Three years ago in the spring and summer I tapered off paxil after taking it for 7 or 8 years. I felt fine but then had a terrible awful nasty relapse in that November and I’ve been battling it for three years now. (Interesting term, battle… how about prisoner? I need to think about that because it’s important I’m guessing.). Anyways, I’ve been on Effexor ER. I think it helped. But I do not like it. It makes me feel meh and super tired. Im not happy. . I normally love the gym and I’ve stopped going. I haven’t been walking or birding. I have been getting needed house work done. So It’s not all bad. My psychiatrist (A resident in a clinic) knocked me back from 225 to 187. It’s helped. But I’m still stuck. The worse thing though is the Intense need for sugar. Lots of sugar. And the rest of my diet now sucks too. I’ve gained tons of weight and my BP is high. I’m in therapy now. Trying to dislodge numbed emotions. I’ve had to break up with my boyfriend and best friend who has untreated ADD and I can’t tolerate him. My adult daughter is home and in grad school and uses my car so I don’t get to the grocery store like I normally do. And my geriatric kitty is in late stage renal failure. I’m spinning my wheels and venting here. Trying to get my thoughts straight. My act together. Some momentum going. Argh.