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Treatment resistant depression

Posted by januaryjane @januaryjane, Aug 24 11:07pm

Ive been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ptsd for over 20 years. I grew up with a lot of trauma and neglect. Ive never done ECT or the ketamine sprays, Im so afraid of them. Ive done a wide array of medications and therapy.
Im so lost right now, I can't seem to thrive, I am disabled because of it.
My mom is having cognitive decline so it's a lot of stress. We have a rocky relationship but she's still my mom.
We are not fighting as much which I like but I am so sad for her and feel helpless. I worry because my dad and brother dont.
So I feel stuck myself.

Not sure what to do when throwing meds at it isn't helping and therapy has me going nowhere right now.

There are very limited resources, no support groups, just AA. Im not sure how to find community, relearn to socialize and find a life for me again.

Should I try something else? Im at a loss

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januaryjane | @januaryjane | 3 days ago
In reply to @meryw "Yes. My insurance (CDPHP) covers Vraylar. I’m very worried about you. I hope that you can..." + (show)
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Yes. My insurance (CDPHP) covers Vraylar.
I’m very worried about you. I hope that you can find something or someone to help you stop this downward spiral.
I’m sorry about your Mom too.
I sometimes hate to admit it, but the truth is that what helped me most with my mother was finding an excellent memory care facility for her. I had to admit to myself that under my and my sister’s care, she was getting worse. She now has professional help 24/7 and the type of care that we could never give her.
I sometimes still feel guilty about not being able to care for her but taking that step was the best decision I ever made. And trust me, she absolutely did not want to go. Lots of crying and screaming and threats of no longer speaking to me. But you know what? She’s happier now. Truly. Calmer, more social and gaining a little weight. Her memory continues to deteriorate but not as fast as it was.
I don’t know where you live but I’m in Upstate New York and it’s starting to get dark a lot earlier here. I think this adversely affects my mood as I too have been feeling more depressed lately. My solution is to make more art and to participate more at my volunteer job.
Please hang on. It always somehow, some way, gets better.

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@meryw thank you so much for your reply! I really needed your kind words. Ive switched therapists and am looking for a support group regarding my mom. She is not bad enough yet to really take any action, so I do what I can but I have no say right now. Sorry about your mother.
I just didn't expect it to happen this soon, whatever it is. She just turned 70.

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januaryjane | @januaryjane | 3 days ago
In reply to @marialyce "There are support groups that are free. Just google “depression support groups” and a lot of..." + (show)
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There are support groups that are free. Just google “depression support groups” and a lot of things will pop up including NAMI (national alliance on mental health) connection click on that. You can find free support groups at the local, state level. A lot are online. There are others like Hey Peer as well. You just have to look. Best of luck.

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@marialyce yes I do look. Nami does not have support groups in my area, the resources before covid were scarce and now mostly non existent. Ive tried a few online groups but it's not the same. I will keep trying. Just want to make connections around my community.

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ngk1 | @ngk1 | 2 days ago
In reply to @januaryjane "@marialyce yes I do look. Nami does not have support groups in my area, the resources..." + (show)
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@marialyce yes I do look. Nami does not have support groups in my area, the resources before covid were scarce and now mostly non existent. Ive tried a few online groups but it's not the same. I will keep trying. Just want to make connections around my community.

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@januaryjane Please look up the NAMI chapter in Greenville SC. There are online support groups. I used to attend Monday Family Support by Zoom and also went through the educational classes. Reach out to see if those are still available to people outside of the community. There were participants from out of state when I attended meetings. Look up NAMI Greenville or NAMI Upstate SC. They offer family support and support for those suffering from mental health conditions themselves. "Family Support" and "NAMI Connection". Great group of people.

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