Need help! Depression and anxiety
I don’t know where else to go without going to a hospital. I’ve always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I’ve been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.
She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don’t think it is working.
My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can’t concentrate. It feels like I’ve literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I’m beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I’ve never had such violent thoughts before. I’ve had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don’t want to do that.
When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I’m having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not
I also have headaches, I’m pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.
This is terrifying. I’ve never felt like this in my entire life and I don’t know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn’t around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.
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Thank you so much Colleen ….. I’ll have to research this ….
amberpep you are not “stupid” to try and get off your meds. It happens a lot with people on all sorts of meds. The meds work and people feel that they no longer needs the meds. They take themselves off and wham their symtoms come right back. I am no exception. I went on antibiotics and before I finished the medication I felt better so I stopped the medication and the infection came back. So from then on I stay on my meds until they are done and after I spoke to my doctor. This way I feel that I am in control of myself physically and emotionally.
I know the original post in this discussion thread is old, but I’ll share anyway in case my experience can help someone. I know first hand how awful it is to get off of Klonopin. I just went through that early this year. I was taking Klonopin (Clonazepam) and Cymbalta (Duloxetine). The doctor that prescribed it to me reduced my amount too quickly, and I suffered such sudden and terrible anxiety that I was literally afraid to open the mail and suffered daily panic attacks. While every health care policy is different, I’m almost certain that you have a right to get a second opinion. So if your needs aren’t being met, I’d ask for a second opinion.
A few other things I’ve tried that have had a positive impact on my mental health:
1) Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) – I’m a Kaiser member and took advantage of their group class that addresses how our thoughts, behaviors and relationships affect our mood and how we can change things in our lives to improve our mood.
2) Diet – Food can act like a medicine, fuel, or a toxin. It’s just like the prescription drugs that we put in our bodies, and until recently, I haven’t appreciated this fact enough. If you haven’t heard of it before, there’s a great book called The Mood Cure that talks all about how various foods affect the chemicals in our brain.
3) Exercise – “runner’s high” isn’t just for runners. Regular exercise definitely affects the levels of good/happy chemicals in our brains. This is something I’ve struggled with since graduating from high school. Until the last few years, I hadn’t really appreciated how my daily team workouts affected my ability to handle stress and anxiety.
4) Sleep Hygiene – our bodies repair themselves at night while we sleep. Inadequate sleep has been known to affect every other part of our health.
5) Meditation – this is linked to CBT, but I leave it separate because you don’t need a class or any formal instruction. Meditation only takes a few minutes every day and has been shown to have a significant influence on our brains, whether it’s breathing meditation, guided imagery, or a mantra meditation.
I had a situation where I was prescribed Zoloft by one doctor and because of some different health issues, he kept me on the drugs WAY PAST the length of time that any psychiatrist would. Old doc retired, and new doc was absolutely floored that I had been on that drug for SO LONG. We discussed whether it was still helping me and decided to wean me off. I’m currently doing well using CBT, diet change, exercise, and meditation. Even if your doctor keeps you on meds, these other things may also help.
Thank you for all your suggestions quazar. I’m sure when I get my new doctor in November she will be taking me off from Klonopin I just hope she does it real slow.
Thanks for your post! This is such a great site . I think I know all about depression since I’ve had. It so long. But I learn new things from all you guys! I never knew Diet affects your mood! I plan on getting the Book you suggested. Who is the Author? I am all about Therapy group. I went to Alanon for many years in the 80’s when my depression started! I always thought it was my fault that my husband was an alcoholic but I found out it wasn’t! All the people there were in same boat I was! I’ll forever thank that group for saving my life!
The Mood Cure by Julia Ross – here’s the review on Good Reads. http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/159072.The_Mood_Cure
The CBT classes I attended were more educational than one-on-one therapy, but it was somewhat interactive. I can imagine that one-on-one CBT would be even more helpful in terms of putting it into practice. http://www.mayoclinic.org/tests-procedures/cognitive-behavioral-therapy/home/ovc-20186868
Also, the MayoClinic.org website has a search bar at the very top of the page where you can search for more information about the things I mentioned in my post, such as meditation (http://www.mayoclinic.org/tests-procedures/meditation/in-depth/meditation/art-20045858). Having information is the first step to using it wisely. So I encourage you all to get as much info as you can about these things and ask your doctors about what you learn. Sometimes what you find on the internet isn’t correct. So it’s important to find a reputable site, like the MayoClinic, and follow up with your doctor about what you learn. In my experience, websites that end in .org or .edu are going to have the most comprehensive and educational information. The .com sites are commercial sites that are often geared towards getting you to buy things.
I am curious how you found your doctor. I like mine, but may be looking for a second opinion in the near future. I live in Chicago.
@lesbatts know it is easier said than done but make sure when you see your new doctor that you tell her to take you off klonopin slowly. Do not just rely on her let her know slowly.
Thank you very much for the information, quasar. It is very helpful
Yes I know that I have to come off very slowly, I’ve been taken off Klonopin by another doctor about ten years ago. I’m the one who came up with the protocol which I got from Benzos.org. he pretty much let me follow that. Thank you for thinking of me.