Lock down from COVID and Depression
I have now been home without seeing friends except virtually for a year. Yes, I felt sick a year ago after being out all day doing errands and finding new destinations, feeding my soul. I had a slight fever. I may have gotten a chill since it was an unseasonably warm day. Then COVID hit and I live in Washington. I have had no symptoms,not been tested, I am a cancer survivor. My legs and body have gotten progressively more shaky. Been to a few doctor appointments and gotten a referral to an orthopedist,whom I saw yesterday. He told me that the problem is that I am not moving enough, that I am not strengthening my muscles and that what is happening is that my shakiness is self-induced. (I have fallen twice and now have a walker,provided by the wonderful Lions Club).
How much of this is physical and how much psychological? I really feel weak. My back aches,my toes are numb, my mind confused, I don’t sleep well. I call a few friends but don’t mention any of this. I am 79 and very aware that my next birthday is 80. I don’t know how to suddenly become my old self: active,in charge of things,interested in many subjects. I can’t even read for any length of time.
My husband is supportive but HIMSELF ACTIVE. He walks early in the morning,meets friends there,reads and belongs to a book club. The housework is suffering. He goes grocery shopping and cooks but ignores the dust and disruption of my messes.
I am on the list for the vaccine but it is not readily coming. I feel trapped in a mindset because I feel weak from inactivity. Where do you start?