great idea, thanks for sharing it. Hmmmm, now what should I wear today? For sure, confidence....

Good thought, @merpreb. Making the doctor into what we want brings the power back to us~~ Yeah Team!

@parus- Aww parus! Doctors can't help us if we don't open up and tell all, ask all, etc. I always think that maybe if I talk more, ask more questions the doctor will too. You make your doctor into what you want!

@merpreb Did not succeed today. Thankful for the one 5 mg. Of hydrocodone I do get. No other option for injections as insurance only pays for Botox for migraines. My piggy bank isn’t large enough.

I understand, @parus, most of us don't have piggy banks big enough for the kind of medical treatment not covered by insurance. My doctor was saying something similar to me today. As I might have told you, I brought in a stack of research and list of questions. I go to two different hospital systems. One is close to home (that is my PCP and some other specialists) and the other is in Ann Arbor (Univ. of Michigan) that I see for some rare problems that as my doctor said makes me an "atypical patient" I just don't fit a mold😊.

So anyways, I brought with me test results of bone density, blood tests, etc. (from the other hospital) and we discussed the big picture. She thinks that I need to increased my Vit D and magnesium level since they both run quite low. She says that my magnesium level is at low normal and when I engage in physical activity I probably go below normal thereby creating the terrible fatigue. Given the fact that I also have hyperparathyroid and other hormonal problems she said she will have to give it all some thought.

The long and the short of it is that I'm losing bone density in the hip and the med I'm taking for bone density doesn't do much for the hip. The best med to take will not be covered by Medicare unless I have a greater bone loss than I have now (my piggy bank is not big enough for that either). So, I have to get worse until I can get better - oh my......

By the way, when she left the room she thanked me for all of my research. She said that before my next appointment she will be going to an endocrinology conference and she is going to look into some more of the ideas I presented, so maybe she will learn something new.

So back to the drawing boards for both of us. Wishing you well!

@merpreb Did not succeed today. Thankful for the one 5 mg. Of hydrocodone I do get. No other option for injections as insurance only pays for Botox for migraines. My piggy bank isn’t large enough.

@teresa. It's good that you brought your test results with you.
I thought that meds like fosamax increased all bone density. How would it not work for the hips?

I understand, @parus, most of us don't have piggy banks big enough for the kind of medical treatment not covered by insurance. My doctor was saying something similar to me today. As I might have told you, I brought in a stack of research and list of questions. I go to two different hospital systems. One is close to home (that is my PCP and some other specialists) and the other is in Ann Arbor (Univ. of Michigan) that I see for some rare problems that as my doctor said makes me an "atypical patient" I just don't fit a mold😊.

So anyways, I brought with me test results of bone density, blood tests, etc. (from the other hospital) and we discussed the big picture. She thinks that I need to increased my Vit D and magnesium level since they both run quite low. She says that my magnesium level is at low normal and when I engage in physical activity I probably go below normal thereby creating the terrible fatigue. Given the fact that I also have hyperparathyroid and other hormonal problems she said she will have to give it all some thought.

The long and the short of it is that I'm losing bone density in the hip and the med I'm taking for bone density doesn't do much for the hip. The best med to take will not be covered by Medicare unless I have a greater bone loss than I have now (my piggy bank is not big enough for that either). So, I have to get worse until I can get better - oh my......

By the way, when she left the room she thanked me for all of my research. She said that before my next appointment she will be going to an endocrinology conference and she is going to look into some more of the ideas I presented, so maybe she will learn something new.

So back to the drawing boards for both of us. Wishing you well!