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Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don't know where else to go without going to a hospital. I've always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I've been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don't think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can't concentrate. It feels like I've literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I'm beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I've never had such violent thoughts before. I've had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don't want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I'm having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I'm pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I've never felt like this in my entire life and I don't know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn't around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.

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Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Aug 18, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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Obviously the meds. you are on are not working, it's probably time for a change. I had tried at least 30 meds. before I was put on Parnate a MAOI. It made all the difference in the world! Some doctors will not prescribe this older Med. as there are food and drug restrictions with it. I've been on it for quite a long time and haven't had a problem with it, I've even eaten some forbidden foods without a problem. If you go online and read the reviews on Parnate it rates higher in efficacy than any other antidepressant.
Because I am Bipolar I am also on Lithium and Serequel. I really urge you to try Parnate, I can't promise that it will work for you but it doesn't hurt to try it. Good luck!

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cowboy1997 | @cowboy1997 | Aug 19, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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Recently I just found out about TMS stands for Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation . I start the treatment nextMonday and very excited about it. You can find out more about it on U-Tube. Hopefully after my 5 weeks of treatment I will need no antidepressants anymore . I've had depression for at least 30 years. Been on many meds that would help for awhile then change to another. The good thing about this TMS is you're awake it takes 371/2 min 5 days a week. Best of all both Medicare and my secondary insurance will pay for it! You are under a Physchrist care. Will keep you posted! Barb<br><br>

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65742 jeanne | @65742 | Aug 19, 2016

I would be very interested to find out how this turns out for you. <br>@65742<br><br><br>

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callalily74 | @callalily74 | Aug 20, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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I am very, very interested in the results of your treatment. As I've said before, I had several treatments when it was first started. Please let us know your experience as you move through it.

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kellieb58 | @kellieb58 | Aug 20, 2016

Wow that"s great Cowboy i pray this works for you. I have never heard of it/ Will have to look into it. i have had depression and very very bad panic attacks since age 8 wow i was so young. Good Luck would love to hear your feed back kellie.

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Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Aug 20, 2016
In reply to @nene58 "Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with..." + (show)
@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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My insurance won't pay for it, they'll pay for ECT but not TMS as TMS hasn't been approved by the FDA for Bipolar Disorder.

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Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Aug 20, 2016

Yes Cowboy let us know how the TMS goes for you. Are you Bipolar or just have depression?

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callalily74 | @callalily74 | Aug 20, 2016

Good question. Have you heard anything about TMS being helpful for Dysthymia (Persistent Depressive Disorder)?

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apportee | @apportee | Aug 21, 2016
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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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What is TMS? I had severe depression and the last result was to have ECT's, several.<br><br>

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Minnie1971 | @lesbatts | Aug 21, 2016
In reply to @nene58 "Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with..." + (show)
@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?

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TMS is Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation. It's a device that that is used on your head that throws off an electrical impulse. It is not as effective as ECT. You can read more about this procedure online.

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