Need help! Depression and anxiety
I don't know where else to go without going to a hospital. I've always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I've been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.
She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don't think it is working.
My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can't concentrate. It feels like I've literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I'm beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I've never had such violent thoughts before. I've had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don't want to do that.
When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I'm having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not
I also have headaches, I'm pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.
This is terrifying. I've never felt like this in my entire life and I don't know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn't around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.
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I hope so too
Thoracic Outlet Syndrome, aka (Paget-Schroetteter's), is a disorder where the veins and arteries that should supply blood to and from your arms and hands (on one or both sides of the body) are cut off. In my case all three, veins, arteries and nerves were stuck between the 1st rib and the clavicle. When my arm was lifted in a certain position pain would occur. It took over 20 years for this to be diagnosed. I eventually saw a pain doctor who recognized the syndrome because he was part of a study at University of Arizona. They Did a special MRI and were able to objectively identify It. I felt vindicated. The syndrome is extremely painful as well as the surgery. When the doctor did the surgery he was also able to visually determine that the nerves where also involved. This is a laymens recollection. Thanx for asking.
At my new pain Doctor I now have to bring in the bottles every month. Is this the same thing? Maybe it's just coincidental that happened at the same time I changed clinics. Lorrie
Pain doctors consider "Guidelines" the same as "Rules and Regulations". They are not. However I understand their predicament. If a person overdoses and they are following the "guidelines" there is a much smaller chance of sanctions and even the possibility of losing their license. Still, it leaves those of us with Pain issues left to fend in large degree for themselves.
Hang in there. I don't know what your pain level has been but I take a similar amount of a morphine equivalent. I think your comment about weaning off 90mg but then going back on because of the pain is an enlightenment for me. I do have to wean down per doctors instructions to adhere to guidelines, but I don't have to wean all of it. I really want to, but I don't want to get myself it trouble. My husband continues to tell me to take it slow. Let us know how it works out.
Slow and steady...
I practiced healthy breathing before the drugs take effect -
Takes work - Good Luck!!!
I weaned off at 15mg every 2 weeks, because I wanted to see if the Cymbalta would do the job on its own. I found that it doesn't, so took 15mg for 10 days, then 15mg in the morning and 15 at bedtime. I still have a fair amount of pain, but I won't go any higher until I talk with the pain specialist next week. I intend to discuss medical Marijuana, as well.
The same thing happened to me but my doctor said that it was time to change doctors even though I was a model patient. I can see the doctor talking to me about not weaning myself off your pills but to have my doctor dump me for a first time offense is ridiculous. I was really shocked! The reason I weaned myself off by myself is because I was having some terrible side effects and I knew I wouldn't hear from her right away and I just couldn't wait that long.
Have a wonderful day everyone, or at least try to.
I am a practicing therapist and I am very concern about law suits. Ironically the suites are based on what I say and how the client interpreted it. But all the cautions that doctors take the end result seems to be if someone takes a medication or advice from their doctor and something goes wrong as much precaution the doctor takes he may still be sued. I have personally experienced mistakes by doctors and hospitals. But before I consider legal action I will talk to the doctor about the mistake and work it out before legal action. But of course in any situation things are different
First as the patient it is not your fault that the doctor wanted you to change doctors. Your doctor should of discussed with you the reasons he wanted you to change doctors. To the point you would understand and no need for guessing on your part. It's a burden that YOU not have to go through. Doctors choose to depart with a patient for many reasons and not being the patience fault. It upsets me and angers me when a doctor is so uncaring of their patients. I hope you can find another doctor that treats you more as a person than a body. Please continue in these conversations and bring your thoughts etc with you it will at least be helpful to me.