Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don’t know where else to go without going to a hospital. I’ve always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I’ve been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don’t think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can’t concentrate. It feels like I’ve literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I’m beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I’ve never had such violent thoughts before. I’ve had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don’t want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I’m having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I’m pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I’ve never felt like this in my entire life and I don’t know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn’t around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.


Thank you so much @guener for your feedback! Yes I am conviced that I should wait another week or 2 to reach 6 weeks. I am concerned of getting off Lorazepam, I’ve been on it from about a month and I think I still need few weeks if things went right with Cipralex. How you went off gapapentin?

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@rattahk, I went from 1800mg of gapapentin down to 1200, then down to 600. When i dropped to 600mg I started having depression, so I went back up to 1200 and am doing better. In the next week I will drop 300mg down to 900 and see how that goes. I was reducing my dosage faster than I was able to deal with the change, and understand that it will just take me longer than I want to come down to a dose that is where I have fewer side effects of difficult in focusing and being tired during the day. When I wasn't working i didn't notice these side effects so much, but I have a relatively new job where it had become a problem for me.

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@guener thank you so much for your feedback and I wish you the best with your ongoing withdrawal plan! Just atay positive and things will be definitely ok! Keep us posted about your progress!

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