PTSD won't go a way. Has been sooo bad lately. Boogey people everywhere. I need help and no place to turn. Keep canceling everything. Piece of no good low life scum. Would that I could move on. Have a home and roof over head. Keep rent and utilities paid will have place to live. we can do this much.
Your post brings tears to my eyes because those could be my words you wrote. I try to turn my inner judgements into compassion for the horror, terror and pain I lived with that seemed to be of my own doing or my own body. But the hatred of my often incapacitating fear is often too much. Compassion doesn't have a chance in the cataclism of torment that engulfs me. I love your little suffering child, feel such compassion for her. Wish it was easier to have it for myself!
I have been having a dreadful time flipping in and out. PTSD I suppose. I cannot even open my patio verticals. I like being outside but not for now. Been doing some drawing of memories all jumbled. I can do more than draw and paint-sometimes.
I have ptsd from the age of 5 yrs,incest rape witness so much violence all by family i have never gotten help,repressed memories,smells chronic pain on all my body i didnt know i had ptsd until a few yrs back triggers, anxiety all my life i cant stand the cold, sounds distract me,i always feel fat i was 5 yrs old when my brother started sexually molesting me, n lasted for yrs.
@parus Receiving your post an hour ago and still staring at it, trying to answer in my head first and won't come out. I was brought up to sweep everything under the carpet and that's what I am trying to do. Yes, I have PTSD that's all I can say right now. I've never talked about it except to tell the Doctor's I have it and that's as far as it went. They never told me anything about it. A lot came together after reading your post! PTSD has been the cause of most of my mental illness. It has played a large part anyway. I dream of screaming for help and no one is hearing me or the words aren't coming out. I will pick up where I left off later when it's clear in my head..
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I feel that way i want to scream n no help thats why its good yo come forward n talk to others or take a stand for urself ur not alone iam here for uuuu hugs i wish we vould get together as a group n talk.
I have ptsd from the age of 5 yrs,incest rape witness so much violence all by family i have never gotten help,repressed memories,smells chronic pain on all my body i didnt know i had ptsd until a few yrs back triggers, anxiety all my life i cant stand the cold, sounds distract me,i always feel fat i was 5 yrs old when my brother started sexually molesting me, n lasted for yrs.
You might look for a NAMI support group in your area. They have great support groups. Here is a link to their website where you can see where the nearest chapter is, https://www.nami.org/Local-NAMI?state=TX
I hope that you can find the support that you need. I look forward to hearing from you again.
I have ptsd from the age of 5 yrs,incest rape witness so much violence all by family i have never gotten help,repressed memories,smells chronic pain on all my body i didnt know i had ptsd until a few yrs back triggers, anxiety all my life i cant stand the cold, sounds distract me,i always feel fat i was 5 yrs old when my brother started sexually molesting me, n lasted for yrs.
I sound like a broken record but once again, my DBSA (depression, bipolar support association) group has many participants that have PTSD in addition to their other challenges. I know this because some of them have mentioned PTSD when speaking. I guess I'm saying not to judge any group by just its "name" as the members are all unique and may be able to offer some help to you.
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PTSD won't go a way. Has been sooo bad lately. Boogey people everywhere. I need help and no place to turn. Keep canceling everything. Piece of no good low life scum. Would that I could move on. Have a home and roof over head. Keep rent and utilities paid will have place to live. we can do this much.
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2 ReactionsYour post brings tears to my eyes because those could be my words you wrote. I try to turn my inner judgements into compassion for the horror, terror and pain I lived with that seemed to be of my own doing or my own body. But the hatred of my often incapacitating fear is often too much. Compassion doesn't have a chance in the cataclism of torment that engulfs me. I love your little suffering child, feel such compassion for her. Wish it was easier to have it for myself!
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2 ReactionsI have been having a dreadful time flipping in and out. PTSD I suppose. I cannot even open my patio verticals. I like being outside but not for now. Been doing some drawing of memories all jumbled. I can do more than draw and paint-sometimes.
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I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. I hope you begin to feel some relief.
Thanks for sharing your drawing. Teresa
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3 ReactionsI live in texas i wish i could join a support group but i dont know where to go if anybody knows let me know
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1 ReactionI feel that way i want to scream n no help thats why its good yo come forward n talk to others or take a stand for urself ur not alone iam here for uuuu hugs i wish we vould get together as a group n talk.
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You might look for a NAMI support group in your area. They have great support groups. Here is a link to their website where you can see where the nearest chapter is, https://www.nami.org/Local-NAMI?state=TX
I hope that you can find the support that you need. I look forward to hearing from you again.
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3 ReactionsGoogle "meetup" groups in area. If none, you can start one but it's a cost of about 10 or more a month to use their publicity and format.
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2 ReactionsHi @parus, how are you today? Thinking of you.
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3 ReactionsI sound like a broken record but once again, my DBSA (depression, bipolar support association) group has many participants that have PTSD in addition to their other challenges. I know this because some of them have mentioned PTSD when speaking. I guess I'm saying not to judge any group by just its "name" as the members are all unique and may be able to offer some help to you.
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