Need help! Depression and anxiety

Posted by pirateking @pirateking, Jul 22, 2016

I don’t know where else to go without going to a hospital. I’ve always had issues with depression and anxiety. It is tough to deal with, but I have a grasp of what it is at least. I’ve been taking 10MG of Lexapro and 1-1.5 MG of Klonopin to treat it. My psych doctor died in January and I started with a new doctor that upped my Lexapro to 20MG and put me on Buspar for anxiety.

She then decided to take me off the Klonpin. She had me go from 1-1.5 to only .5 a day a month ago and then cut me off. My anxity was already starting to increase that month, and a few days after I stopped the klonopin I faced massive panic attacks among a ton of other issues. It took some begging for help until she eventually put me on .5MG of Atavan but I don’t think it is working.

My current symptoms are this horrible brain fog that is impairing my basic functions. I forget things easily, I can’t concentrate. It feels like I’ve literally got dumber. I am clumsier. I keep almost walking into poles and today I almost got run over by a bus. I’m beyond irritable. I almost attacked a man on an elevator because of his breathing, and I’ve never had such violent thoughts before. I’ve had brief sucidical thoughts that I had to talk myself out of because I rationally know I don’t want to do that.

When I stretch my neck it hurts. It feels like my neck or back is violently ripping in two. I’m having out of body experinces. I am sitting at work and suddenly I am not sure if I am dreaming or not

I also have headaches, I’m pacing constantly. I am having muscle spasims, twitching, my hands tremble.

This is terrifying. I’ve never felt like this in my entire life and I don’t know what is going on. Is it the Buspar? The Atavan? The lack of Klonopin and should I go to the hosptial? My doctor isn’t around on the weekends. Any help will be appericated.

I don’t want to argue here, but I believe it is not the government who got us into the opioid drug mess we are in but the doctors who listened, were namby pamby at first, and went lockstep with big pharma’s lies about those drugs. The government is now trying to control the barn door after far too many horses have gotten out.

Just my two cents plain,

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@amberpep

Oh, Lorrie, I do hear you! The gov’t. has its fingers into everything … they think they know better what is good for us than our very own doctors ….. at my age it’s absolutely infuriating! Part of my med. routine is Klonapin – 1 mg. AM, 1/2 mg. at night. I can only get 30 at a time, and I cannot pick them up at the Rx until the day I take the last pill! HOLY COW! What do they think I’m going to do with them? I can just see it now ….. a 71 year old lady (admittedly with an attitude) standing on a corner selling Klonapin one at a time to drug addicts for $30 a pill! How absurd!
It’s time the doctors took over our care and get it out of the government’s hands!
Abby

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Abby, I order Klonopin through my supplemental insurance company’s mail order, and receive a 90 day supply. I take 1mg at bedtime, and 1 other when I need it for anxiety. I rarely take the second one, so a 90 day supply lasts up to 6 months. My morphine sulfate contin is another story. I have to get a fresh prescription from the doctor every month, and hand deliver it to the pharmacy. Managing meds can be a real challenge.

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@IndianaScott

I don’t want to argue here, but I believe it is not the government who got us into the opioid drug mess we are in but the doctors who listened, were namby pamby at first, and went lockstep with big pharma’s lies about those drugs. The government is now trying to control the barn door after far too many horses have gotten out.

Just my two cents plain,

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I agree, that’s why I’m hooked on Klonopin. Still on it after five years, this is supposed to be a short term drug only.

Have a great day everyone!

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@IndianaScott

I don’t want to argue here, but I believe it is not the government who got us into the opioid drug mess we are in but the doctors who listened, were namby pamby at first, and went lockstep with big pharma’s lies about those drugs. The government is now trying to control the barn door after far too many horses have gotten out.

Just my two cents plain,

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When you say “hooked” just what do you mean? I don’t take it in the AM if I don’t need it, nor at night if I don’t need it, even though the Rx is for 1 mg. AM and 1/2 mg. PM. What happens to make you think you’re “hooked?”
Abby

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Hey folks, I agree with most of what has been said. The drug companies push new “improved”, drugs, which subsequently were under patent for 10 years, (which for those that may not know, means that the drug cannot be copied and/or sold generically). The doctors then prescribe them to their patients (often with little discussion as to the side effects, including potential addiction! Then with all of the deaths going on throughout North America, including cities & towns that often had never been heard of before! This prompted MEDIA attention to the issue..which included the addition of doctors either now denying drugs that they had previously prescribed to their patients (with most offering no support in terms of transition etc.) which left many of them seeking anything (more often than not it is heroin, as it is widely available and cheap) they could get their hands onto stave off of the withdrawl effects. Other more seedy doctors opened up pill pushing offices, which as you can guess, prescribed large amounts of the pills which had them making money not only from the pills themselves but also in billing the insurance companies for the “appointments”.
So to deduce the the above, you were either pulled off your pain medicine because your doctors were afraid to leave you on any of the types of pain medication, which they clearly did not know enough about! You do the illegal thing & may choose heroin as your substitute to rid yourself of pain. Or as a yet another alternative to this ( some may misinterpret the often deadly result of the illegal drugs or the misuse of legal drugs) What I am talking about is suicide. In Canada this prompted a group of experts in relation to pain (scientists, pain doctors, etc.) to get together & discuss this topic. It was ultimately decided that the regular every day GP (General Physician or in some cases Practitioner) needed to be better educated in the area of “PAIN”. That with some proper guidance they would feel more comfortable in prescribing it to their patients rather than just denying it all together!
The group & is known as the National OPIOD use Guideline Group or “NOUGG” (for the safe & effective use of OPIODS for Chronic Non-Cancer Patients (CNCP).
The problem as someone previously mentioned, was the Government’s MISuse of the Guidelines that NOUGG had written in order to provide a practical resource to doctors; with the best available information, research & consensus of opinion on this topic. The Guideline was/is NOT intended to be used as a Policy or Standard of Practice, but as a practical resource to provide physicians with the best available information, research & consensus of opinion on this topic.
My experience recently has shown that the insurance companies are also using the Guideline as their Policy as they reviewed my list of medications using the Guideline and DENIED me my meds based on this!!! It was only after escalating my case and telling them that I have no other options other than these medications to help control my pain. Denial of them would lead me to my final option ,,,,,,Suicide. They asked me for my records from the onset of my CRPS 8 years ago to ensure that I indeed had exhausted all other options for treatment of my CRPS.
In waiting for my records I offered up another option… the use of a pain pump which would not only be more effective, it would also use less medication due to this. However, they,( as too ) had my GP and previous pain doctor denied me as they ALL gave me the same response….”That is used for cancer patients only”. None of them could give me a response as to WHY??? Do I really have to be dying in order for you to care about how much pain I am in??
It’s kind of ironic in a way, since denial of or perhaps in the near future the ineffectiveness of my pain meds will most likely lead me to suicide as a result. But then it will be too late for the pain pump!!!
I thought we were in the age of progress and technology, however it seems that when it comes to the area of chronic pain & its meds both the Guidelines as well as, the use of pain pumps for use in cancer patients only is CARVED in STONE!!!!

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P.S. Forgot to mention, that I received a call from my drugstore the other day and they advised me that as of October 1, I needed to save my used Fentanyl patches, as the government has implemented a new program that I will get all the details on shortly!!!!

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@jimhd

@cowboy1997. How are you doing by now with the TCS treatments?

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Feeling good on medication sometimes is confusing to people that that is a sign to ween off of the medication. But with certain medications it a sign that it is working and a reason to stay on it. Please do not ween yourself off of a medication without talking to your doctor

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@susanlorrie

I took Klonapin (aka clonazapam) .5 mg at bedtime for at least 20 years. It helped with anxiety and insomnia. I can no longer take it because I also take pain medication for Thoracic Outlet Syndrome and a Chronic nerve disorder. The government in it’s infinite wisdom thinks it knows more about medication than my doctors and the doctors are too scared to go against their advisory even though it is not a law. I stopped taking Ambien at the same time. To top it all off my pain med was also cut down in the same month. I have not been the same since. I had surgery to remove a rib so the nerves were no longer cut off and started to receive an increased blood flow. Unfortunately the nerves have not regenerated and I am left with some bad pain at times. Stopping the pain meds are not an option so I can’t work and rely on my husband to drive and cook. For that I am very grateful.
I am sorry to ramble, thank you so much for listening if you still are.

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Do not apologize for sharing your thoughts the more you share the more we know and together we make a bad situation that we all have one way or another bareable. Thank you

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@IndianaScott

I don’t want to argue here, but I believe it is not the government who got us into the opioid drug mess we are in but the doctors who listened, were namby pamby at first, and went lockstep with big pharma’s lies about those drugs. The government is now trying to control the barn door after far too many horses have gotten out.

Just my two cents plain,

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Remember that Coca-Cola emphasis on the cocoa. These drugs were used by natives for years for ritual and insight purposes Our government got involved drug wars because of politics. The ones that we should be concerned with are the synthetic ones from the labs. If government or our insurance companies do not let us a drug its because of either money or polities.

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@IndianaScott

I don’t want to argue here, but I believe it is not the government who got us into the opioid drug mess we are in but the doctors who listened, were namby pamby at first, and went lockstep with big pharma’s lies about those drugs. The government is now trying to control the barn door after far too many horses have gotten out.

Just my two cents plain,

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I can miss a few pills also but just try and completely wean yourself off from any Benzo and you’re going to have a hell of a time getting off from them. Go to Benzos.org it’s an eye opener.

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@IndianaScott

I don’t want to argue here, but I believe it is not the government who got us into the opioid drug mess we are in but the doctors who listened, were namby pamby at first, and went lockstep with big pharma’s lies about those drugs. The government is now trying to control the barn door after far too many horses have gotten out.

Just my two cents plain,

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Oh wow … I’ll have to look at that. I know withdrawal is awful, but I guess I was under the illusion that it was if you were on higher doses.
Thanks for the info.
Abby

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@nene58

Have had to deal with being depressed since I was young. Have had to deal with it on my own also. Parents did not believe in helping with therapy, Meds. Has been hard to get thru it at times on my own. Ended up in the psych ward a few times, tried to kill myself. On Meds and in therapy again now. When will it ever end? Just want to feel normal for once. I am so tired of therapy and have been trying to get my therapist so mad at me that will will tell me that she can no longer see me. Pushing my family away, pushing everyone as far away from me as possible. Work is becoming so hard to get up to go to. I feel so lost right now and I don’t know what to do. Any suggestions?

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I already take 450mg of Wellbutrin, which, I think, is the maximum. I haven’t discussed TMS with a doctor yet, and I’d be willing to do ECT if I could get it closer to home. I don’t know if I meet the criteria now, as depression has stabilized. Neuropathy is my current primary issue, and the longer the pain continues and worsens, the more it effects my depression level.

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