I want life to end & don't know what to do. Been here?

I am so sorry you are in such a dark period. I call it a period because it doesn’t have to last. You are young (I’m 79) and don’t know what is around the corner. I was in the same place at your age. Divorced and alone thinking I would never be loved. Then I met my husband and God gave us 50 years together. Please, don’t give up on yourself. For me my faith has sustained me in moving, loosing my husband and now living alone but life is good. I will be praying for you.

@hanginthere87
Keep praying ! Ask God to help you with your depression, for healing, ask him specifically what your needs are. I will pray for you and others on this thread
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You are loved by God! You are special to him, pray to him and ask him what you need . He will listen. Find a bible teaching church in your community. They will accept you and help you. Most have women's groups, bible study for all levels & opportunities to volunteer. I've felt love and acceptance from every church I've been to in every state ,city I've lived. Give it a try. God has a purpose for your life, for each of us.
I will be praying for you and all here who need prayer . You were wonderfully made! You are loved! If you have a bible read it begin in the gospel of John. You can read the Bible online too.,you can have it read aloud as well. Plus any church will give you a bible too. Sending you hugs ❤️ reach out to me anytime 😊 God bless you! You are loved!

I think that everyday, Im 66 years old in a private rental ( waiting for the rents to go up,) living on a carers payment from the government. my car has decided to die and I cant afford another one, even if I could I dont know that I would get one as the arthritis is catching up.I was recently diagnosed bipolar, doc wants me on meds but i fight against it.this isnt my year and I dont see things improving, even caring for my daughter isnt enough now.

@tisme I am so sorry you are having such a rough time. Life can be such a struggle but God has a plan for each of us. I often ask Why? Don’t just discount meds they can help. Part of the reason we don’t want meds is we believe even they can’t help. It’s that hopeless aspect of our condition. I am praying for you. Reach out to others on this forum it can help you feel less alone. God bless.

@tisme medicine has changed my life. I haven’t felt depressed for 14 years and religiously take my meds. Don’t give up.

I am so very sad for you my heart aches. I was in a place one time like that and it was partially due to being on antidepressants for a while. Is there any way you could wean off of those? It could also be some sort of hormone imbalance as well. I started to walk everyday, try and get some sunlight by sitting outside, and meditate. Life does go in cycles and I promise this time will pass.❤️

I just now read your post, and, to be truthful, was going to skip it. But something made me keep going. I feel very deeply for you and your issues. It is obvious you are struggling to keep going. And keep going you must. I went through some of the issues you described and so badly wanted to just end it all but on the other hand held out hope things would get better. Over the years they did and, for the most part, I'm glad I made it this far. It took a lot of changes in my attitude, my desires, thought processes, etc. It was imperative that I saw myself as others did.
ie: I was prone to self-pity, ignored advice from those older and/or wiser than me and had had the the same issues I was having. There is no answer. If you can, find a therapist who you really 'click' with. That in itself is so important. When I found the right person my life turned around. It was not easy (I did not expect that either) but over several interactions she got me going on 'the straight and narrow' and life became easier, I became happier and now am glad I made it. I hope and pray that you will not give up - which it sounds like you have done, and literally fight for your life. Please keep posting, letting us know how you are doing. Do not expect a miracle, but do keep your wants, needs and hopes in perspective. I wish we lived nearby. I am always looking for a new friend and it's my opinion you will evolve into a great person. Your desire to hook up with othes as close friends is healthy

I’ve always felt that the challenge is that we go through life very aware of our internal struggles, but only see the seemingly happy, content external appearance of most people. Maybe try to find a little bit of joy each day. Nothing dramatic, just something pleasant or uplifting.

@bbteach12 Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect! It sounds like you speak from experience. What types of little expressions of joy have you found give you the best moments?
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