Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don’t know where else to go without going to a hospital. I’ve always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I’ve been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don’t think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can’t concentrate. It feels like I’ve literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I’m beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I’ve never had such violent thoughts before. I’ve had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don’t want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I’m having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I’m pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I’ve never felt like this in my entire life and I don’t know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn’t around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.

@65742

Hi my name is Jeanne I’m new to group. I’ve suffered with extreme depression as long as I can remember. I was going to Counceling but decided to stop as I don’t really feel it helped me. My depression is not only mental but also due to my situation which I will explain later. I just wanted to introduce my self and check out the group to see if it’s what I need. Thank you

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Hi and thanks for all the feed back from everyone. I fell yesterday and hurt my arm. I can’t use it and of course it’s my left arm. I’m left handed. I’m going to go get it Xrayed tomorrow if isn’t better. I just wanted to say thank you to all for welcoming me to the group.

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I was on buspar at one time i was in a fog i wad angry more my anxiety became worse and worse. I will never ever take it again hun.But i was also told some can take it and some. can”t I myself have been dealing with serve panic attacks depression / They come on so fast. i have been thru every medication since i was 15 . This mental illness destroyed my child hood days it wrecked my teens years. More talking to people that didn”t care or what to listen. We still have not found out why i have these attacks ,I have had counsling after counsling changed so many times when i got married the attacks were getting worse. I was scared all the time.. Then one day in 2005 mind you 2005 I find a good phyic doctor and counsler . They put me on 20 mgs of lexapro and because the anxiety was so bad i had to stop working. i went into being scared to work was taking out by ambulance so many times. i became so scared to work.I would go right into panic attacks about filling out applications shake with fear I was put on xanax 1mg 4 times a day i started feeling great.not off the wall not loopy i was finally living a life.Now after 15 years of being on xanax That controlled my outburst an 15 different meds before the xanax that didn”t work They want me to go 200000 steps and ;live the bad life again.I need a doctor for help I”m not going back to that way of life at my age/ As for you get help with the buspar that med scares the crap out me.Please feel better fast and get another doctor please. sorry this is so long/ it just all came out while typing to you. please have them get you off buspar Thank you for listening Good luck with everything

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Hi! I’m female, 64 years of age and have struggled with depression and anxiety for the last twenty years. I had a fabulous psychiatrist but moved to Mexico from Canada almost six years ago. I still touch base with him by phone occasionally, but I really miss our regular sessions. I’m not on any medication right now although for years I was on anti-depressants and tranks. I fell into a major bout of depression in the spring. That seems to be the worst time of year for me. I live alone and have two adult children back in Canada, so I have no real supports in Mexico. I do have some good friends, but they weren’t in my life when I was going through all that in Canada. And I find that if you haven’t experienced these conditions, you can’t really understand them or be there in the way that’s needed.

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@65742

Hi my name is Jeanne I’m new to group. I’ve suffered with extreme depression as long as I can remember. I was going to Counceling but decided to stop as I don’t really feel it helped me. My depression is not only mental but also due to my situation which I will explain later. I just wanted to introduce my self and check out the group to see if it’s what I need. Thank you

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I too thought I had depression all my life and nothing seemed to prevent the recurrence of deep depression. That is until I was correctly diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and a new med regime helped significantly. I still attend therapy but the frequency of appointments is based on how well I am doing.

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@iamkaren

Hi! I’m female, 64 years of age and have struggled with depression and anxiety for the last twenty years. I had a fabulous psychiatrist but moved to Mexico from Canada almost six years ago. I still touch base with him by phone occasionally, but I really miss our regular sessions. I’m not on any medication right now although for years I was on anti-depressants and tranks. I fell into a major bout of depression in the spring. That seems to be the worst time of year for me. I live alone and have two adult children back in Canada, so I have no real supports in Mexico. I do have some good friends, but they weren’t in my life when I was going through all that in Canada. And I find that if you haven’t experienced these conditions, you can’t really understand them or be there in the way that’s needed.

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Hi @iamkaren, welcome to Connect! I moved your message over to this thread on depression and anxiety so that you can meet some members of the community that may be able to better understand what you’re going through. Please meet @pirateking, @wolfer1975, @jacko, @ronnie3716, @jay_baruch, @lesbatts, @irvkay312, @callalily74, @tomgrinley, @kellieb58 and @65742.

I also want to leave you with this link on coping & support for depression, in hopes that you may find some new resources or new tips that may be helpful: http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/basics/coping-support/con-20032977

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@iamkaren

Hi! I’m female, 64 years of age and have struggled with depression and anxiety for the last twenty years. I had a fabulous psychiatrist but moved to Mexico from Canada almost six years ago. I still touch base with him by phone occasionally, but I really miss our regular sessions. I’m not on any medication right now although for years I was on anti-depressants and tranks. I fell into a major bout of depression in the spring. That seems to be the worst time of year for me. I live alone and have two adult children back in Canada, so I have no real supports in Mexico. I do have some good friends, but they weren’t in my life when I was going through all that in Canada. And I find that if you haven’t experienced these conditions, you can’t really understand them or be there in the way that’s needed.

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Hi!

Thanks so much for your assistance.

I’m just headed out to work right now but will be sure to check in later.

Have a great day!

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I was on Sertraline 100mg and 1mg Clonipin PM. The Sertraline stopped working; evidently I had developed a high tolerance. Tried the Trintellix – side effects SO BAD I reported them to the FDA. Now I’m on Escitalopram 20mg 1 pill AM and Duloxetine DR 20mg PM. Still taking Clonipin at PM. Additionally, I’m taking a B-Complex Vitamin with Methylfolate; read studies indicating Methylfolate (or Folic Acid) helps body to process anti-depressants better (my doctor also read the same study and concurred). Combo of Escitalopram and Duloxetine working perfectly! I hope that soon you’ll find the right combination of medicines that will help.

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@callalily74

Please find yourself another psychiatrist. Where do you live? It is awful what is going on. I am on a combination of meds that work pretty well together. Talk to your dr. about adding a mood stabilizer. also, as the new dr. about brainfog. Go on the web and google best psychiatrists in town where you live? You must find someone who cares about you as a person.Callalily 74

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You are probably having Klonopin withdrawals. Your doctor not only took you off to fast she also reduced the mgs. of Klonopin to much. I know that I mentioned this in a previous post but please go to Benzos.org and read the Ashton Manual it’s a real eye opener. There will be a schedule there telling you how to get off Klonopin with the least amount of side effects. The only problem is it takes a long time to get off from if you follow the Ashton Manual. But it’s worth it. Bring the Manual to your doctor and tell her that this is the way you would like to get off Klonopin.
I am in the same boat, I need to get off 2mg. of Klonopin and I’ve been on it for five years. I tried cutting just 1/4 off my pill and take the 3/4 that was left and I started getting anxiety attacks even though I still took another 1mg. at night. I really don’t understand how doctors can continue to write out scripts for benzos for months or years when they are only supposed to be used very short term. I read that they are more difficult to get off from then Heroin!!
Anyway I did get off benzos previously using the Ashton Method and it was pretty much a painless taper.
Now I want to get off from them again as my new doctor said that they cause depression. So you take something to help with your anxiety and end up depressed! Doesn’t make much sense to me! It’s probably going to take 3-4 months for me to get off from the 2mg. of Klonopin I’m on. Good luck please keep in touch and I hope you find some relief.

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@pirateking

Today was a little better than yesterday. If it is withdrawal how long does it usually last?

Ideally I would want to get benzodiazepines out of my life.

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Again look at the Ashton Manual at Benzos.org that will tell you everything you want to know about Benzos and some things that you don’t want to

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@65742

Hi my name is Jeanne I’m new to group. I’ve suffered with extreme depression as long as I can remember. I was going to Counceling but decided to stop as I don’t really feel it helped me. My depression is not only mental but also due to my situation which I will explain later. I just wanted to introduce my self and check out the group to see if it’s what I need. Thank you

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Yes I also thought I just had depression and anxiety and then I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. I am now on several medications to try and control it. I’m still not stable and have been fighting this for many years. I see a new doctor in November.

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Was it spoken about any Naturopathic & Homeopathic remedies … combined with Psychotherapy …

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@kellieb58

I was on buspar at one time i was in a fog i wad angry more my anxiety became worse and worse. I will never ever take it again hun.But i was also told some can take it and some. can”t I myself have been dealing with serve panic attacks depression / They come on so fast. i have been thru every medication since i was 15 . This mental illness destroyed my child hood days it wrecked my teens years. More talking to people that didn”t care or what to listen. We still have not found out why i have these attacks ,I have had counsling after counsling changed so many times when i got married the attacks were getting worse. I was scared all the time.. Then one day in 2005 mind you 2005 I find a good phyic doctor and counsler . They put me on 20 mgs of lexapro and because the anxiety was so bad i had to stop working. i went into being scared to work was taking out by ambulance so many times. i became so scared to work.I would go right into panic attacks about filling out applications shake with fear I was put on xanax 1mg 4 times a day i started feeling great.not off the wall not loopy i was finally living a life.Now after 15 years of being on xanax That controlled my outburst an 15 different meds before the xanax that didn”t work They want me to go 200000 steps and ;live the bad life again.I need a doctor for help I”m not going back to that way of life at my age/ As for you get help with the buspar that med scares the crap out me.Please feel better fast and get another doctor please. sorry this is so long/ it just all came out while typing to you. please have them get you off buspar Thank you for listening Good luck with everything

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Many times the reason meds don’t work for people is because they have Bipolar Disorder but have not been diagnosed yet, that is what happened to me. I must have gone through 30 meds. before I was diagnosed. Usually when you have Bipolar Disorder you need a cocktail of meds. to get better. I know that sounds awful but that’s just the way it is. I’ve been on up to four meds at a time in the past, right now I’m on three. I’m not happy about it but I’ve learned to accept it. I can’t help that I got some lousy genes along the way.
I have so many other family members that also have mental illnesses. Siblings, a parent, cousins, aunts and uncles. It is very prevalent in my family. I’ve lost a brother and six cousins. I have 35 cousins and many of them have some sort of mental illness, and it doesn’t stop there, many of us have children with mental illnesses. We’ve passed these bad genes to the next generation!

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@kellieb58

I was on buspar at one time i was in a fog i wad angry more my anxiety became worse and worse. I will never ever take it again hun.But i was also told some can take it and some. can”t I myself have been dealing with serve panic attacks depression / They come on so fast. i have been thru every medication since i was 15 . This mental illness destroyed my child hood days it wrecked my teens years. More talking to people that didn”t care or what to listen. We still have not found out why i have these attacks ,I have had counsling after counsling changed so many times when i got married the attacks were getting worse. I was scared all the time.. Then one day in 2005 mind you 2005 I find a good phyic doctor and counsler . They put me on 20 mgs of lexapro and because the anxiety was so bad i had to stop working. i went into being scared to work was taking out by ambulance so many times. i became so scared to work.I would go right into panic attacks about filling out applications shake with fear I was put on xanax 1mg 4 times a day i started feeling great.not off the wall not loopy i was finally living a life.Now after 15 years of being on xanax That controlled my outburst an 15 different meds before the xanax that didn”t work They want me to go 200000 steps and ;live the bad life again.I need a doctor for help I”m not going back to that way of life at my age/ As for you get help with the buspar that med scares the crap out me.Please feel better fast and get another doctor please. sorry this is so long/ it just all came out while typing to you. please have them get you off buspar Thank you for listening Good luck with everything

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I know how you feel about passing the bad genes .It was passed to me and i passed it to my son and he passed it to his to daughters.
My started at age 8 wow ya 8 years old I remember being now at it is called short of breath Then the feeling of hot things feeling like fear going thru my body/ Now looking back on my teen years i acted out had angry angry out burst.Was mean and nasty it would change in a flash.but back in the 60″s and 70″s.Doctors didn”t know much and i feel that way today about them. i have very bad bad panic attacks and scared of everything since i was little. I have asked was or am i Bipolar because of all the angry out burst i had and had,Up Till they put me on the xanax.i was on 2mgs in the am.My mornings are very bad.This new N/p/ that has to look in her books all the time for answers is for the birds.I asked her have you ever had these attacks ? No she said do you know i feel when i have them no she said only what i learned in school/Then how Can you sit there and tell me how i should feel!!!!! she says no i have to read it.Then how can you help me.She told me to listen to her. And not comment on what she says.Just do as i say.I:am so angry with her i”m worse after i leave her. She has me down to 1mg Xanax 3 times a day.for 14-years i was on 4 times a day there were many times i didn”t have to take the 4th. But the other doctor really understood how bad i was and has been,But he moved away and i”m trying to find him/He new what i was going thru because he had many people in his family that had mental illness. Thats what i was told i have. I have tried other doctors for physic.but no luck. I”am affaird of everything . will tell more as i get going.on this new page with everyone.But i will tell you i was scared when i was 8 scared about what was going to happen to me in an hour i even thought what i was gonna be like as i got older. i worried about everything from toe nails hurting to if i couldnt sneeze i went right into a an attack.
They have been very much controled on the Xanax i have not needed to in crease the dose. I”m doing fine where i”am. my question is do i have to leave state and start over to get someone to listen to me. About how every thing i fear. today i was at my grandson birthday party. i went into the pool because i love playing with my grandchildren I asked leann. what did you put into the pool.? she said yesterday some kinda of bleach made for litttle pools and said they couldnt go in it for 30mins after. i went in today and when she said that the fear came over me like a ton of brinks..OH MY whats gonna happen to me being in this pool am i going to be fine.and boom i was in full panic attack/ Now what do i do. someone please tell me. i”m so confused. need im put so bad please help Thank You Kellie.

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@iamkaren

Hi! I’m female, 64 years of age and have struggled with depression and anxiety for the last twenty years. I had a fabulous psychiatrist but moved to Mexico from Canada almost six years ago. I still touch base with him by phone occasionally, but I really miss our regular sessions. I’m not on any medication right now although for years I was on anti-depressants and tranks. I fell into a major bout of depression in the spring. That seems to be the worst time of year for me. I live alone and have two adult children back in Canada, so I have no real supports in Mexico. I do have some good friends, but they weren’t in my life when I was going through all that in Canada. And I find that if you haven’t experienced these conditions, you can’t really understand them or be there in the way that’s needed.

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In all truth at this stage, I feel you need a second opinion. Your posts to me seem similar to what I’d give my doctor and get the wrong diagnosis. First, a CBC blood panel, Second symptoms from when they began to present. Third are you rested at night, worried about tomorrow, depressed, active with family or friends, or lack of friends. Everything along with your systematic function and age plays a role. More importantly and constructively, “how comfortable are you with your doctor and their communication on what she is treating you with and for.” Would a second opinion put your mind more at ease that you were or were not on the right track?

irvkay312

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@kellieb58

I was on buspar at one time i was in a fog i wad angry more my anxiety became worse and worse. I will never ever take it again hun.But i was also told some can take it and some. can”t I myself have been dealing with serve panic attacks depression / They come on so fast. i have been thru every medication since i was 15 . This mental illness destroyed my child hood days it wrecked my teens years. More talking to people that didn”t care or what to listen. We still have not found out why i have these attacks ,I have had counsling after counsling changed so many times when i got married the attacks were getting worse. I was scared all the time.. Then one day in 2005 mind you 2005 I find a good phyic doctor and counsler . They put me on 20 mgs of lexapro and because the anxiety was so bad i had to stop working. i went into being scared to work was taking out by ambulance so many times. i became so scared to work.I would go right into panic attacks about filling out applications shake with fear I was put on xanax 1mg 4 times a day i started feeling great.not off the wall not loopy i was finally living a life.Now after 15 years of being on xanax That controlled my outburst an 15 different meds before the xanax that didn”t work They want me to go 200000 steps and ;live the bad life again.I need a doctor for help I”m not going back to that way of life at my age/ As for you get help with the buspar that med scares the crap out me.Please feel better fast and get another doctor please. sorry this is so long/ it just all came out while typing to you. please have them get you off buspar Thank you for listening Good luck with everything

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Are you sure you don’t have Bipolar Disorder? I can remember in grade school feeling out of place with some of the other kids like I just didn’t belong, although I did make some lifelong friends in grade school. I can remember my depression and anxiety really started when I was 22 years old although I had some depression in my teen years. I had no idea what was wrong with me. My mother told me that I was a difficult child.
It took me years to get the proper diagnosis. I’m still struggling with Meds. and I’m not sure if we’ll ever get it right. I have the good fortune to see a doctor at the Bipolar Clinic in Boston. I’m sorry but I don’t have any suggestions about why you are so fearful. I noticed in myself as I got older I became afraid of more things. I was never afraid of anything therefore I think it is a side effect of one of the Meds. I’m on.
Anyway good luck and I hope someone on here has an answer for you.

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