Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don’t know where else to go without going to a hospital. I’ve always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I’ve been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don’t think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can’t concentrate. It feels like I’ve literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I’m beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I’ve never had such violent thoughts before. I’ve had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don’t want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I’m having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I’m pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I’ve never felt like this in my entire life and I don’t know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn’t around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.

@jimhd

To the moderators: is there a group here at connect for those who have survived a suicide attempt?

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Let me know if /when the new group starts, I would be interested in joining. I have never spoken to others that have gone through it.

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Ask to see a Doctor of Pharmacology to help wean off of your meds. Ever since I had gastric bypass nine years ago, I am very sensitive when starting and discontinuing a Rx. I was safely weaned off of Fentanyl, and all opiates that followed without any side effects.

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Where would one find a Doctor of Pharmacology? I’m going to need help weaning myself off from Klonopin.
Thank you.

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@lesbatts

Where would one find a Doctor of Pharmacology? I’m going to need help weaning myself off from Klonopin.
Thank you.

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HI @lesbatts I am not a medical professional at all, but I would say start with your GP. They are all going to need to coordinate your care anyway. Plus there are two types of doctors of pharm. One is an academic/researcher and one is more of a pharmacist training.

Just my two cents plain,

Peace and strength,

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Yes whenever you have feeling of harm to yourself or others and you can not see your doctor you should definitely go to the ER.While there ask about a referral for a doctor, you can also while in the ER call your insurance company for a doctor even call AMA to get a referral. Don’t try dealing with your depression your self.

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@lesbatts

Where would one find a Doctor of Pharmacology? I’m going to need help weaning myself off from Klonopin.
Thank you.

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With most insurances you need to start with your GP and get a referral. If you do not need a referral it still a good idea to go to your GP or even ask for a referral from your area hospital they have a list of doctors affiliated with their hospital Another place would be at your areas mental health center or clinics. Make sure you ask for a doctor that will meet your specific needs.

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@lesbatts

Where would one find a Doctor of Pharmacology? I’m going to need help weaning myself off from Klonopin.
Thank you.

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Thanks for everyone for your suggestions I’ll look into it. I will have a new doctor at the end of November in the meantime I’m still with my old doctor.
Have a great day!

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Oh dear heart …. this is awful! You should not have to deal with it. Yes, you most definitely need a different Psychiatrist, but for now, I’d go to the emergency room to get this settled and keep yourself safe. Abby

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@sandytoes14

@pirateking Just wondering how you are feeling? I have had anxiety and depression since I was a child. I take Trazodone at bedtime for vivid dreams/ recollections of abuse. I’m also on Cymbalta it helps with anxiety but I take it for Fibromyalgia. When I get panic attacks, I take .25 mg of Klonopin. I hope you are under the care of a psychiatrist and are feeling better.

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Help needed! Do you have a group discussion on this?

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@sandytoes14

@pirateking Just wondering how you are feeling? I have had anxiety and depression since I was a child. I take Trazodone at bedtime for vivid dreams/ recollections of abuse. I’m also on Cymbalta it helps with anxiety but I take it for Fibromyalgia. When I get panic attacks, I take .25 mg of Klonopin. I hope you are under the care of a psychiatrist and are feeling better.

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@cowboy1997 what type discussion are you looking for?

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@sandytoes14

@pirateking Just wondering how you are feeling? I have had anxiety and depression since I was a child. I take Trazodone at bedtime for vivid dreams/ recollections of abuse. I’m also on Cymbalta it helps with anxiety but I take it for Fibromyalgia. When I get panic attacks, I take .25 mg of Klonopin. I hope you are under the care of a psychiatrist and are feeling better.

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Do not give up…find out what is causing the Stenosis….that is very painful. Do you also have scoliosis?

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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don’t know what to do. Any suggestions?

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How are you doing now? I’m sorry life is so difficult for you right now. It’s hard to understand why, when you’re in the middle of a crisis. We all can look back at past tough situations and have a level of understanding about the “why” questions, and see the growth we’ve experienced. That may or may not help us get through what’s happening now. I went through a long time of deep depression, and now I’m just trying to maintain. I know the feelings of hopelessness and pointlessness and worthlessness from personal experience, and it’s not fun. I, also, ask the question, “How long will this last?” We’re in good company. David asked God the same question – one time he asked is found in Psalm 6. We do get weary of illness. I’ll be praying for you to have the strength for each day.

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@cowboy1997. How are you doing by now with the TCS treatments?

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@jimhd

@cowboy1997. How are you doing by now with the TCS treatments?

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I’m doing good but I’m not sure if it was the 20 mg of Prozac daily or a combination of TMS! I quit after 5 wks because of 2 other health problems I was having! Told dr depression Was good but the above was too much! I would try medications b4 TMS it’s a big commitment to go everyday for 6 wks! I don’t work but I’m 72 and it got to be a chore!

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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don’t know what to do. Any suggestions?

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I’m doing good thought I had answered you but it may have been someone else. Don’t give up there is meds just have to get the right one! My 1st miracle drug was Prozac back in 1995 when it had a bad name! I’m back on 20 mg Prozac along w Cymbalta which helps w depression and Arthritis! Hope you get better

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