Severe anxiety/depression. Need help.
Five months ago I had mental breakdown and wasn’t able to get out of bed, let alone work or even get out for a meal for days. I experienced severe depersonalisation/depression/anxiety and involuntary bouts of crying.
The doctor put me on venaflaxine which made me borderline suicidal. Was then gently moved to Zoloft but the side effects including suicial ideation, eye pain, blurred vision, seeing black spots, nausea etc didn’t leave me. I was switched for the 3rd time onto the lightest dose of Escitalopram 5mg 6th of last month with 100mg Pregabalin in the mornings and 100mg Pregabalin in the night.
I’ve taken off work because nothing in life interests me at this point and am barely living one day at a time. I know I’m not suicidal but the ideation doesn’t go, however if I try and stop the meds, the anxiety comes back with a vengeance. I also suffer from diurnal mood variation disorder, which means my mornings/afternoons are the worst and I only feel better by evening. I’m slowly trying to get off the pregabalin. And am going to increase dose of anti depressants. Anyone have any clue on this? Sorry for the lengthy message. Am desperate.