Living with your abusers
Hi, im 34 and living with my parents because of health reasons. Im having flashbacks right now, so a lot of feelings are boiling up in me.
I was severely neglected and abused by my parents and brother. And the fights between my mom and i have been bad until this day. Ive been in therapy more than half my life, but reaching them to reconcile and communicate has been a nightmare. I ended contact with my brother. He is most likely a sociopath, my father is a disconnected narcissist, and my mom is very volatile. We never talked about anything, especially problems. After a lot of hard work in therapy, i confronted them all, with bad blowback. Its been a few years since then, but oh how exciting its been. I lost a lot, when i was just trying to say how i feel. But i dont take it back, that weight was lifted. The problem is, my health, that this is the best choice for now. Its not always bad, but i think it drives me a little crazy living here after ive grown and processed so much, yet they maintain unhealthy interaction. I build myself up, put up boundaries, but then somehow feel like a little kid again. I still feel like i cant speak my mind…..i just want to scream. This was happening before covid, but im sure its making it worse. I dont know if anyone can relate to family like this. Im feeling alone.