Feeling on the bright side of darkness today despite PTSD history

Posted by kelly delarosa @kellydelarosa, Nov 16, 2011

Hello. I suffer with a P.T.S.D. History . I worked as a carpenter, and machine operator. I went to school for industrial electricity, but never used my knowledge accept to wire a lamp. 5 suicides in my family. Lots of mental illness. My husband and grandfather committed suicide. I’ve Been in more than a hand full of unhealthy relationships involving drugs and violence abuse and homicide. My boyfriend’s in jail. I like him better there. I’ve been hospitalized 5 times for depression, eating disorder, Suicide attempt, I’ve had electric shock treatment . I am a single parent of a 17 year old girl who wants to be a mounted cop, or work on the k9 unit. Just looking on the bright side today. Its raining and I love the rain. Today’s a good day to ride the horse. Tomorrow might not be good for me depending on my mood swings. I look forward to your blogs.

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You have had a tough life and you see still alive. The horses can be a therapeutic outlet maybe do that more. I feel for your daughter who has dreams and those around her are dying in ways that are scary.
What do you want out of life? Do you have goals or want to be healthy? I’m not judging you. I would like to know if you are ready to live a meaningful life instead of existing in utter chaos. I will pray for your family and urge you to take your precious life serious and make healthier choices.

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