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Feeling on the bright side of darkness today despite PTSD history
Hello. I suffer with a P.T.S.D. History . I worked as a carpenter, and machine operator. I went to school for industrial electricity, but never used my knowledge accept to wire a lamp. 5 suicides in my family. Lots of mental illness. My husband and grandfather committed suicide. I've Been in more than a hand full of unhealthy relationships involving drugs and violence abuse and homicide. My boyfriend's in jail. I like him better there. I've been hospitalized 5 times for depression, eating disorder, Suicide attempt, I've had electric shock treatment . I am a single parent of a 17 year old girl who wants to be a mounted cop, or work on the k9 unit. Just looking on the bright side today. Its raining and I love the rain. Today's a good day to ride the horse. Tomorrow might not be good for me depending on my mood swings. I look forward to your blogs.
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Pull it together. You do have the ability to say stop! That was my life also. I reached the point that he almost killed me. I wanted to take a knife and degut him because I did not think he was human. It was hard but I did it. Keep in touch. I do care.
Dam them. You are entitled to social security disability. keep trying.
Ive been up and Ive been down the lord truly keeps me affound one thing I know for sure the lord wont put more on you than you can bare honey get on your knees and thank the lord that he woke you up this morning and thank him for all the good things in your lfe they will out way the bad thank him for your wonderful daughter who knows where shes going in life I am a single parent of a teenage girl also and when things get bad for me I get on my knees and I pray like god loves you your daughter loves you so do yourself a favor and love yourself in gods name I'll keep you in my prayers
Keep on praying honey and trust me god will guide you in the right direction pray to god that you can get up in the morning get yourself together look in the mirrow and tell yourself you are beautiful and smile all day like you never have before just know that god loves you and someone out there can love you to you dont have to put up with abuse people do things cuz we let me and we think thats the way it should be but its not keep faith in the lord I'll keep you in my prayers
My son was robbed at gunpoint, therapist diagnosed him as having PSTD. She used EMDR on him and he is cured. Research it, and I will pray you will be healed as well.
You have had a tough life and you see still alive. The horses can be a therapeutic outlet maybe do that more. I feel for your daughter who has dreams and those around her are dying in ways that are scary.
What do you want out of life? Do you have goals or want to be healthy? I'm not judging you. I would like to know if you are ready to live a meaningful life instead of existing in utter chaos. I will pray for your family and urge you to take your precious life serious and make healthier choices.